-AD-ASTRA-'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=%2DAD%2DASTRA%2D -AD-ASTRA-'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 11/07/13 A note from my gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534838 "A scale can essentially only give you a numerical reflection of your relationship with gravity. That's really about it. It cannot measure your brain, your heart, your beauty, your talent, your purpose, your strength, your character, or your love. " Thu, 7 Nov 2013 11:37:59 EST 08/20/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461090 My food intake has really been awful. I'm talking a whole bag of chips or whole box/thing of cookies awful. I keep justifying overeating by thinking it's okay because I've been going to the gym quite a bit. <BR> <BR> It's really gotten out of hand. My clothes really aren't fitting well and my stomach is noticeably bigger. And when my stomach is bigger, it makes my chest appear smaller. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I wonder what it must be like to not have any soft spots--to be able to sit str... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 14:04:26 EST 08/12/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452722 The guy who normally runs my Monday and Wednesday evening gym classes has been gone all summer. I think he gets back sometime in September. <BR> <BR> But the person filling in is incredibly, and terribly, and insanely attractive. <BR> <BR> This has been great motivation to get to the gym. Mon, 12 Aug 2013 10:55:59 EST 07/17/13 It Could Be Worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424089 And so my friend, I hear you say that life is s**t <BR> You think that love must always end in pain <BR> You hate the fact you need a man <BR> Someday, you'll need a nurse <BR> Be glad you're well, you fool <BR> It could be worse <BR> <BR> You b***h cause you're a sardine in a subway car <BR> And that your life is wasted waiting for the train <BR> You hate that you can't take a cab <BR> Someday, you'll take a hearse <BR> Enjoy the ride, you a** <BR> It could be worse <BR> <BR> A man can ... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 11:01:50 EST 07/10/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416952 170. <BR> <BR> I was weighed at my gym yesterday, and I weighed in at 170. <BR> It's really kind of bothering me. <BR> That's definitely the heaviest I've been in quite a few years. <BR> I vividly remember the 180's. <BR> I haven't weighed myself for a few months. <BR> <BR> My diet has been better lately. <BR> It's still hit and miss at times, but there has been some overall improvement. <BR> I go to the gym consistently. <BR> I sweat a lot. <BR> Honestly, my clothes fit better th... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 16:30:02 EST 06/14/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388983 A few nice things. <BR> <BR> 1. 2 people complimented a new shirt I'm wearing today. <BR> <BR> 2. Yesterday I really wanted some deep friend chicken. I thought about it a lot, looked at online menus and nutritional information. I never realized how many calories a fried chicken breast has (and no, I'm not going to not eat the skin), though that didn't deter me in the least. But I did make a pact with myself to go to my scheduled workout first and then I could stop somewhere on the way ... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 11:32:01 EST 06/12/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386911 This morning, my doctor wanted to do an ADHD screen. Although I've never considered this before, I can really see--in retrospect--why she might want to do this. Surely, if I did have it, it would be Inattentive Type vs. Hyperactive or Combined Type. I'm a pretty calm person after all. <BR> <BR> She also wants to check my testosterone level. She's wanted this for about 6 months. And while I'd actually like to know this information too, I HATE needles, so I keep putting it off. <BR> <B... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:17:37 EST 06/11/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385714 Wasn't going to blog today, but one of the articles on the frontpage caught my attention (which is rare). About workout clothing. <BR> <BR> I generally wear compression underwear, nylon shorts, 100% cotton socks, and a 100% cotton tshirt. Since I've had a part-time job at Gap the last 5 years, all of my shirts are Gap... and very soft. I just really love the feel of 100% cotton. And I consciously try to avoid buying polyester/rayon/man-made materials as much as possible. I just don't l... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 11:01:16 EST 06/10/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384538 I've got to make some changes to my diet. <BR> <BR> <BR> Things I've done well: <BR> I've started eating breakfast every day <BR> <BR> <BR> Here are my goals: <BR> -Eating protein at every meal. Protein at breakfast is the hardest. Greek yogurt is ok. I've found it doesn't seem very filling though, and it gets expensive because I eat 2 at a time. It isn't terrible with Greek yogurt, but the lactose doesn't sit well with me. I've contemplated cottage cheese because it is slightly ch... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:34:35 EST 06/04/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378547 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1129408047.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My job regularly takes me to the city's homeless shelter. Having done a year-long internship at The Salvation Army, nothing at the shelter is really all that shocking to me anymore. <BR> <BR> But there was something that caught by eye today and I've been thinking about it a lot ever since. There was a really, extremely morbidly obese person sitting in a chair. I'm not good at estimating people's weights, but... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 23:29:53 EST 05/21/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363503 Dear friend, <BR> <BR> Spent the weekend in Missouri with my family. My sister said my arms looked really strong, so that was nice. Overall, I ate wayyy too much food. On Friday night, my sister had a baby shower. I ate some of the leftover food. On Saturday, my brother had a graduation party. More food. On Sunday, my family went out to eat and I ate a lot. <BR> <BR> I can tell I ate too much because my pants felt really tight yesterday. I think my waist was kind of spilling over th... Tue, 21 May 2013 13:20:27 EST 05/13/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355211 Dear friend, <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a little bit about body composition/shape lately. Someone at work pointed out how this guy at our office has a really big stomach--like unproportionally big. <BR> <BR> I guess I never thought much about this until I had my first few body fat measurements. Like the guy at my office, I seem to store all/most of my fat around my stomach. Which I hate. On the other hand, I have very little fat at my thigh/quad. My trainer, at the time, said he st... Mon, 13 May 2013 13:20:43 EST 05/02/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343488 Dear friend, <BR> <BR> I think things are going well. I've really been craving thin crust pizza and breakfast tacos lately. But not at the same time. I'm thinking of ways to incorporate those things in my diet. <BR> <BR> My workout yesterday was fun and tough at the same time. I think those kinds of workouts are the best. My arms and chest are very sore today, but it's a nice soreness to have. <BR> <BR> I finished a book yesterday. I finished it in 2 days. Actually, more like a da... Thu, 2 May 2013 16:57:46 EST 05/01/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341868 Dear friend, <BR> <BR> Well, writing last time how I hadn't stepped on the scale in a long time wasn't a great idea. It just made me curious enough to step on the scale. Not that scales are bad. On one hand, I don't want to worry about numbers. On the other hand, I think about how I'd like to lose another 10 pounds. Anyway, I wasn't pleasantly nor unpleasantly surprised. Go figure. <BR> <BR> The nutrition workshop-thing I went to last week was not really what I expected. I guess I th... Wed, 1 May 2013 10:51:44 EST Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334398 I think things are going well. I honestly haven't stepped on a scale in months. I guess there are days I think my clothes fit well and days they don't fit as well. I'm still not where I want to be though. <BR> <BR> I really think the diet could be improved, which is why I'm going to a nutrition workshop thing at my gym tomorrow evening. It was an extra $15, so I hope it's worth it. I learned last night my gym is also expanding in size, which will be a welcomed change. <BR> <BR> Did a c... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 17:04:46 EST Oh Yeah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315753 Oh yeah, I also went to Dallas a few weekends ago to watch the Sweet 16 games! <BR> <BR> My friend and I were on the 10th row in a stadium that can seat 80,000. It was UNREAL. <BR> <BR> My team suffered a HEARTBREAKING loss, but I got over it sooner than I normally do. <BR> <BR> The experience, overall, was incredible! Mon, 8 Apr 2013 11:24:48 EST 04/07/13 Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315682 -I've started going to a new gym. The workouts are fun and interesting. If I had to compare them to something, it would probably be the love child of boot camp and cross fit-style workouts. I think I've been burning a lot calories, but I am also hungrier throughout the day (and sometimes make some not-so-great food choices). Gotta work on that. A lot. <BR> <BR> -Although I love winter, I'm kind of looking forward to spring. It's a very pretty season in it's own right. <BR> <BR> -I bui... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 10:46:00 EST Kinda Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086777 Man, I was tired during my workout yesterday. Not sleepy tired (although I was sleepy tired), but more of a physical fatigue. On my way home from the gym, I was trying to wrap my head around how The Biggest Loser contestants exercise 4-6 hours per day. Not that The Biggest Loser reflects real life, but MIND BLOWN. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a nice Thursday. Keep up the good fight and I will do the same! Thu, 4 Oct 2012 15:33:55 EST Adrenaline High http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082865 Just got home from a fantastic workout (thanks to my trainer!). I feel like I can conquer the world!! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone else has a great workout today too! Mon, 1 Oct 2012 20:58:40 EST High Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082588 This weekend was fun. I went to a party on Saturday at a really nice upscale hotel in town and got to stay in a crazybeautifulamazing suite. It was the nicest hotel room I've ever stayed in--although the bar is probably pretty low--and maybe the nicest hotel room I'll ever stay in again. My favorite part was the shower. It had 10 shower heads! I wasn't really sure which way to face, but it was awesome! <BR> <BR> I made some bad food choices this weekend and that carried over into today. ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 17:28:58 EST Just Do It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074722 I had a party at my house on Friday night and my diet has really just been a trainwreck ever since. Yesterday, I got home from work and just ate and ate and ate. I had signed up for a workout class at 6:00 pm, but I was really debating whether I should go. I just felt really tired and really bloated/fat! <BR> <BR> BUT I did go! And I'm so glad I did. I wasn't at my peak, but I was there. I was there, and I was sweating and having a great time. Tue, 25 Sep 2012 17:16:11 EST 11.1 - Stormy Weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4520830 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l517148245.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is kind of a painful week for me. <BR> <BR> And it's so stupid too. It's not like the anniversary of a death, or 9/11, or something like that. Something which would make me feel good about feeling bad. Nah, this is more selfish than that. This week reminds me that at one point in the plane of my little semi-charmed existence, I didn't get what I wanted. The stars just didn't align for me. And wh... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 13:01:10 EST 10.4 - Faith in the Process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4499994 "A Psalm of Life" by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow: <BR> <BR> Tell me not, in mournful numbers, <BR> Life is but an empty dream! <BR> For the soul is dead that slumbers, <BR> And things are not what they seem. <BR> <BR> Life is real! Life is earnest! <BR> And the grave is not its goal; <BR> Dust thou art, to dust returnest, <BR> Was not spoken of the soul. <BR> <BR> Not enjoyment, and not sorrow, <BR> Is our destined end or way; <BR> But to act, that each to-morrow <BR> Find us fa... Fri, 23 Sep 2011 11:05:31 EST 10.3 - I Love Fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4498343 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l599455218.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Reasons I love Fall <BR> <BR> - The end of summer <BR> - No more mosquitos! <BR> - More running, less sweating <BR> - Sleeping with the windows open <BR> - Cooler weather foods <BR> - Football season <BR> - Basketball pre-season (!) <BR> - Driving down tree-lined streets <BR> - Bonfires <BR> - Coffee <BR> - Jackets <BR> - Fall colors <BR> - Fall scents <BR> - New TV shows <BR> Thu, 22 Sep 2011 11:31:38 EST 10.2 - Lazy Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4480424 The weekend was fine. <BR> <BR> Friday night, I had a kickball game. My hamstring was feeling about 90% going in, but then I re-injured it runnning from second to third base. It doesn't feel too bad today, but I know I'm not gonna be doing any squats anytime soon. I need to rest it so I can re-injure it at this week's game. Friday night, I went out to a couple bars. Went to Sandbar for the bar band, which was fun. Part of the marching band stands on the bar and plays the KU fight son... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 10:49:34 EST 10.1 - I'd Catch a Grenade For You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4472751 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l237897175.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Labor Day weekend <BR> <BR> My diet consisted of, well, fast food for every meal. I'm trying not to be too upset by it. And I'm finding that really isn't that hard. I guess--I don't know--I just don't care that much about it right now. I used to think losing weight would make me happier. Maybe it's a small part of the equation, but it's not X and it's not Y. <BR> <BR> I saw a friend. We talked all night lon... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 23:49:38 EST 9.1 - Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4456380 I thought I'd make a few updates, but not necessarily blog. When I write, I always digress. It's a bad habit. <BR> <BR> -My birthday is in October. I want to be in better shape than I was last year at my birthday, but I'm having a hard time remembering what kind of shape I was in at the time. I think my two best friends are going to come for my birthday all the way from D.C. and Dallas, so I'm kind of drawing up some elaborate plans. I think this is really going to help motivate me to... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 11:25:53 EST 7.2 - Wow, the best things I have EVER read on Spark People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4300128 Now normally, I roll my eyes at the Start Page headlines. Typically they are: <BR> -Attention grabbing headlines (like Yahoo "news") <BR> -Health scare articles (like something that would be on the Dr. Oz show) <BR> -Or ambigous correlation studies (college students who sleep in late drink more? Try the other way around) <BR> <BR> But these articles are fantastic. <BR> <BR> 1. Confession: I Obsessively Dieted Down to an Unhealthy Weight <BR> ( <link>www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=con... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 10:23:02 EST 7.1 - Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4295659 My 20 year-old brothers were visiting me the past two weeks. It was fun, but kind of exhausting. My diet was totes redic, which is a phrase I'm trying to cut from my vernacular. I'm glad I don't log my food because I would be super embarrassed. Man, I miss having a 20 year-old metabolism. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back on track, but it's hard. I've been eating so much the past two weeks that now I'm hungry all the time. All the time. Typically, all I need is one day under my belt to... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 12:15:32 EST 6.2 - Confessions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4238684 Man, I see in Fight Club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see it squandered. An entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables – slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars, but we won't. We're slowly learning that fact. <BR> -Chuck Palahniuk,... Tue, 17 May 2011 12:35:22 EST 6.1 - Chaos Theory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4224476 Our real discoveries come from chaos. <BR> -Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l454599793.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I don't have motivation for anything. <BR> So why expect myself to be motivated to lose weight? <BR> I just don't feel anything anymore. <BR> I am itching for change, but I know I'm not ready for it yet. <BR> It's like watching a tornado land and forgetting that I'm in the path. <BR> Wed, 11 May 2011 00:03:24 EST 5.4 - Death be Not Proud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4174149 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l171917760.jpg"> <BR> (For comparison, see photos on 5.1 blog) <BR> <BR> <BR> The weekend: <BR> <BR> FRIDAY <BR> Friday was ok. I wasn't doing anything Friday evening, so I decided to go to the gym. Which I almost never do on Fridays. I wanted to listen to music and run. There's something about drowning out everything and just running that feels really cathartic. But the track was closed. Since it was rainy all day, a Relay for Life ... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 12:07:19 EST 5.3 - Spirals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4165325 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l481512062.jpg"> <BR> (http://www.nasa.gov/centers/goddard/ima<BR>ges/content/96664main_galaxy_string_4.<BR>jpg) <BR> <BR> You marked <BR> The back of my hand <BR> You drew a heart <BR> And some tiny dots <BR> And a spiral <BR> Which reminded me <BR> Of the Milky Way <BR> And it made me think <BR> <BR> If our galaxy <BR> And Andromeda <BR> Felt like you and me <BR> Were like... the way we are <BR> They couldn't feel as vast <BR> And if the... Thu, 14 Apr 2011 11:20:16 EST 5.2 - Makers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4162868 Death keeps calling me <BR> She's gonna set me free <BR> No more sunshine sidewalk streets or misery. <BR> Like she did for you <BR> Oh, I learned how you suffered <BR> Lower east-side apartment, we stayed up late. <BR> <BR> The bones inside your mind were all broken <BR> The keys that opened any answers were all stolen <BR> Filling and refilling up the glass with Makers <BR> We both agreed <BR> The Final Moment! <BR> The sweetest remedy! <BR> To ever be delivered <BR> Heaven or heavenless <... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 11:17:01 EST 5.1 - Is This Real Life? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4158022 All around me are familiar faces <BR> Worn out places <BR> Worn out faces. <BR> Bright and early for the daily races <BR> Going nowhere <BR> Going nowhere. <BR> -Gary Jules <BR> <BR> I decided I would change things up a bit and actually write about my day-to-day life. It's kind of weird because on the one hand, I don't want to be narcissistic and believe people should want to know about my day, achievements, and/or failures. And on the other hand, I don't know--I guess I'm afraid my life w... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 12:30:15 EST 4.2 - A March Madness Prayer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4106316 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l358077889.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Our Father, who art in Lawrence, <BR> Hallowed be thy Game. <BR> Thy Tourney come <BR> Thy Championship won <BR> In Houston, as it is in Allen Field House. <BR> Give us this day, our deserved victory <BR> And forgive us our turnovers <BR> As we forgave Roy, who double-crossed against us. <BR> Lead us not into defeat, <BR> But deliver us from the east coast bias. <BR> For Kansas is the basketball Kingdom <BR> An... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 02:20:48 EST 4.1 - I'm a Weirdo. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4056199 I don't care if it hurts. <BR> I want to have control. <BR> I want a perfect body. <BR> I want a perfect soul. <BR> I want you to notice. <BR> When I'm not around. <BR> You're so effing special. <BR> I wish I was special. <BR> But I'm a creep. <BR> I'm a weirdo. <BR> What the hell am I doing here? <BR> I don't belong here. <BR> -Radiohead <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l529296744.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, I had another assessment last week. Here are the highlights... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 00:51:57 EST 3.5 - American Beauty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025511 I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves, from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird. And Janie. And Janie. And..... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 14:10:47 EST 3.4 - Lucky You Bakery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4019401 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l304534803.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There is a new bakery in town that will deliver homemade cookies right to your door (up until 2 am). <BR> <BR> It's weird. It's like our brains are on the same wavelength. Tue, 15 Feb 2011 10:58:50 EST 3.3 - To the One Who Got Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4018574 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l998161794.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Our minds pressed and guarded <BR> While our flesh disregarded <BR> The lack of space for the light-hearted <BR> In the boom that beats our drum <BR> <BR> And I know I make you cry <BR> I know sometimes you wanna die <BR> But do you really feel alive without me? <BR> If so, be free <BR> If not, leave him for me <BR> Before one of us has accidental babies <BR> For we are in love <BR> <BR> And is he dark enough? ... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 01:04:06 EST 3.2 - Happy Valentine's Day to Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4017055 I've never liked Valentine's Day. But I've never really hated it either. I think everyone has a very vocal, bitterly cynical, single friend or coworker today. But today, at least, it's not me. I guess, much like the other 364-365 days of the year, I just try to stay invisible. And that's really not hard to do, not if you're a dead cold fish like me. <BR> <BR> I'm digressing. <BR> <BR> I do have a date tonight. At 8 PM (CST). A date with the KU basketball team as we play our in-st... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 13:41:39 EST 3.1 - Just Not That Into It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4003708 What we call chaos is just patterns we haven't recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can't decipher. What we can't understand, we call nonsense. What we can't read, we call gibberish. There is no free will. There are no variables. There is only the inevitable. <BR> -Chuck Palahniuk <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l57255005.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel as though I'm standing at the fulcrum of revelation that will baptize me in eternal cath... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 10:57:47 EST 2.8 - Weird Science http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3947318 Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it. <BR> -Andre Gide <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l809969624.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> We all keep moving around, hoping to quell the inertia that keeps us in motion. We're like little atoms, particles moving through time and space, colliding with one another in some kind of chaotic symphony. We just keep moving, but we pretend that it's a choice to move. We move until we connect, atoms formi... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 12:01:15 EST 2.7 - Jesus is the Rizzle for the Sizzle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3936951 The excitement. The suspense. The time spent with friends and family. The food. Oh, the food! The drinks. The lights. The joy. Sheer joy. Unaldulterated happiness. <BR> <BR> Move over baby Jesus. This isn't about the holidays. I'm talking about college hoops/March Madness. People gain weight over the holidays. I gain weight over basketball season. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> My weekend in pictures: <BR> <BR> SATURDAY: KU 63 vs NEBRASKA 60 (@ ALLEN FIELDHOUSE) <BR> KU extends the... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 11:35:39 EST 2.6 - In Pictures: The Perfect Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3920084 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l985634329.jpg"> <BR> I found $10 in my pocket. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l188082478.jpg"> <BR> I found my iPod in my car. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l942980475.jpg"> <BR> I found this book for $1. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l346794433.jpg"> <BR> K-State lost. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l300388526.jpg"> ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 01:16:35 EST 2.5 - In Pictures: Snow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3914333 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l600121062.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l539766239.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I love the snow, but I don't drive in it. I haven't driven anywhere in 2+ days. <BR> <BR> I miss having a garage. Tue, 11 Jan 2011 14:30:40 EST 2.4 - Feeling Flabby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3914324 You wake up in Seatac, SFO, LAX. You wake up at O'Hare, Dallas-Fort Worth, BWI. Pacific, Mountain, Central. Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time. You wake up at Air Harbor International. If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person? <BR> -Fight Club <BR> <BR> I used to wonder how someone who loses a significant amount of weight could ever put it back on. How in the world, could they eve... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 14:28:20 EST 2.3 - futureme.org http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3901150 How could there be any question of acquiring or possessing, when the one thing needful for a man is to become, to be at last, and to die in the fullness of his being. <BR> -Antoine De Saint-Exupery <BR> <BR> I just feel like I'm running out of time. I feel like I'm running and barely keeping ahead of that blackness of knowing the present will soon be the past. I'm not doing enough. I'm not being enough. I'm not. . . I'm just not that into it. <BR> <BR> But I resolve to change. To ... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 17:11:17 EST 2.2 - In Pictures: KU vs. UMKC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3896512 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l77974293.jpg"> <BR> My pre-game shot. <BR> Allen Fieldhouse <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l356619482.jpg"> <BR> Photo by local newspaper. <BR> KU 99 - UMKC 52 <BR> <BR> Thu, 6 Jan 2011 11:46:24 EST 2.1 - Advice for the New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3888486 Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen) <BR> Mary Schmich <BR> Chicago Tribune <BR> <BR> Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. <BR> <BR> Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 12:43:11 EST