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Mon, 18 Nov 2013 11:11:43 EST Diamonds vs stones... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542062 Today I am trying to remember to be thankful. Some days sure are harder than others... I am reminded of a song John Denver sang that went "Some days are diamonds, some days are stones. Sometimes the hard times won't leave you alone. Sometimes a cold wind blows a chill in your bones. Some days are diamonds and some days are stones." Today just feels like a PILE OF STONES.... <BR> <BR> My mom called yesterday and the coyotes ate my son's cat this week at her house while he was home with us for... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 15:57:28 EST Blah... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533927 Today I feel - Blah... Not sad, not mad, not happy, not excited, just blah. I'm a little tired which might contribute. I'm in between big projects at work, so I am doing "housekeeping" type chores which I am sure contributes. Its windy and a little overcast. So just Blah. I am planning to take a walk at lunch if it's not blowing too hard so hopefully that will help to sweep some of that away. Any un-blah ideas? Wed, 6 Nov 2013 12:43:15 EST Happy Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531826 I was told by a counselor to OWN my feelings; to look inside each day and ask myself how I am feeling and be honest. If someone asks me how I am - be honest (to a point - the grocery bagger probably doesn't really want to know!) - "fine" is not an option, it's a cop-out. Its not always easy to do. I am not often comfortable doing it. How about you? Try it. Its harder than you think but it's starting to pay off... Because today I can honestly say I feel HAPPY! No qualifiers, no real "reason" ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 10:54:11 EST Restoring Faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525681 I was always the first to say "Everything happens for a Reason" or "Let go - Let God" and I truly believed that He brought me to it I would come out better for it on the other side. I have always been "the other people" - You know the one everyone talks about - "that can't happen to me it happens to other people". I am Other People - weird, hard, unlucky stuff happens in my life. I have always been able to roll with it, maybe not always as gracefully as I would like, but roll with it none the... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:00:22 EST Busy busy busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523163 Lately I have been busy busy busy!!! I have tried to keep up with food tracking but I have not always been consistent. I have not been interacting with my spark community either! <em>39</em> I like my work and am happy to keep busy but I need to remind myself sometimes that this is something I do for ME - for my mental health, for my relaxation, for my support. Here's to trying to do it all <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> On a good note - according to my doctor I have lost 20 lbs in the last y... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 12:22:40 EST Missing the Spark! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469960 So I have been unable to Spark at work and the computer at home was on the fritz and having a not so smart phone meant no Sparking!!! I have sorely missed this great community! But I am back online and raring to go!! I have been pretty good with both food and exercise and so have lost a few more pounds! (Better update my tracker!) But not as good as I should have been... I love the accountability the Spark community gives! Anyway - I am so glad to be back! <em>104</em> Thu, 29 Aug 2013 13:31:40 EST Listen to your body... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404556 I was so tired yesterday. I could not stop yawning! The daughter and I went and did some errands and I got home earlier than usual. I could not keep my eyes open! I was talking to a friend and she said "it is your body trying to tell you that you need rest". Maybe... but maybe it is the depression trying to creep back... maybe I am just being lazy... So I figured a cat nap might be the best way to check... I even set my alarm for 30 minutes. I slept right through the alarm and only woke at 8:... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 11:36:55 EST Choose your Attitude... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403462 So I work for a school district and we are forever finding clever sayings to motivate staff and students. One such saying that has been recycled this year is "Choose your Attitude" Now this one has some merit! I was tired and getting grumpy yesterday and decided to just go home after work and go to bed. Choosing my Attitude but hoping to keep it to myself and not inflict it on others. I went home and took a nap but then decided that I would feel better if I made an effort. I got up and called... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 11:16:27 EST Time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401309 It's harder to keep the momentum up to exercise when its hotter than hot! But I find myself eating more fruit and more salad and such which is great. I am back to the gym today after no gym for a couple of weeks. Sometimes its amazing how fast time gets away from me! <BR> <BR> Then of course there is the time that drags along.... Last week was the longest of weeks for me. I finally got to go see my husband on Sunday so it felt like Sunday would never get here! Well it did!! I was so happy t... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 11:50:40 EST Good news and too much birthday food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384715 So good news first! I was able to make an appointment to see my husband! It'll be 2 weeks until then but I am that much closer! I'm going without the kids for this first visit as I don't know the process and I'm not sure how he feels about seeing them there. For their part they are a little apprehensive. Not that I blame them but as mom I feel they need to go soon. <BR> <BR> We had DD's birthday party at the river. We had pizza, wings and onion rings then went swimming for a few hours. Sinc... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:05:35 EST Beating back the Blue Funk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379139 So after some "woe is me" and some kinder words from many Spark friends the blue funk still had me entrenched. I even spent some energy trying to figure out a good excuse to not go to the gym...I really wanted to go to Burger King and get a sandwich instead of eating the healthy wrap I brought for lunch... BUT then I got a little bit of good news so I was able to mentally shake myself and say "NO!" to the blue funk! I ate my delicious wrap made with white beans, chicken and cilantro and reall... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 12:36:52 EST The power of the blue funk... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377956 The blue funk has been trying to suck me in again... I have so much going on it seems... <BR> I'm worried about the man - not sure when I'll be able to hear from him. I am so excited he will be moved closer but the whole change to routine has me feeling anxious and nervous. Stupid, I know but there none the less. Plumbing issues have once again reared their ugly heads...Hopefully we will have that licked today. What to do about the youngest boy....he has no motivation and is really worrying ... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 12:44:05 EST Working on it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372501 What am I working on? ME! <BR> I am working to have a more positive attitude (Pooh - not Eeyore!). <BR> I am working to lose weight and to be healthier! <BR> I am working out! And surprisingly - I love going to the gym! <BR> I am working on new year end projects at work. Not always an easy task since no one has ever done this job before. <BR> I am working with my 4-Hers to get their Record Books in! <BR> I am working on rebuilding my faith...never thought that'd be necessary. <BR> I am work... Thu, 30 May 2013 11:39:52 EST Never thought I'd see the day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364716 Never thought I'd see the day when I would be excited to go to the gym! Halfway through week 2 and I like it! I plan to try for an hour today. Once I can do the hour at a fairly high intensity, I might even start going 5 days a week instead of 3. I do have to go straight from work though - I know me and my love-affair with the couch will suck out my motivation and willpower if I don't! I realize I have a long way to go and will probably sing a different tune many times but for now - WOW! To... Wed, 22 May 2013 14:47:55 EST I hate headaches... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364014 So I had such a nasty headache last night! Every time I closed my eyes I could feel my pulse in my eyeballs...Yuck! So I stayed home from work and vegged out. I did eat well and track so I was happy about that. Yesterday I did 45 minutes at the gym - I was going to go for the hour but I amped up the intensity so 45 wiped me out! Back to work and the gym tomorrow! Hopefully I get a good nights sleep tonight! <BR> <em>102</em> Tue, 21 May 2013 22:55:04 EST Where does the time go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362444 I work for a school district and this time of year is crazy busy. Last week I think I lost 2 days... LOL <BR> This got me thinking about time... <BR> This month is my 25th anniversary! Really?? Can't be possible, can it? <BR> This week is my son's 22nd birthday! Nu-uh!! Can't be - I can't be that old! <BR> <BR> Looking at it this way I see how quickly time flies. Do I make the most of every day? Probably not. But I think I have a good start on taking time to take care of ME so that I ca... Mon, 20 May 2013 15:17:44 EST Busy day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357424 So today is day 2 at the gym after work. We are doing 3 days a week to start as we didn't want to overdo it but I must say I have not really been sore other than my knees (which are always achy). I will probably be going it alone today as DD is out of town. I'm OK with that though - although I wasn't sure if I would be. I was afraid I would use it as an excuse to not go. NOPE!! I've got my bag with me and I'm going!! <BR> <BR> Then I'm going to head for the first in person Al Anon meeting. ... Wed, 15 May 2013 12:31:59 EST I did it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356625 Went to the gym for the first time yesterday. Did 35 minutes - recumbent cross trainer and the stationary bike. I was sore afterwards but not bad today! Woo Hoo! I actually felt good and was proud of myself. We will go again Wednesday and Friday this week for 35 minutes each day and then up our time next week a little. Yea!! Tue, 14 May 2013 18:50:08 EST Going to the gym... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355291 The daughter talked me into. We are going to the hospital's new gym starting today. I hope that because I have to pay for it I will be better about using it. Plus as the temps start to rise I can't use the "it's too hot!" excuse, right? We are starting with 3 times a week for 30 minutes. I plan to go right after work so the couch can't suck me in - which it tends to do if I go home first. Here goes... <em>33</em> Mon, 13 May 2013 14:31:09 EST Feeling Sparkier... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351275 I already feel better about pulling out of the blue funk and recommitting to myself! Spending time Sparking makes me feel better so why was it I let myself stop?? Oh yeah - woe is me got the better of me. Well I am going to beat woe is me and I am going to beat it with my sparkiness! (Is that a word?) LOL Happy Sparking! Thu, 9 May 2013 18:25:52 EST Mother's Day... Really?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349880 So obviously Mother's Day is this weekend. As a mom I should be looking forward to it but I'm not - for a variety of reasons... <BR> With my hubby not here I kinda hate holidays but that's ignorable. <BR> My friend is coming into town to see her daughter and wants to get together with me and my daughter - nice but her daughter has to work at 11 on Sunday. They want to go to breakfast and shopping...Out to breakfast on Mother's Day? Yuck! Too many people. <BR> Then I get to go see my mom - ... Wed, 8 May 2013 13:12:26 EST Digging out of the Blue Funk... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348958 So I have been burried under a blue funk...again...between that and work - No social interaction. But I had a talk with my son and gsave him the advice that sometimes you just have to "fake it til you make it". Time to turn the tables and take my own advice right? So I am commiting to at least 2 blogs a week and 2 visits to some of my teams. Hopefully saying it here - in writing - will hold me accountable. Hopefully this will help me stay out of the mire that is the blue funk... <em>376</em... Tue, 7 May 2013 18:43:24 EST 10 Minute workouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327559 So I feel like I have been buried in work! I have beeen trying to keep up with my food tracking but have not spent much time sparking lately EXCEPT for my 10 Minute Lunchtime workouts! I have been picking different 10 minutes workouts from Spark and doing them on my lunch hour. I have always been a skeptic when it comes to "10 minutes will start to make a difference". Stupid... I know... but that was where I was at. Well for the last week and a half I have done these little lunch time workout... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 11:53:53 EST What's in a dream? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310047 So last night I had a dream wherein I was much thinner and definitely fitter! Normally I dream of myself as I am now - not thin, not fit... LOL I was so excited to see myself like this that it has renewed my commitment to the healthier me! Funny how one little thing will do that isn't it? I'm so happy its spring! Wed, 3 Apr 2013 11:19:13 EST Overwhelmed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302351 Sometimes I am just overwhelmed. I know I do this to myself because A. I am a control freak, B. I am a nurturer and C. No one else will step up - but it is still overwhelming at times. I know the proper way to handle it when I feel this way is to take baby steps and do a little at a time but I just want to crawl into bed with my dog and pull the covers over my head. I know I should not let the voices of others bother me but sometimes they do. I know I need to cut myself some slack and not ta... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 18:24:07 EST Back from the Fair... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291057 So the fair went pretty good this year. Of course I am exhausted! I can't be prouder of the 4-Hers though - what a great group!!!! Kids and parents were super amazing this year!! Those of you who have done, have kids who have done or are leaders for 4-H know how stressful fair can be and how great it is when you have parental support. <BR> <BR> Food - I love fair food... fried, sticky, sweet, salty.... so bad for you... But I did OK I think. I didn't just throw it all away you know? I starte... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 12:18:36 EST No time to get sick... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278867 I woke up with a sore throat, headache and cough this morning. I have no time to be sick with fair coming up next week. Do we ever really have time to be sick though? Not really! Vitamin C and echineacia with breakfast. I am planning soup for lunch and maybe dinner. I'm going home after work and going to bed! Back to the chiropractor today at lunch time as whatever she did yesterday afternoon made my back worse. If I can nip this in the bud I will be so happy! Fri, 8 Mar 2013 12:29:47 EST I did it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277477 I am proud of myself today! I seem to have diffused the drama from yesterday successfully and didn't get sucked into the middle of it! It took considerable thought, care and tact but I think all parties are pretty well satisfied with the result. I did not engage in anything negative and it really didn't wear me out too badly! Yea! <BR> Thu, 7 Mar 2013 13:20:23 EST Drama, drama, drama http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276216 What's with drama??? We've got some serious drama going on in our 4-H community. Some people seem to thrive on it... Me? It just exhausts me. Truly wipes me out. I'm trying to stay as far away from it as possible but it's tough when I am one of the leaders and the one they all look to to "fix" things. So I will try to do what I can but I refuse to let this drama drag me down. Lord knows I can do that all by myself, right? LOL Hopefully this ill wind will blow through quickly as we only have a... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 16:30:20 EST Plodding along... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274382 I feel like I am plodding along today. Not always a bad thing but it strikes me as boring... I'm working, I'm sparking, I'm interacting with friends and family but it just feels like marking time right now. Is that ok? Maybe. I feel like I should feel more "engaged", if that is the right word, in things. Maybe this is another phase. I'm not feeling depressed or blah just not .... something... hard to explain. I'm not unhappy but nothing really excites me either. Hmmm... something to ponder...... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:22:10 EST Beautiful Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273085 Sometimes the weather really helps influence your mood. Today is one of those days! I spent most of my lunch hour outside in the sunshine. It really made me happy. I have errands I have to run for my MIL and even that doesn't dampen the joy I have from just soaking up some nice warm rays. It's been pretty cold here in our part of the desert this winter. I am ready to warm up. Mon, 4 Mar 2013 17:19:39 EST Down... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267176 So I know I am depressed. I take the meds, went to the counselor, do the things I need to get through my days. I think I'm coping pretty well. I work, volunteer for 4H, spend time enjoying my kids and the gang that they've acquired. It is hard because this is not the life I had planned and I miss my husband every day. I try not to be "down" all the time and try to show an interest in my friends lives. That said, I have a "friend" who recently lost her boyfriend of 6 years. I have been there f... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 11:48:45 EST Missing my Spark fix! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266163 Finally cured the computer issues that were plaquing me and am able to log back on to this great site! Oh how Ive missed that little Spark in my day!!! <em>252</em> Wed, 27 Feb 2013 15:12:41 EST I don't understand people... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250660 I have a friend who looks for a slight or insult in everything anyone says or does. I have another who worries each time our boss is the slightest bit annoyed with a situation - thinking it is personal. I don't get it. I really don't understand. I have better things to worry about than imagined issues. Do they like turmoil and drama? Maybe they are insecure? It just annoys me that people have to FIND things to worry about. Things to worry about tend to find ME - not the other way around. And ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 17:00:56 EST Choosing my attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249322 Man I have been in a funk and just kind of rolling with it. Today I decided I have to get out of it. I am choosing to be in a better, more positive mood. Someone told me recently to "fake it til you make it" so that is my plan today. So far so good. I'm hoping I can carry the good mood through to tomorrow. Valentines day and my anniversary - and they suck without my husband by my side. Hopefully we will be able to talk but its doubtful... Nothing I can do about it but it tends to make it hard... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 15:59:04 EST 3 steps forward 2 steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247754 So last week was busy with an out of town conference. Buffets are not my friends and I wasn't able to check in here or track my meals. Probably a good thing! (wince) But nothing was stopping me yesterday - except myself. I was definitely Eeyore and not Pooh! Bad mood, depressed and annoyed with the world...maybe more annoyed with me than anyhting else but didn't want to admit it.... I felt like it just wasn't worth it to try when I take 3 steps forward and 2 steps back. Then I told me friend ... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 12:37:08 EST Seeing a change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239076 I am seeing a change in myself - maybe not as much as I would like - I still get depressed way to often and too easily but it is happening. I put on my pink jeans today. These tend to be tight in the morning but loosen up a little through the day. Today they started loose and I am having to pull them up! WOOOO HOOOO! The other day my daughter and I realized that we have been gradually decreasing how much food we are eating and not missing it! Thanks Spark People! Baby steps!! Tue, 5 Feb 2013 17:43:23 EST Superbowl Calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236926 I know I had too many calories yesterday - not even gonna try to track them! But today is a new day and I have a crazy busy couple days ahead as I get ready to head out of town for work. So I am starting today with a healthy breakfast and tons of water... No use crying over my Superbowl indulgence, right? I have enough to cry about as my 49ers lost... LOL Mon, 4 Feb 2013 10:18:09 EST Nice of you to notice... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232035 Went to take some papers to MIL last night and stopped at the folks. Mom says "have you lost some weight?" WOO HOO!!! "As a matter of a fact, yes" I say with a self satisfied smile. <em>41</em> So I used the fact that it seems to be working when we had to make a fast food dinner choice. Instead of the norm (fried, fried and fried), I chose a small roast beef sandwich, iced tea and had a piece of fruit when I got home. Yea me! Baby steps.... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 16:58:45 EST Blah... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228971 Today I am Blah... I am actually edging towards Grrrr.... No one specific reason - just an accumulation of too much on my plate I think. MIL is now in the nursing home but until the paperwork gets straightened out we don't who or how it's getting paid for. Can't be me - I'm so broke I can't pay attention! Do you think anyone can just say "thanks" without a qualifying "but did you do.. get... be... ask..." NOPE! She doesn't help - she tells everyone that she has no family here - they are all b... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 15:22:19 EST Surprise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226912 I didn't weigh myself last weekso this morning I got on the scale not expecting much movement - my back is bothering me so I didn't get in a lot of fitness last week. But SURPRISE! I am down 3 more pounds. So in 3 weeks I have lost 5 pounds. Would I like it to be more? Sure - but I know that I am making healthy lifestyle changes tht will help me lose the weight and keep it off. I will just keep up with the turtle attitude - slow and steady wins the race! It's a happy monday so far! <em>134<... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 10:35:54 EST Under the Influence... Of Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221720 I was talking with a friend today about how much those around you influence you - your mood, your attitude, your choices. She asked me what I had been doing differently because she noticed my attitude is better, my moods more positive. I told her that when I am upset, discouraged, angry, anxious, etc. I turn to Sparkpeople for a few minutes and check out the blogs, pages, articles, huddles or whatever catches my eye. There is so much encouragement going on on here that you can't help but pick... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:46:15 EST Under the Influence... Of Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221719 I was talking with a friend today about how much those around you influence you - your mood, your attitude, your choices. She asked me what I had been doing differently because she noticed my attitude is better, my moods more positive. I told her that when I am upset, discouraged, angry, anxious, etc. I turn to Sparkpeople for a few minutes and check out the blogs, pages, articles, huddles or whatever catches my eye. There is so much encouragement going on on here that you can't help but pick... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:46:15 EST Under the Influence... Of Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221718 I was talking with a friend today about how much those around you influence you - your mood, your attitude, your choices. She asked me what I had been doing differently because she noticed my attitude is better, my moods more positive. I told her that when I am upset, discouraged, angry, anxious, etc. I turn to Sparkpeople for a few minutes and check out the blogs, pages, articles, huddles or whatever catches my eye. There is so much encouragement going on on here that you can't help but pick... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:46:15 EST Today I will be a turtle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220234 My mind is muddled this week. I have too much going on I think... But I have things to accomplish and so I can't just muddle along. I started to panic about it, actually felt my BP going up and the headache coming on, then I took a step back. I went and read some Sparkblogs, a couple articles about stress and a really nice email from a Spark Friend. So I decided to change my mindset: Today I will be a turtle... slow & steady I will plod through each task one at a time. Here I go... <em>134</... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:52:16 EST Today I will be a turtle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220233 My mind is muddled this week. I have too much going on I think... But I have things to accomplish and so I can't just muddle along. I started to panic about it, actually felt my BP going up and the headache coming on, then I took a step back. I went and read some Sparkblogs, a couple articles about stress and a really nice email from a Spark Friend. So I decided to change my mindset: Today I will be a turtle... slow & steady I will plod through each task one at a time. Here I go... <em>134</... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:52:16 EST Today I will be a turtle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220232 My mind is muddled this week. I have too much going on I think... But I have things to accomplish and so I can't just muddle along. I started to panic about it, actually felt my BP going up and the headache coming on, then I took a step back. I went and read some Sparkblogs, a couple articles about stress and a really nice email from a Spark Friend. So I decided to change my mindset: Today I will be a turtle... slow & steady I will plod through each task one at a time. Here I go... <em>134</... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:52:16 EST Peaks and valleys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213333 Yesterday was a day for peaks and valleys. I stayed on track with my eating! Woo Hoo! The audit at work went great! The girl, the dog and I went walking out in the desert and walked 1.5 miles in 35 minutes and actually enjoyed every minute of it! Then I had another unsatisfying call with my husband and it deflated the whole day... I need to work on not letting one thing bring me down, I know, but it's so hard for me to BE positive lately, let alone STAY positive all day. I let it get the best... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 16:48:55 EST One Day at a Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211521 So yesterday I went over my calorie count with chinese food. I saw it coming when we wouldn't be home in time for dinner. I started to stress about it. I was worried aboout undoing the progress I'd started to make. Then I took a deep breath and said NO to the anxiety. I tried to make good food choices and watch my portions - even at the buffet. When I got home I tracked my food, chatted on some posts and prepared my meals for today. I am on track and plan to stay that way. Little moments will... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 12:33:45 EST