1935MARY's SparkPeople Blog

Moving forward

Tue, 14 May 2013 08:43:30 EST

Since I wrote my last blog and reading all the advice and encouragement from everyone, I decided I needed to figure out what was really causing me to be so down . It was just a little of what I said, but I thought long and hard about when I started to get depressed and I found my answer, the whole deal is about my oldest grandson. He met this girl or I should say women. Tyler will be 20 June 1 , his new g-friend is 32. Well the age difference doesn't bother me . It was other things ,that unf...

The spark is burning out

Fri, 3 May 2013 08:21:59 EST

I hate to write a negative blog, but this has been bothering me for days. I feel like I am losing my Spark. Everything is like a chore and I hate doing it. I hate all food in general , hate thinking about fixing or even eating it. Weighing, measuring, tracking , taking meds, all of it. I guess I am a little depress. I think about my grand kids, I think of mother's day, my mother being gone, how only 2 of my kids for sure will call me a wish me a Happy Mother's Day. Yesterday my hubby , who...

I can see clearly now

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:34:58 EST

Good morning, it has been awhile since I have blogged. I guess I have been slacking. That is not true I have been.For the last almost three weeks I have been to the gym , I think 4 times. But as the song goes something like this, I can see clearly the rain is gone. I can see all obstacles in my way. The biggest one being me. Some days yes I had good reasons for not going ,other I put it off to do it tomorrow and tomorrow ,the good reasons kept me from going. I think one thing is I really...

Yes sometimes I forget

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 10:16:24 EST

Sometimes, I walk into a room and stand there looking around, trying to remember why I came into that room. Sometimes I take things out of the oven and forget to turn it off.Sometimes I forget to take my insulin, yes after all the years I have been on it, but I will do my reading go to figure out and fix my food ,an eat and than I can't remember if I took it. Afraid to overdose, I wait three hours and see what my numbers are telling me. Yesterday, my grandson and I went to Walmart, I parked t...

April Fools The Joke was on ME

Sat, 6 Apr 2013 10:24:28 EST

Oh yes April is here a new month, new goals. April fools day, was a very busy day, took my daughter's dog to vet, stopped by my doctor's office to pick up insulin, paid car insurance , picked up oldest son, to work on my dryer.The day was done and I didn't make it to the gym. So I planned to go early the next day before cleaning my houses. Boy was I wrong, woke up feeling nauseated , I tried drinking a cup of coffee ,not good. I went to clean first house, I didn't eat, stopped at McDonalds a...

On track again

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 09:35:57 EST

Fixing to go off to the gym this morning ,and tomorrow too, for I can get it back in my routine. Three days a week for now, I need at least three. I need to feel the changes in my body, even if I can not measure it anywhere else. I can measure it through the feelings and it will keep you going. I got more sleep last night,but I fell asleep on the couch arond 8 and woke up around 11 and went to bed .I can't remember if I took my insulin, because it was up this morning. I know I fell way under ...

OBSTACLES Are in my way.

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 10:56:19 EST

The last two days I woke up to snow on the ground ,but not the roads. Monday I went a cleaned a house and worried that my roads here could get bad. Sometimes we get hit hard when Knoxville doesn't, but everything went fine. Yesterday more snow and I was just lazy and had no desire to go out in it. So I talked myself out of going to the gym, it was so easy. I remember when I went to curves at first I would talk myself out of going, any reason was a good reason. Then I got mad at myself and for...

How Blogs Make My Day

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 09:08:32 EST

Good morning. A short blog today, I get up every morning , pour myself a cup of coffee, turn on my computer, take my Blood sugar while I am waiting. Then I put my info in,then I read blogs. Then eat breakfast. I love to read the blogs, they help me in so many ways. Some motivate and inspire you, some make me smile and or laugh, some make me cry, some relate to me . Some of them ,people are going through lost of love ones, or sharing their feeling of their lost. This hits deep with me , since ...

Update on my friend

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 10:10:44 EST

Thanks goes out to all my friends for their prayers and advice. Things went great after she cried a little and she started to say she was sorry. Again I told her there were no shame in crying. She then said the Bible even said and Jesus wept. That was one thing that was bothering her, she couldn't read her Bible. I told her even if she couldn't see To read it,she knew allot of the passages and she started quoting some and said when she laid down at night she quoted them. God understands if y...

Prayers to help someone are needed

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 09:34:40 EST

I am going to check out the new gym today and I am excited. I really need it. It is a bright sunny morning and I fell pretty good. The other thing I am doing ,I need prayers for, Yesterday while I was at one of my ladies houses, I was going to get her groceries, she told me Mary (whom is a friend of hers and I use to clean her house too.) wanted me to call her . I had called her last week, when I heard she had fallen and she said that they said she had her sprung her ankle.and I told her if...

