Finally it feels like I've been making progress. I've made the mistake of weighing myself on different scales and on different surfaces. One scale showed that instead of losing any weight, I gained 3 lbs! Sooo I'm sticking to my roomate's scale, and using it on our hardwood floor, at some point mid-afternoon. It's tricky because I feel weird asking for it and she's rarely home at this time. At any rate, I finally was able to weigh myself today and I lost 5lbs! Which means I get to buy a dvd =P. I was really down about my new lifestyle for a while because it felt like I was making no progress. But now I know I have been! ^^ Since it's hard for me to weigh myself, I finally printed off the printable tape measure and will use that for sure, at least once a week. Thanks to losing those 5lbs I finally feel like I can achieve my goals, I CAN DO THIS! I"m also feeling better when I work out. I don't feel so totally wiped afterwards and I can run harder and longer or up the resistance on the elliptical. Progress all around!

It's not a complete celebration though. I know I'm struggling hardcore on the weekends. The problem is I go home, or I stay at my bf's parents place. And at these locations it's EXTREMELY hard to control what I eat. