10TOES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=10TOES 10TOES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Inspire YOURSELF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796890 I don't know where to start. I always read all these amazing inspirational blog entries and think to myself, "I wish that were me." Well, I have come to the point that I am inspiring myself. And that's not terrible. My husband went and got a weight loss surgery. He has lost a whopping 100lbs in four months! What!? And here I am, proud to have lost almost 40 lbs in 6 months. But you know, I worked super hard to get from 304 to 264! So yay me! <BR> <BR> It's been a very difficult few years fo... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 14:48:18 EST Got on the scale for the first time in months... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574864 How many times have you said to yourself, "This time will be different. I will be successful."? I can't even tell you how many times I have. When I had my son (9 years ago), when I was getting married (5 years ago), when my son started school and then the second one came along, when I was turning 30, then when I started nursing school, now, well, I'm not saying it. I just can't. I have been on a long SP break which I feel now was a mistake. Because I lost not weight, but motivation. <BR> ... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 18:02:20 EST So much pressure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559892 I need to vent. I am getting ready to take the Nursing Boards test this week and I am so overwhelmed. All I do is study and eat, eat and study. I am so scared of failing I just freak out on everyone constantly. I don't think of anything but the NCLEX and I have even started dreaming of it. I am trying to imagine passing but then I start to think I am jinxing myself. I passed my exit and got a predictor score of 98% on my ATI but that was months ago. What do I do? I feel like I can"t even tel... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 16:54:00 EST Wow has it been a while!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061934 I feel like I have been gone from SP for a year or more. I log on but don't have time to do much more then track my weight on the droid app. I have been insanely busy. I started nursing school, my boys started their school year, and my hubby is still learning to live with one leg. We have been hectic in the last four months to say the least. <BR> <BR> I love school and it is going well. I miss my family but I suppose that is a sacrifice I must make to provide for them. The best part is that... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:53:40 EST My disco Kings and Queens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890951 Robin Gibb passed yesterday. I love the Bee Gees, I work out to them, I smile when I hear their music, and I remember dancing to it with my mom. <link>youtu.be/XBw25CrUS-o </link> <BR> <BR> Donna Summer had one of the greatest voices ever. She was the Queen of Disco. Also great to work out to. She passed last week. If you need some great get up and go music try this song <link>youtu.be/7cPIT_T3mYU </link> <BR> <BR> I love music. No matter what is going on in my life it gets me throu... Mon, 21 May 2012 09:54:55 EST Frustration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4882264 I'm really struggling right now. I have gained about 15 pounds and weigh more than I ever have. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know what to do but it's almost like I just don't care anymore. Yesterday it really hit home when I had to return a shirt that just 2 months ago would have been a perfect fit but now I can't even button. Is it time to throw in the towel and just give up? IDK. I just know I am so sick of feeling like this but I just can't find the energy to take care of me. I h... Tue, 15 May 2012 09:44:46 EST Climbing out of my hole... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862774 So I am really trying to climb out of this self imposed exile I put myself in. I am so focused on my DH that I have lost track of everything else. The thing is, he's fine. He is so good and happy about the amputation. He is so positive and amazing and is actually the "old" Jeremy again. We always joke that he is my balance because I am such a pessimist and always worried and he's totally opposite. He always used to see the bright side and now he is again. I am just so scared of what's next t... Wed, 2 May 2012 10:01:31 EST My husband lost his leg. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4842211 I haven't been able to talk about this until now and I'm not even sure I'm ready. But i need to share this story in the hopes that it will reach someone who maybe isn't taking their diabetes seriously or has a loved one in the same situation I'm in. Or maybe just thinks they're alone. Like I do. <BR> <BR> My husband had his leg amputated. Because of type 2 diabetes. Because he didn't stop it when he was told he could. Because I wasn't vigilant enough or strong enough or something to save it.... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 09:22:26 EST Venting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4814757 I have been so busy lately. I started classes to become a medical assistant and that takes up almost all my time now. My hubby's extremely sick and my kids are demanding attention. I need a break! I haven't even gone to the gym for two weeks. Ugh!! I don't know how much more stress I can take. My DH has a flu or something but it doesn't seem to be getting better. We're going on our second week of fighting it and I am starting to think that he doesn't care if he gets better. He just lays in be... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 10:38:26 EST The other side of weight loss (Prayers needed) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4760488 My Mom left for treatment today. She's anorexic. She can't swallow, her body is shutting down, her heart is failing, and she's started having seizures. This is a true story. I wish I was making this up but I'm not. My beautiful Mom weighs 80 pounds at 5'7". She has bald spots and can't stay awake because her body has no energy or strength left. She's been fighting this disease for 40 years. It's a control issue, not an eating issue. Yes, on the outside looking in you may think she just needs ... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 20:43:58 EST Fight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757047 My husband may get his leg cut off below the knee and there is nothing I can do about it. Nothing at all. It's painful to know that no matter how hard you fight for someone, unless they fight for themselves the battle will always be lost. We're going to lose this one. It's just time to face it. I know that there isn't much else to do but watch him feel sorry for himself and give up. While I fight and fight and fight. For him and our boys and my sanity. But why? Why when I know he's already gi... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 20:41:57 EST Boom! 4 1/2" in a week?! My adventures in Vibration Therapy Wk 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4741998 I joined a gym last week. I had a turning point, "Aha!" moment that finally woke me up to what I was doing to myself. The gym I joined is one of those basic gyms. Not too fancy, not a place to meet and flirt (thank God!), just a nice gym with clean equipment that works and really nice trainers and a fabulous price. When I joined, I was given a free week of personal training (whee!!), offered tanning (um... no), and given a gift certificate for three free sessions of "vibration therapy". <BR>... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 14:25:49 EST I had my "AHA!!" moment. And it kinda hurt. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4736841 Wow. I never knew what an "Aha" moment was. I mean, I've watched Oprah, read people's "Aha" blogs, heard about them from friends but I never had one. Maybe I thought I did but I was wrong because when you have one, you know. It's like someone ripped off a blindfold and screamed "Hey, Jaci!! This IS YOU!! LOOK!!!" Oh. Me. All me. I did that. I became this person I don't recognize in the mirror, or pictures, or when I am looking in my closet and wondering who's big jeans those are, guess what, ... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 13:22:14 EST Why didn't anyone tell me?! How did this happen?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4735694 My family and I went to get our family pictures done yesterday. I of course like to think I have a gorgeous family and like to document that at least once a year but I don't see why I have to be in the pictures. I am usually the one taking the pictures, not posing. One of my friends is a professional photographers who works with models and the like so we always ask her to do our photos because, well, she lets us be us and gives us as many pictures and time as our hearts desire. So, we went to... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 20:32:00 EST Yup, I did it now! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4732467 I joined a gym! Wow!! That's a big step for me because i have always been terrified to work out in front of other people but as my trainer told me yesterday, no one starts out at their goal. So, yay me!! I am really nervous and excited, and I don't know, optimistic? I paid for the year already ($200!!) so I don't have to worry too much about that. The trainers are so nice and helpful, it doesn't seem like a meat market place, and personal training is only $10/session!! They also have this mac... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 13:43:55 EST Straws on your back add weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724266 I have been so busy I haven't blogged. This year seems to be flying by. In fact, the older I get the faster time goes. I can't even remember if I set 2012 goals but if I had it would have been to continue to improve on my healthy habits and try to stay on track. Well, that hasn't been happening lately. Between my husband's health issues, my MIL being here for 6 weeks too long, the death of our family matriarch, Gramms, my Mom's health issues, my sister's crazy drama, and my own personal Hell ... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 23:00:14 EST Loss in the family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4698501 We lost a great woman this week. My husband's Grams died. she was an amazing strong resilient funny woman who was a true feminist. She helped make my husband the great man he is today and she will be missed. Please say a prayer for Grams and our family. Yes she is onto her next life but we still love and miss her greatly. Goodbye Grams. Mon, 23 Jan 2012 09:53:49 EST Blog 2012 dun dun DUNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4661808 It's 2012! It's a fresh new year and that's a great time to start something fresh and new! Opportunity awaits and all that right?! Well, sometimes old battles carry over and you're just glad to fight another day. <BR> <BR> 2011 was a hard year for my family but it wasn't all bad. My husband still has both his feet (thank you God!!), my amazing oldest son finally started receiving the therapy he so badly needed (thank you Angels that are Occupational Therapists!!), and our youngest was finall... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 11:33:51 EST Venting my Scout Spleen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4628476 I am a Cub Scout Den leader. I am a PROUD Den Leader. I love scouting and truly believe it is a great organization. I became involved when it became clear to me that little league type sports were more for the parents than the kids and I wanted to give my son some kind of foundation to help foster self esteem, brotherhood, and learn usable life skills. At first it was wonderful. We found a pack that was open and worked well with us. We had a den leader that was somewhat enthusiastic, her husb... Fri, 16 Dec 2011 20:04:20 EST Spark break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4568229 I need a Spark break. I have been slacking off or rather, I haven't had much time for me. My husband is deeply depressed and to be honest I feel like I am now raising 3 boys instead of the 2 and being married. I love my Jeremy so much and will do anything to try to help him. <BR> <BR> I will try to check in every so often. i am not even sure I will be missed. My thoughts will be with you all. Sorry if I have let any of you down but I must focus on my guys right now. Love you all. <BR> <BR... Fri, 4 Nov 2011 12:08:16 EST He's HOME!!!!! Thank GOD!