Profits and lost

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 09:56:18 EST

Everywhere you work they have profits and lost statements. Well I have one for my weight loss progress. Here it goes. Profits: Better health , more energy, better attitude, new outlook, allot of spark friends, allot of support, teams, tools, knowledge, new foods, blessings, drinking water, exercise, liking myself, new foods, new life style, happiness, sunshine and smiles. The lost: I lost weight, Cut down insulin, bad eating habits, Bad attitude, depression, hating myself, lost i...

Great Ending

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 08:45:56 EST

Some people look at Sunday as the end of the week, others as the beginning . I look at it as the end, so I ended my week great. Yesterday was a great day although I fail way under calorie range. I ate a yogurt and had coffee, went the the store, made a late lunch early diner , a roast with veggies and a spring mixed salad. After we ate ,I was going to the park to walk and my Hubby decided he would go. This came as a big shock. I enjoyed sharing my routine with him. Even though he is at work...

Looking for the open door

Sat, 9 Mar 2013 08:51:01 EST

The week started great. Monday the sun was shining and all I needed was a light jacket on to walk . I went to the park and I walked my mile. I enjoy walking at the park. There was people walking their dogs,people with babies in strollers. This one baby was about 14 months old and they were walking in the opposite direction and every time we passed each other she would smile, after a few times, she started smiling real big and you could see her eyes light up, it was like she was thinking I kn...

Weather and weight

Fri, 1 Mar 2013 08:08:40 EST

We have been having some Spring like weather upper 60's, and beautiful sun. Some days rainy, cloudy, but warm. Now it is back to cold snow showers, may even get an inch tonight. The spring like days ,just made me feel good. I love Spring. Everything coming back to life. This made me think. The weather we have here , well you never know what to expect, that's the way my weight loss, has been going. Like the weather, cold to warm, warm to cold , stay there for awhile , then back to warm. My wei...

Big Head

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 08:25:30 EST

I want to thank everyone for your kind words and being here for me , all the support , you have giving me. My week started off wonderful. Yesterday I was cleaning a Older ladies house and had an accident a table I was dusting fell over and a vase fell to the floor, lucky it did not break. Water and flowers went all over the floor, anyway I grab some towel and cleaned up the mess, later Carolyn said, you know when you were cleaning the floor I noticed you have lost weight in your backside, s...

Noticed at last

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 09:46:26 EST

Sometimes ,I feel down and wonder why I am doing this, nobody notices it anyway. Boy was I wrong. A couple of the ladies I clean for made some nice comments to me about I was looking good ,and how much had I lost, I was really toning up.. This made me feel good, but I thought they were just being kind because they knew I was trying to lose weight . So the other night I was sitting on the sofa watching TV with hubby and out of the blue he said," You are doing something right." not knowin...

Habits

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 08:43:48 EST

I am glad it is Monday. A new day a new week. Although I or I should say we got allot accomplished the week-end. Finally got my granddaughter's bedroom finished. Finished painting it, putting flooring down, moving the furniture back,hanging things, got the laundry done. For the first time in a long time, everything went smooth and my hubby and I enjoyed doing something together and we were both so proud of each others accomplishments. The bad part is , I didn't eat right. I didn't go over, bu...

Results to be proud ? Or not?

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 13:42:17 EST

Sorry I didn't get my results posted earlier, but here it is. My dr, walked into my room and said Carol you should be proud of yourself I mean really. really proud. you are going in the right direction. She just had so much energy and good vibes flowing from her. Sugar A1C down from 7.5 to 7.3 cholesterol down 148 to 144 good up 53 to 54. this is in black and white and I can see progress, progress, progress. It made me feel so proud, I can stand tall and smile. I accomplished this , putt...

Doctor and I am excited

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 08:40:07 EST

Today I go to my endocrinologist . I am excited to see how my sugars and cholesterol is doing. I really like this doctor . She sits down with you and tries to help you come up with a plan and just talks to you. One time my son went with me and she remembers him and asks about him. With all the people she sees. That's great. I am going to curves first only 4 days until they close and I am going to go everyday, then dr. then clean a house,busy day. I think my dr. will be happy even if not...

