1935MARY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=1935MARY 1935MARY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ LAUGH OUT LOUD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352714 Laugh out Loud I woke up at 5 this morning, nothing unusual about that, but it was the first night I had slept all night without waking up, but I was busting at the seams. I got up went to the bathroom and got a cup of coffee and went back to my room and watched a little TV , I love the old shows. Why did I say laugh out loud ....well while sitting there on my bed I found myself giving myself a pep talk. Oh yes I was telling myself how proud I was and if the rain holds off I could go walking... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:24:27 EST Look how far I have come,but how far will I go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6351554 I been back on sparkpeople for about 25 days, and looking at the distance I have come , well I think it is amazing. When I first came back I realized that the first try at this was for all the wrong reasons........ When my mother was ill and dying , with tear filled eyes she said promise me you will do something with your weight. I have struggled most of my life with mine. I would see people looking, I would hear what they were saying , and it would hurt. I don't want you to go through what ... Fri, 21 Apr 2017 12:30:48 EST Celebration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346921 The birds are singing, outside my windows, they seem so happy and it fills my heart and soul with warmth. I too am singing .My sugar number good 111 and that is something to be happy about. I got 8 glasses of water in yesterday. It took me two weeks but that is ok I finally did it. I weighed in this morning and down three pounds, went walking in park yesterday, figuring I could make it around once and it would be okay ,it would be a start, but I made it not once, not twice, but three times.... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 07:47:28 EST That was then, This is now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346537 Before I started back here I would look in the mirror, what did I see , a glob, one big glob looking back at me . A miserable, depressed, self loathing glob. One that felt sorry for herself, daydreaming about when she was young, healthily . at 106 lbs. in tears making herself promises , of starting back on Sparkpeople, Walking and going back to the gym, only breaking them and doing nothing . Weeks passed, months passed, excuses were so darn easy, why I couldn't start that day , I would tomo... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 13:15:16 EST If I stumble I want fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345011 Yesterday was a bad day for me, due to the sleep , or not much sleep the night before. My legs was bothering me, not hurting, restless. Between my legs and going to the bathroom 7 times, I got about 2 hours of good sleep. When I got up , my legs, my hole body felt like jello and did for most of the day. I stayed on track with my food but not my activity. Today is a new and happy morning.. I feel great , got a good night sleep, my sugar is 86 and I am happy. I haven't been happy in along ti... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 08:00:07 EST My inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344015 Today I am already feeling better about myself. My sugar number 104 . When you start out good it is easier to stay good all day, plus I feel better, a little more energy, more will power, better mind set and strength to carry on. This day is going to be great. I have a house to clean today, which means some activity , that sounds better then exercise, but I also get to see my granddaughter she is my big supporter . She has talked about us going to the gym together although she can't do allot... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 06:50:25 EST On the seventh day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343541 Today was time to weigh in, down 1.1/2 pounds. I take that as a win. The biggest thing on the seventh day is my sugar numbers, although they are up and down a little they are improving. On this day eight I am sitting a new goal for myself and goal I am positive I can reach by July 10th , my next doctors appointment. To have brought my A!C down from 8.4 to 7 not impossible, very doable and if a few more pounds goes out the window I think I can live with that. My doctor will be happy, but mo... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 07:51:22 EST A small step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343006 Good morning. I am not a breakfast eater, never have been. Today I am ,taking that small step. I am going to have a yogurt, not much, but it is a big deal for me. Going from nothing to a lit of something. Then get dress and off to clean a house, that is my work out today .LOL . Everyone have a wonderful day. Mon, 3 Apr 2017 07:22:40 EST Seeing things differently http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342146 I stepped on the scale today. I was just checking. It has only been 5 days and I wasn't expecting anything, and it wasn't much a few ounces, but that didn't bother me. No not at all. I know it takes time, but losing weight is not my top goal. Do I want to lose, do I need to lose. you bet I do. The most important thing right now is lowering my sugars . If I can lower my A1C I can lower my insulin. The less insulin the more weight I can lose, cause anyone that is on insulin knows it puts weight... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 09:47:59 EST Yesterday challenged me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341668 Yesterday was a crazy, demanding day. I started out picking up my granddaughter to help clean a house, which took 2 hours, went by doctor's office to do lab work, ran her to Walmart to pick up something, to her mother's, to an appointment, stopped at subway grabbed lunch . It was 2 o'clock and I hadn't eaten anything, but this is not unusual there are many of days I just eat diner , but I don't lose weight, just gain. I don't skip meals for weight loss, just not hungry or busy. Anyway we ... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 09:51:30 EST I am putting my fi http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340336 I was doing this over a year ago. I had my a1c number down, had went down on my insulin, and had lost some weight slower then I wanted , but it was working. Everything started happen , and I started putting everyone before me again , and slowly slipped away from this , but it is the only thing that had worked for me. So here I am again and weigh more then I did the first time, my health is a wreck. I decided I come first, I am having two great grandkids born this summer and I want to be in b... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 16:49:03 EST Problems,Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461737 Sunday evening I was standing in my kitchen ,sitting up the coffee for Monday, when a sharp pain hit my foot, hill and ran up my calf, It was so intense it almost brought tears to my eyes and just about through me to the floor. I grabbed the counter and lifted it up off the floor . I stood there for what seemed liked hours ,but probably a few minutes , then made it to the table and finally to the living room. My husband who was asleep woke up about an hour later and came through to get him a ... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 07:46:46 EST Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458749 Yesterday was my one year sparks anniversary . I have had my ups and downs and fell off the wagon a time or two but no more messing around. I finally figured it out I had my goals wrong. By putting my weight wants first I got mad and disappointed when the lbs just didn't fall off. I know at my age and problems it was going to be harder, but in my mind 2lbs a week was doable. But it isn't . It made me angry . Even though my health was getting better ,the weight lost was consuming me. I coul... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 10:10:37 EST update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452159 I am back from vacation. It was fun. When I got home I had the letter I had been waiting on about my Thyroid. They done an ultrasound on 7-12. they found a small complex nodule 0.76 cm in the left lobe, to small to biopsy and low risk of malignancy . I will have another ultrasound done in 6 to 12 months. I guess she will let me know when I go back in November. Tomorrow I have to go to retina specialist . oh joy. Dye shot in my veins and of course eyes dilated, that wouldn't be so bad if I ... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 21:25:00 EST Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441997 Tomorrow , we go on vacation. We have a time share in Gatlinburg which is only about an 1 3/4 hours away, no long driving. He likes to leave early and they don't have to have it ready until 4 . Sometimes we get lucky and get it by 2.30, but still we have hours to wait and try to find things to do.And he starts getting upset. I know he likes to leave early because of traffic , so I think he shouldn't get upset. Anyway we decided to stop at flea market ,in Sevierville , then go on up and tell... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 08:48:10 EST Quickie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432849 Just a quick blog today. After being off tracks .my sugar went up. After getting back to things they are going back down, but I am still waking up to numbers like 176, 157, 166. But my doctor told me I was smart and I knew when and how to adjust my meds. As much as I hate too I know I am going to have to go up on my Lantus at night, but it is my fault. So tonight I will go up and when I get two weeks of good numbers 90 to 110 I will try to go back down. I am also adjusting getting back into t... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 09:17:02 EST To good health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429077 I was reading blogs this morning and I came across one about being in the middle. It was about how I have been feeling. How you start questioning yourself about what you are doing and how you lose the drive , the love of it all. I let the thoughts of slow weight lost ,blind me from seeing the big picture, of being my health. I knew I was going backwards, but I kept spiraling downward, out f control. When I went to doctor, my numbers was up to no surprise . I told her I had lost my way and... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 08:38:21 EST Another year has passed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416435 Well another year has gone by, and I am a year older, the question is am I wiser? Yes , I am.. I am .. I am . Last August I found sparkspeople and I begun to learn allot. Even though I have stumbled and have fallen along the way , and for the last month and a half , I have been struggling with it .I can say I have learned allot. I learned to like myself, know one can do this for you, but you have allot of friends and support along the way. I have learn to eat more healthy and if I screw up,... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 08:29:18 EST Rain is washing it away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393156 It is raining today and my body feels it, but today is an another day. The rain is just here to wash away days that have pasted. My grandson got married Saturday , Kelsey, went up there on Friday and made the cake, which was very good for a 14 year old. She done a great job. She also done decorations. We arrived a little early, it was crazy, they were rehearsing , I told them it was almost 2 ,they needed to get dressed, that when they informed us that the time had changed to 3. They danced do... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 09:15:03 EST LOOKING FOR A BRIGHTER DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387276 I haven't written a blog in a month. I guess things have got me down. Tyler is getting married Saturday , it is going to be a big mistake, but one he has to make and learn from. I haven't been to the gym in a month, but on the bright side Kelsey won 8th grade prom queen and I got to go to Peoria to see my aunt. I have lost a couple of pounds, but I have not been eating much. We did get our bedroom finished over the week-end ,and it is all put togethe... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 19:55:41 EST Moving forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356021 Since I wrote my last blog and reading all the advice and encouragement from everyone, I decided I needed to figure out what was really causing me to be so down . It was just a little of what I said, but I thought long and hard about when I started to get depressed and I found my answer, the whole deal is about my oldest grandson. He met this girl or I should say women. Tyler will be 20 June 1 , his new g-friend is 32. Well the age difference doesn't bother me . It was other things ,that unf... Tue, 14 May 2013 08:43:30 EST The spark is burning out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344080 I hate to write a negative blog, but this has been bothering me for days. I feel like I am losing my Spark. Everything is like a chore and I hate doing it. I hate all food in general , hate thinking about fixing or even eating it. Weighing, measuring, tracking , taking meds, all of it. I guess I am a little depress. I think about my grand kids, I think of mother's day, my mother being gone, how only 2 of my kids for sure will call me a wish me a Happy Mother's Day. Yesterday my hubby , who... Fri, 3 May 2013 08:21:59 EST I can see clearly now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336171 Good morning, it has been awhile since I have blogged. I guess I have been slacking. That is not true I have been.For the last almost three weeks I have been to the gym , I think 4 times. But as the song goes something like this, I can see clearly the rain is gone. I can see all obstacles in my way. The biggest one being me. Some days yes I had good reasons for not going ,other I put it off to do it tomorrow and tomorrow ,the good reasons kept me from going. I think one thing is I really... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:34:58 EST Yes sometimes I forget http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320648 Sometimes, I walk into a room and stand there looking around, trying to remember why I came into that room. Sometimes I take things out of the oven and forget to turn it off.Sometimes I forget to take my insulin, yes after all the years I have been on it, but I will do my reading go to figure out and fix my food ,an eat and than I can't remember if I took it. Afraid to overdose, I wait three hours and see what my numbers are telling me. Yesterday, my grandson and I went to Walmart, I parked t... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 10:16:24 EST April Fools The Joke was on ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313492 Oh yes April is here a new month, new goals. April fools day, was a very busy day, took my daughter's dog to vet, stopped by my doctor's office to pick up insulin, paid car insurance , picked up oldest son, to work on my dryer.The day was done and I didn't make it to the gym. So I planned to go early the next day before cleaning my houses. Boy was I wrong, woke up feeling nauseated , I tried drinking a cup of coffee ,not good. I went to clean first house, I didn't eat, stopped at McDonalds a... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 10:24:28 EST On track again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302999 Fixing to go off to the gym this morning ,and tomorrow too, for I can get it back in my routine. Three days a week for now, I need at least three. I need to feel the changes in my body, even if I can not measure it anywhere else. I can measure it through the feelings and it will keep you going. I got more sleep last night,but I fell asleep on the couch arond 8 and woke up around 11 and went to bed .I can't remember if I took my insulin, because it was up this morning. I know I fell way under ... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 09:35:57 EST OBSTACLES Are in my way. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301876 The last two days I woke up to snow on the ground ,but not the roads. Monday I went a cleaned a house and worried that my roads here could get bad. Sometimes we get hit hard when Knoxville doesn't, but everything went fine. Yesterday more snow and I was just lazy and had no desire to go out in it. So I talked myself out of going to the gym, it was so easy. I remember when I went to curves at first I would talk myself out of going, any reason was a good reason. Then I got mad at myself and for... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 10:56:19 EST How Blogs Make My Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295975 Good morning. A short blog today, I get up every morning , pour myself a cup of coffee, turn on my computer, take my Blood sugar while I am waiting. Then I put my info in,then I read blogs. Then eat breakfast. I love to read the blogs, they help me in so many ways. Some motivate and inspire you, some make me smile and or laugh, some make me cry, some relate to me . Some of them ,people are going through lost of love ones, or sharing their feeling of their lost. This hits deep with me , since ... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 09:08:32 EST Update on my friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292209 Thanks goes out to all my friends for their prayers and advice. Things went great after she cried a little and she started to say she was sorry. Again I told her there were no shame in crying. She then said the Bible even said and Jesus wept. That was one thing that was bothering her, she couldn't read her Bible. I told her even if she couldn't see To read it,she knew allot of the passages and she started quoting some and said when she laid down at night she quoted them. God understands if y... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 10:10:44 EST Prayers to help someone are needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287510 I am going to check out the new gym today and I am excited. I really need it. It is a bright sunny morning and I fell pretty good. The other thing I am doing ,I need prayers for, Yesterday while I was at one of my ladies houses, I was going to get her groceries, she told me Mary (whom is a friend of hers and I use to clean her house too.) wanted me to call her . I had called her last week, when I heard she had fallen and she said that they said she had her sprung her ankle.and I told her if... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 09:34:40 EST Profits and lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283702 Everywhere you work they have profits and lost statements. Well I have one for my weight loss progress. Here it goes. Profits: Better health , more energy, better attitude, new outlook, allot of spark friends, allot of support, teams, tools, knowledge, new foods, blessings, drinking water, exercise, liking myself, new foods, new life style, happiness, sunshine and smiles. The lost: I lost weight, Cut down insulin, bad eating habits, Bad attitude, depression, hating myself, lost i... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 09:56:18 EST Great Ending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282190 Some people look at Sunday as the end of the week, others as the beginning . I look at it as the end, so I ended my week great. Yesterday was a great day although I fail way under calorie range. I ate a yogurt and had coffee, went the the store, made a late lunch early diner , a roast with veggies and a spring mixed salad. After we ate ,I was going to the park to walk and my Hubby decided he would go. This came as a big shock. I enjoyed sharing my routine with him. Even though he is at work... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 08:45:56 EST Looking for the open door http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279840 The week started great. Monday the sun was shining and all I needed was a light jacket on to walk . I went to the park and I walked my mile. I enjoy walking at the park. There was people walking their dogs,people with babies in strollers. This one baby was about 14 months old and they were walking in the opposite direction and every time we passed each other she would smile, after a few times, she started smiling real big and you could see her eyes light up, it was like she was thinking I kn... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 08:51:01 EST Weather and weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268155 We have been having some Spring like weather upper 60's, and beautiful sun. Some days rainy, cloudy, but warm. Now it is back to cold snow showers, may even get an inch tonight. The spring like days ,just made me feel good. I love Spring. Everything coming back to life. This made me think. The weather we have here , well you never know what to expect, that's the way my weight loss, has been going. Like the weather, cold to warm, warm to cold , stay there for awhile , then back to warm. My wei... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 08:08:40 EST Big Head http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264386 I want to thank everyone for your kind words and being here for me , all the support , you have giving me. My week started off wonderful. Yesterday I was cleaning a Older ladies house and had an accident a table I was dusting fell over and a vase fell to the floor, lucky it did not break. Water and flowers went all over the floor, anyway I grab some towel and cleaned up the mess, later Carolyn said, you know when you were cleaning the floor I noticed you have lost weight in your backside, s... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 08:25:30 EST Noticed at last http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261912 Sometimes ,I feel down and wonder why I am doing this, nobody notices it anyway. Boy was I wrong. A couple of the ladies I clean for made some nice comments to me about I was looking good ,and how much had I lost, I was really toning up.. This made me feel good, but I thought they were just being kind because they knew I was trying to lose weight . So the other night I was sitting on the sofa watching TV with hubby and out of the blue he said," You are doing something right." not knowin... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 09:46:26 EST Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254514 I am glad it is Monday. A new day a new week. Although I or I should say we got allot accomplished the week-end. Finally got my granddaughter's bedroom finished. Finished painting it, putting flooring down, moving the furniture back,hanging things, got the laundry done. For the first time in a long time, everything went smooth and my hubby and I enjoyed doing something together and we were both so proud of each others accomplishments. The bad part is , I didn't eat right. I didn't go over, bu... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 08:43:48 EST Results to be proud ? Or not? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247829 Sorry I didn't get my results posted earlier, but here it is. My dr, walked into my room and said Carol you should be proud of yourself I mean really. really proud. you are going in the right direction. She just had so much energy and good vibes flowing from her. Sugar A1C down from 7.5 to 7.3 cholesterol down 148 to 144 good up 53 to 54. this is in black and white and I can see progress, progress, progress. It made me feel so proud, I can stand tall and smile. I accomplished this , putt... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 13:42:17 EST Doctor and I am excited http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246082 Today I go to my endocrinologist . I am excited to see how my sugars and cholesterol is doing. I really like this doctor . She sits down with you and tries to help you come up with a plan and just talks to you. One time my son went with me and she remembers him and asks about him. With all the people she sees. That's great. I am going to curves first only 4 days until they close and I am going to go everyday, then dr. then clean a house,busy day. I think my dr. will be happy even if not... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 08:40:07 EST Omen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243668 The other evening ,I stopped by the store to pick up something for diner as I was walking to the door I noticed my shadow. Now I know it has always been with me I just hadn't paid much attention to it in a long time. It was about 7 or 8 foot tall and a body to kill for lol. A thought crossed my mind . I hadn't noticed my shadow in years, just like I haven't really took care of myself in years. Maybe it was an omen. Now I know I will never be 7 or 8 foot tall and if I follow in Mom's footsteps... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 08:37:05 EST Good things comes in strange ways http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238554 Hello, My friends. This is not going to be me whining today. Things are better here and my hubby is going to have the mri done today. His biggest problem is he is scared and he is frustrated he can not do things like he use to. Pride , the feeling of letting me down. Some people can age gracefully, and others can not handle what is thrown their way. Anyway, I really want to talk about nice people, and rewards. My daughter, whom hardly ever misses work, had to miss 2 days, the 2 biggest days w... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 10:30:49 EST Whining again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233256 I want to thank everyone who commented on my blog and thanks for the prayers ,and help,but unfortunately I am here again to whine. Yesterday I went to curves, I love curves for allot of different reasons. One it is something I can do,location, and people I have come to know and people I can talk to. We have fun. Anyway I found out yesterday it is closing on 2-14 and the other 2 locations are to far, So I don't have a clue of what I am going to do, if it was warmer weather I would walk more as... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 13:07:25 EST A horrible thing to say http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231356 Well the weather wasn't as bad here yesterday as some places. Mostly hard winds and rains, no power outages. Today it is colder and warning of black ice, but it is going to warm up and I will go out latter . My husband went to doctor yesterday, with his arm, his shoulder to be exact. A few years ago it started hurting him everyone was saying it was a torn rotators cup . {I think I said that right} after MRI, some exercises and weeks and weeks of doctor visits ,he was told it was arthritis a... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 08:48:50 EST Stormy weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229864 Sitting here listening to the weather. I live in tn. and they just said that the severe storm warning ,for my area in the next 20 minutes. It is raining ,and the wind is up, I think 45 miles per hour,the temp is about 70 in February crazy,but the temp is suppose to drop and snow flurries in the next few days. East Tennessee has crazy weather, never know. I am glad I went to curves and went walking yesterday. I am sad that they are trying to sale Curves or close it, because they are not one c... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:29:33 EST I am not quitting ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225835 Thanks to everyone that commented and gave me advise on my last blog. To clear up any misunderstandings, I am not thinking about quitting I can't . I have many reasons not to,the two biggest ones is I can't break the promise ,that I made to my deceased mom and the one I made to myself. Another one is I can't be a success story if I Don't see it through. I am not going to go crazy with changes, it is just, I make it to curves 3 times a week, just going to add walking when weather permits or a... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 16:19:26 EST Open for subjection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219687 Yes ,I am getting discouraged! It is not so bad when the scale don't move ,if inches are going away. But when both are at a stand still, I start spiraling downward. After feeling like this all day yesterday ,I started to think. Okay here it goes. The accomplishments thus far. <em>334</em> I joined Sparks people an... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 08:11:14 EST The greatest part of my day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209946 This week it has been raining,and it make my body hurt. I do have arthritis , and before I started doing sp, I let arthritis rule my life. But Monday morning it was pouring down rain and I got out of bed , hurting ,stiff and walking like I was drunk and made my way into the kitchen and made my coffee, took meds, and turned to my spark people, worked on it and got ready and left the house and went to curves, and then went to clean a house. Yesterday I had doctors appointments and yes it was r... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:51:36 EST Making the better choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206244 My week-ends , I usually get of track when hubby is home. This week-end on Saturday ,we worked on the house and done good on eating. Sunday. we went on a date, he said we didn't get to take time for ourselves . We drove to Gatlinburg to have lunch, diner, it was kind of both. Although he didn't eat right , he had a big baked potato, with butter and sour cream and four rolls, a chopped steak, with mushrooms and onions , salad,and a sweet tea mind you he is Diabetic too. I to could of went that... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 08:21:28 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203308 Sorry I hadn't got back to my update on my eyes until now. I do have cataracts,but they are nowhere near ready to be removed.No macular degeneration . Woo rah. The retinopathy is a little bit worst, treatment is to keep powering my sugars and keep them stable. Which being here on sp with my friends will help me accomplished that and other things. This is not a set back, but a motivator to push harder, because no one wants to lose their sight, and there is no reason to,if you can prevent it. S... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 09:01:31 EST Doctor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200039 Going to the eye doctor today. I hate it . I have to have eyes dilated ,I hate that. It is every 6months, because I have diabetes retinopathy . When I first went he told me I had , other things like macular degeneration ,and cataracts, but he hasn't said anything about these in the last year, just watching retinopathy. I hope this hasn't gotten in worst, he said they best treatment for it is getting sugars under control and since the last time I seen him, they are better. I don't know if it ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:13:59 EST