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4510184 My husband is home from the hospital! I am so happy! He came home with both feet intact and a new appreciation for them. We know that eventually he will lose one but not this time. He still has time to lose his weight and work on him if he finally chooses to. I so hope he sticks to it. He deserves this chance God gave him. Let's hope he doesn't waste it. Our boys are happy but nervous to be around Jeremy because he has a machine hooked to his foot and a PIC line coming out of his arm but they... Thu, 29 Sep 2011 11:19:37 EST An update on my Husband http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4503776 Jeremy had surgery yesterday. The surgeon says it looks good. He also said he is willing to help save the foot as long as Jeremy is willing to fight for it. Jeremy has a vacuum thing on the wound now. It is supposed to help healing. He cannot walk or put any pressure on his feet but he has them and right now that is all that matters. He may be discharged this week. I sure hope so. I miss him terribly. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I know it helped him heal quickly.... Sun, 25 Sep 2011 21:53:51 EST Please Pray http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4494402 We never just get good news. We thought we had. But no. Jeremy was approved for permanent Social Security Disability which meant he doesn't have to go back to work and risk further damage to his poor feet. (if you're a new blog reader please see previous posts) We were so excited! Then he took a shower, then it happened again. When he got out he discovered that his foot had split open and there was a new sore, another ulcer to take away more of him. It doesn't just take away his foot it takes... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 09:15:41 EST Oh yeah, that's what it's like! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467350 I finally took that walk I had been planning to take since, oh I don't know, March. Yup... that's right... March! Because life gets in the way, you know? Husbands go into the hospital and Moms get misdiagnosed with MS, and family has a habit of dropping their drama on you (if you can't tell I'm the caretaker in the family). Well probably not you mostly me. But I've seriously had enough. <BR> <BR> I am so happy that I got up early on my day off (No school for the boy=sleep for Mom) got dress... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 11:53:00 EST I am not what you say I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4465709 My sister called my husband and I "big fat lazy slobs" yesterday. She also said she hoped our kids get taken away from us and that it was our fault that she couldn't see her son. She also called me the C word (if you don't know what that is, pm me and I will tell you b/c it is far too dirty for this blog). I wish I could have been surprised by her opinion of us but I'm really not. She has a drug problem and mental issues she refuses to knowledge. Our parents are trying to "help" her by allowi... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 12:14:44 EST To not just listen but to HEAR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4454466 "All this has got to go", my doctor said waving her hand in the general direction of my body, "because it's just unhealthy." <BR> <BR> "Really? I had no idea! I thought I was bulking up for the winter." was what I thought but my real reply was a blubbering crying mess of, "I know! I'm trying so hard but damn I get stressed and tired and I am so damned sick of taking care of everyone but me!!" <BR> <BR> And then she hugged me. I felt better, like she not only listened but heard me. Weird. ... Mon, 29 Aug 2011 11:42:33 EST I never thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4430322 I never thought I'd be a Weight Watchers member. Oh sure, I've seen the commercials where Jennifer Hudson endlessly sings about her change and she does look good but for me? nah. "So what changed your mind?", you ask. My husband did. He asked if I would do it with him. He has a weight issue too. We're a very fluffy couple. We love to eat and try new things and recipes and are proud foodies. But we're fluffy foodies all the same. His doctor wants him to do the lap band procedure but he wants t... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 11:41:26 EST Five months until Christmas!? What!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4385210 Another year is flying by and I feel like I am stuck where I was last year. By Christmas I want to lose 20lbs at least. I want to be able to buy myself the gift of smaller jeans! And a sexy dress for my anniversary. I want to feel like I am healthier. Mon, 25 Jul 2011 14:19:13 EST Live to battle another day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4355378 Things have been smoothing out a bit for us in the Miller family. My husband is finally home and doing his treatments daily. He is on some powerful antibiotic that hopefully wipes out any and all nasty bugs in his system. The war continues and always will but we won this battle. His blood sugars were 91 (!!) yesterday. Normal for some but low for him. He is walking a little again and has actually been able to stand and shower alone. There are a few blips but we're making so much progress. <B... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 12:35:54 EST Name change and other blurbity blurbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4342518 I decided to change my name for a fresh start. Faboomama was a name I picked when I started SP about a year ago and I am a different person now. I like to think that I am a better person and more aware of my choices and overall health. <BR> <BR> My husband has lost 2 toes so far to type 2 diabetes. I live in constant fear he will lose more and with them, more of himself. I am still blessed with ten toes and as such think that should be something I remember as I feel this journey to better he... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 12:42:21 EST Haven't blogged for a bit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4297699 I haven't blogged for a bit. I guess I just needed a Spark break. I really just need a break! But it's almost summer so I have that to look forward to. We went camping last weekend and I walked 10 miles!! Crazy right?! I wish i could always do that in 3 days but at home when I am more aware of what I am doing I just don't push as hard. When I am having fun with my den it's a whole other story. <BR> <BR> I need to reset my goals. I am starting Nursing school (YAY!!!) in August and I want to ... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 09:52:10 EST Sometimes I feel like I should quit. Support needed PLEASE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4247004 I feel like a big FAT failing loser who cannot accomplish anything. My life is a big ball of stress that just about eats me alive daily so I eat and eat and eat. Then I feel bad about myself and hate myself. It all went to Hell when my DH went into the hospital last time. I haven't been able to pick myself up. It's always something. No money, DH wound care, DH diabetes, oldest sons school stuff, potty training, Mom's MS, Sister's domestic issues, Sister's cancer, Dad's business trips, Den stu... Sat, 21 May 2011 11:10:57 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4245257 Today I am Grateful for Greek yogurt. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for good friends. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for episodes of the Office, always good for a giggle! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for Facebook. yup, I'm one of them! LOL! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my Dad is coming home. I need some help with my crazy family! <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my smart funny energetic boys! They get me going ever... Fri, 20 May 2011 11:17:18 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4241885 Today I am Grateful for the beautiful clouds, they make the best sunsets <em>27</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my sister finally realized what she's married to and left. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for Soapnet. I missed One Life today!! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that I am able to buy healthy foods my kids like. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for Cub Scouts. My son's self esteem is slowly getting better. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I... Wed, 18 May 2011 19:58:07 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4238335 Today I am Grateful I woke up in a good mood. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for the chilly weather. The less hot the better! <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful gas is starting to go down. <em>226</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for automatic coffee makers. <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for inspirational blogs. <em>17</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my family. My husband and our boys are the greatest thing that ever happened to me! I l... Tue, 17 May 2011 10:14:08 EST Renewing the vows... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4237118 Jeremy and I decided to renew our vows on our fifth anniversary! I am so happy and excited. My first wedding was ruined by my selfish sister when she caused a huge brawl. My Mom collapsed because of the stress and Dad went to the hospital with her. I ended up, uh, kicking her ass. Real ladylike I know, but you don't mess with my Mom! So I missed out on a lot. Like dancing with my Dad and my Mom just being there. I cry just about every time it comes up but I have forgiven my sister and now it'... Mon, 16 May 2011 19:15:41 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4237107 Today I am Grateful for Netflix. A great way to find new fitness DVDs <em>216</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for Sparkpeople. I couldn't keep going without it <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my Mom is doing better <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for wound care specialist. <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my husband, Jeremy, he always knows how to make me smile and feel beautiful <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for our boys, Wyat... Mon, 16 May 2011 19:09:56 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4233578 Today I am Grateful I am going on a hike with my den! I love hiking!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that it may rain, the more rain the better here <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful we have church this morning. I really need a boost. <em>288</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for coffee, I'm gonna need it today! <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my boys. They are so fun and I am so blessed to have them <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Gratefu... Sun, 15 May 2011 09:25:35 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4232939 Today I am Grateful for good books. They're always a wonderful escape. <em>203</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful it's Saturday, the one day a week I sleep in...sometimes. <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for Chocolate Cherrios, they rock!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my family. My husband and our boys are my constant North, they are what keep me going in the right direction and they never ever let me give up! <em>129</em> <em>129</em> Sat, 14 May 2011 21:42:09 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4230025 Today I am Grateful it is Friday! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my Mom can still drive <em>226</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my son is old enough to know not to wake me at 5 am just b/c he's awake <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my crockpot! I love throwing stuff in it and smelling it cook all day! <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I got a good night's sleep. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my family. Their love and support... Fri, 13 May 2011 10:56:04 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4227664 Today I am Grateful my son made it home safely from his trip to San Diego <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my husband has lost 50 lbs!!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I have lost 2lbs!!! <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that my youngest son is up to date on his immunizations <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful it's almost the weekend! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my Sparkfriends <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Gratef... Thu, 12 May 2011 10:20:44 EST Today I am grateful...Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4226528 Today I am Grateful my son goes to such an awesome school <em>150</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that it's almost summer! <em>298</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I don't have to cook tonight! <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my loving husband and our two fabulous boys! They are my shining stars <em>129</em> Wed, 11 May 2011 20:45:37 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4223036 Today I am Grateful for good friends. I need them more than ever right now. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that I am losing my fears. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that I know how to be strong. <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my husband. He is my rock and my safety net. <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my boys, they make me so happy and proud. They are my greatest accomplishment. <em>251</em> Tue, 10 May 2011 12:23:16 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4219971 Today I am Grateful that the storm seems to be over, it was so windy yesterday! <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I have nothing to do except clean house. <em>436</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful we have a Cub committee meeting, there's a lot to plan! <em>12</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful it's a school day, my son is too full of energy to stay home today <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my family. Jeremy and our boys gave me the best Mom's day so far an... Mon, 9 May 2011 09:46:52 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4218048 Today I am Grateful that I am feeling a bit better, I hate being sick! <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I am a Mom! I couldn't imagine life without our guys, Wyatt and Jameson! My little angels. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l584378046.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I have such an amazing and loving Mom. She has taught me so much in life and I could never express just how deeply I love her. <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my husband, w... Sun, 8 May 2011 10:56:09 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4214223 Today I am Grateful that school is still in. Sometimes I just need a break! <em>150</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that we're having the pack yardsale, we've been planning one for ages! Support you local Cub Scouts! <em>436</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful to Cub Scouts, it helps my son's self esteem more than I could ever have imagined. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my Mom. She is the person I look up to most and has taught me invaluable lessons to use in my lif... Fri, 6 May 2011 10:55:49 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4212380 Today I am Grateful for my crockpot. It makes busy days so much easier! <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful my husband is able to see a wound care nurse twice a week. <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that I can hear the birds singing outside, that always brings a smile to my face. <em>145</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my fabulous boys and my magnificent husband! They are such a blessing and I am so lucky to have them. <em>129</em> Thu, 5 May 2011 13:35:37 EST Today I am Grateful... Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4209336 Today I am Grateful that Jameson is going for a check up and his immunizations. <em>251</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I live in a country where it is easy to access a doctor's care. <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful that my son loves his new OT! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my supportive Spark teams! <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I live in southern California. <em>464</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my wonderful husband and our ... Wed, 4 May 2011 10:07:04 EST Today I am Grateful... day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4206934 Today I am Grateful I have my MOPS group to go to. I love feeling like I am part of a community, especially when it's a community of other Moms! And it wears my 26m/o out <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful I have air conditioning. It's supposed to be in the 90s and this girl hates heat! <em>259</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am Grateful for my grill. It's nice to cook outside and enjoy nature. Besides, food always tastes better off the grill! <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Today I am, as alwa... Tue, 3 May 2011 10:06:27 EST Nightmares http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4204427 I had the strangest dream last night. In the dream I had type 2 diabetes. In the dream I was losing my middle toe on both feet. In the dream they were TRIPLE their size and horrible. They looked like kielbasa! I can't describe the horror I felt. This is what woke me before the alarm this morning. They were going to lop off my toes right in the ER! It was awful. It was a warning! <BR> <BR> Anyone who knows me or follows my blogs knows my husband, Jeremy, has type 2 diabetes. He has lost par... Mon, 2 May 2011 10:52:39 EST