Omen

Sat, 9 Feb 2013 08:37:05 EST

The other evening ,I stopped by the store to pick up something for diner as I was walking to the door I noticed my shadow. Now I know it has always been with me I just hadn't paid much attention to it in a long time. It was about 7 or 8 foot tall and a body to kill for lol. A thought crossed my mind . I hadn't noticed my shadow in years, just like I haven't really took care of myself in years. Maybe it was an omen. Now I know I will never be 7 or 8 foot tall and if I follow in Mom's footsteps...

Good things comes in strange ways

Tue, 5 Feb 2013 10:30:49 EST

Hello, My friends. This is not going to be me whining today. Things are better here and my hubby is going to have the mri done today. His biggest problem is he is scared and he is frustrated he can not do things like he use to. Pride , the feeling of letting me down. Some people can age gracefully, and others can not handle what is thrown their way. Anyway, I really want to talk about nice people, and rewards. My daughter, whom hardly ever misses work, had to miss 2 days, the 2 biggest days w...

Whining again

Fri, 1 Feb 2013 13:07:25 EST

I want to thank everyone who commented on my blog and thanks for the prayers ,and help,but unfortunately I am here again to whine. Yesterday I went to curves, I love curves for allot of different reasons. One it is something I can do,location, and people I have come to know and people I can talk to. We have fun. Anyway I found out yesterday it is closing on 2-14 and the other 2 locations are to far, So I don't have a clue of what I am going to do, if it was warmer weather I would walk more as...

A horrible thing to say

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 08:48:50 EST

Well the weather wasn't as bad here yesterday as some places. Mostly hard winds and rains, no power outages. Today it is colder and warning of black ice, but it is going to warm up and I will go out latter . My husband went to doctor yesterday, with his arm, his shoulder to be exact. A few years ago it started hurting him everyone was saying it was a torn rotators cup . {I think I said that right} after MRI, some exercises and weeks and weeks of doctor visits ,he was told it was arthritis a...

Stormy weather

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:29:33 EST

Sitting here listening to the weather. I live in tn. and they just said that the severe storm warning ,for my area in the next 20 minutes. It is raining ,and the wind is up, I think 45 miles per hour,the temp is about 70 in February crazy,but the temp is suppose to drop and snow flurries in the next few days. East Tennessee has crazy weather, never know. I am glad I went to curves and went walking yesterday. I am sad that they are trying to sale Curves or close it, because they are not one c...

I am not quitting ever

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 16:19:26 EST

Thanks to everyone that commented and gave me advise on my last blog. To clear up any misunderstandings, I am not thinking about quitting I can't . I have many reasons not to,the two biggest ones is I can't break the promise ,that I made to my deceased mom and the one I made to myself. Another one is I can't be a success story if I Don't see it through. I am not going to go crazy with changes, it is just, I make it to curves 3 times a week, just going to add walking when weather permits or a...

Open for subjection

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 08:11:14 EST

Yes ,I am getting discouraged! It is not so bad when the scale don't move ,if inches are going away. But when both are at a stand still, I start spiraling downward. After feeling like this all day yesterday ,I started to think. Okay here it goes. The accomplishments thus far. 334 I joined Sparks people an...

The greatest part of my day

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:51:36 EST

This week it has been raining,and it make my body hurt. I do have arthritis , and before I started doing sp, I let arthritis rule my life. But Monday morning it was pouring down rain and I got out of bed , hurting ,stiff and walking like I was drunk and made my way into the kitchen and made my coffee, took meds, and turned to my spark people, worked on it and got ready and left the house and went to curves, and then went to clean a house. Yesterday I had doctors appointments and yes it was r...

Making the better choice

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 08:21:28 EST

My week-ends , I usually get of track when hubby is home. This week-end on Saturday ,we worked on the house and done good on eating. Sunday. we went on a date, he said we didn't get to take time for ourselves . We drove to Gatlinburg to have lunch, diner, it was kind of both. Although he didn't eat right , he had a big baked potato, with butter and sour cream and four rolls, a chopped steak, with mushrooms and onions , salad,and a sweet tea mind you he is Diabetic too. I to could of went that...

Update

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 09:01:31 EST

Sorry I hadn't got back to my update on my eyes until now. I do have cataracts,but they are nowhere near ready to be removed.No macular degeneration . Woo rah. The retinopathy is a little bit worst, treatment is to keep powering my sugars and keep them stable. Which being here on sp with my friends will help me accomplished that and other things. This is not a set back, but a motivator to push harder, because no one wants to lose their sight, and there is no reason to,if you can prevent it. S...

Doctor

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:13:59 EST

Going to the eye doctor today. I hate it . I have to have eyes dilated ,I hate that. It is every 6months, because I have diabetes retinopathy . When I first went he told me I had , other things like macular degeneration ,and cataracts, but he hasn't said anything about these in the last year, just watching retinopathy. I hope this hasn't gotten in worst, he said they best treatment for it is getting sugars under control and since the last time I seen him, they are better. I don't know if it ...

Thanks for great advice

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 09:16:49 EST

Good morning all. Thanks for all your comments and advice. It is good to have great friends and support . It makes me feel so good to talk about this. The only other person I talk to is my daughter, even though she misses them it does not effect her like it does me. Having outside advice helps. I feel like a little wait has been lifted off my shoulders and I know in time I will find the silver lining in the cloud. This glorious feeling motivates me to push forward on my weight loss and to ge...

A little bit of Heaven

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 09:10:26 EST

The other day I was on facebook I don't go on it much. I decided to see if my granddaughter was on it. I know she had a old one. This is one of my grand kids that was adopted out. Bailee her sister Lacie and brother Patrick. They are all together. Well there is was. And it had pictures of all of them. I cried. I saved them to my pictures. The two girls where is a picture together,little cheer leaders and the baby in one by his self. I read somethings on her facebook and I know she is happy. ...

Long distance support

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 08:14:37 EST

Last night my aunt called me. She lives in Peoria Ill. that is where I was born. I have two aunts left, they both live their. Aunt Martha is my favorite one the other one we done stay in touch. Anyway we chatted awhile and she is sending a box of things it was Christmas things,so I am going to have and after Christmas, Christmas. When I was a kid I was always excited when we got her packages, I still am. She told me she was sending a summer dress and hoped I could wear it by then. If it is s...

To New Beginnings

Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:46:11 EST

Well I survived the holidays. I didn't over eat, but I didn't eat right either and days I didn't eat enough. I had days I didn't drink much water. My husband was off for two weeks and that didn't help. We had fun ,but allot of times it kept me off balance. Today he went to work, so today is the first day of the rest of my life and it is going to be full sped ahead. I will track everything,get more exercise, and learn how to stay on track when hubby is here. He means well. Today he has done b...

Looking Back

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 08:22:30 EST

Looking back at the past year, I have accomplished several things. I joined sp and allot of good things happened . I have made allot of friends, and that was one thing I was missing in life. I found support I needed, learned to eat healthy, and added exercise to my life.I got a good report from my dr. Got allot done on my house. Learned to love myself and body. Lost some weight,and have stuck to my program. I am a happier person. Here is to the New Year let it bring more good things to every...

Memories

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 08:29:29 EST

My Christmas dinner went great. Sixteen people to feed. My mother-in-law never tells me what she is bringing,so we have 2 of things, but yesterday it was just 2 banana puddings. My granddaughter was here helped me clean and cook, she is my blessing. My youngest son made me a dvd with pictures and a song on it. Pictures of my mother and brother whom is longer with us and my kids and grand kids and the three whom have been adopted out . It made me cry. I had made my stepfather a picture of my...

Christmas is a Blessing

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 07:48:52 EST

A short blog to thank everyone who has helped me on this hard journey. And to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I hope everyone has a great one. I am going to have a house full,but I am going to watch what I eat. I will have plenty of vegetables to fill me up , and a taste of the other things. I will Thank the lord for this blessing , and letting my family being able to gather for this Holy day. Merry Christmas my friends.

Question make me understand

Fri, 21 Dec 2012 07:45:53 EST

This morning I have been reading blogs, allot of happy people, happy with their weight lost. Good for them.For I have lost some weight,but not even close to what I want to,but that is not what's bothering me. The thing I don't understand is,well I feel like a yoyo . Up and down and never down enough. I don't understand one week down a pound , then up 1 pound and a half, then it is at a stand still,then maybe down a half. Can someone explain this to me? I do feel better,my sugars are getting b...

If you love your country , read this

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 08:41:01 EST

I give to a few charities. I would like to give to more,but the one I always give to is disable vets.I guess it is because I had and have family that have and is serving our country. Anyway they sent me some Christmas cards and this verse was on them. Twas the night before Christmas and he lived all alone, ...

Dear Santa

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:11:05 EST

Dear Santa, I know I am a little to old to be writing you, and I am a little late on getting this to you on time. But please , Dear Santa don't dismiss, Please oh please read my list! I want everyone to remember what Christmas is all about. It is not just about decorations, and presents for all. Or about a big fine...

Monday Motivation

Mon, 3 Dec 2012 09:42:12 EST

I woke up late this morning . I hate that it makes me feel I am running behind all day. I have a house to clean,not that I have any certain time to be there , but I like to be there around 10. Her daughter lives next door but doesn't really come down and just sit and talk to her. Runs in a minute to see how she is doing and out the door. It take me about a hour to get there about 2 hours to clean, but I always talk to her 20-30 minutes when I first get there and after I am through, but she w...

Fighting Back

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 09:08:58 EST

Monday, I started to get back on track. I done pretty good. Yesterday it was a yucky day and I should of went to curves, but I didn't. I had to go do a ladies laundry which took up the biggest part of the day. My eating was somewhat okay. Today I am going to curves,and for the next two days,if Saturday is nice I will walk ,Sunday too. I think I need more exercise and a closer look at what I eat. I bought a tablet to write things down when I am away for I want forget things I eat. I have to ti...

Off Track

Mon, 26 Nov 2012 10:26:21 EST

I made it through Thanksgiving, it was also my Anniversary. I really hated cooking and cleaning on my Anniversary , it was mostly for his family, because the only ones of my family that came was grandaughter, Kelsey and my oldest son. My daughter had to work, they others had plans,as always. I got up at 5 am. Thanksgiving so much to do,but while having a cup of coffee, with husband, he said I know this is allot of work on you, but we have always had Thanksgiving and Christmas here and had coo...

Feeling Good

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 19:12:04 EST

I had a pretty good day today. Went to curves, stopped at grocery store. I was talking to the girl that was checking me out, I had bought a Woman's World magazine., it had Paula Deen on it. She was talking about meeting her years ago. I said that's great, she sure has lost allot of weight. She said after the holidays ,she had to lose some weight about 20 lbs. her blood sugar was bad. I then told her about sparkpeople , she wrote it down and thanked me. I felt really good. Than I decided to ...

Thank you

Thu, 8 Nov 2012 16:57:42 EST

Thanks to everyone that left a comment on my sleeping with the enemy blog. If I left the impression that I didn't love my husband, I am sorry for that. I do love him matter of fact it was love at the first sight for me, but not for him. He married someone else and it was years before we got together. People don't know everything other people puts up with. My husband use to laugh was happy and fun. When the company he was working for 18yrs, moved to another state and he had to find another jo...

Sleeping with the enemy

Tue, 6 Nov 2012 13:41:35 EST

Sleeping with the enemy that's me.I wish I could say that My hubby was my allie, my comrade, my best friend, but he is not. I know he loves me but I need more. He is the enemy,the saboteur, not my knight in shining armor.He knows losing weight means allot to me. Oh yes he is a silver tongue devil. When he found out I was doing this he said he should do it too,then he goes out a buys a pie. He says things like a little want hurt you, I know if I start I want stop. He makes cooking difficult,...

God doesn't put more on us then we can bare

Mon, 29 Oct 2012 11:55:48 EST

I have heard this all my life,sometimes I wonder.Then I think, God doesn't put things on us,we do. This is just another sad part of my life. My youngest son and at the time wife,got on pills real bad.I did not understand I never done drugs and his wife's mother had od. on pills about a year before. The excuse from him was he had back problems,her's if he is doing it she was.It was like they were in a race with each other.The one thing they wouldn't admit was they had a drug problem. My son be...

darkness

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 08:31:49 EST

Last night I didn't sleep well, My husband goes to bed hours before I do, because he has to get up around 3am. Well last night he decided to sleep on my side of the bed,it took me forever to go to sleep. I woke up all night long. Still this morning ,I felt like something nagging at me, I am feeling a little depressed and I didn't know why.When I logged on, I knew.Today my brother, my only sibling, has been dead for 8yrs. It seems like yesterday. I glad I have a house to clean for if I didn't ...

WOOHOO

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 14:48:26 EST

I went yo my endocrinologist doctor, for my diabetes today.She came into my room and said you need to be jumping up and down and be proud of yourself.She said stand up and come over here and let me show you why. Your readings was really good, and your ac was 7.5 and that's a number I am happy with, but the real kicker is I have never seen your cholesterol good, it is not only good ,but it is perfect, 148 and hdl 53. She said, to her this was perfect. I told her but sparkspeople and that I wa...

ready to scream

Tue, 9 Oct 2012 16:47:51 EST

Today I started out doing my sparks page, I was feeling pretty good ,but I had woke up late, the last two mornings,I am usual up about 5.30 to 6.00 and both mornings it was like 8.00. I guess I needed to sleep or maybe just lazy because the of the weather.Both days I had houses to do and I didn't make it to curves or walking.Getting way behind in this.I was driving this car pulled over in front of me and I had to slam on my brakes,setting me off some more.I get to the house I was cleaning a...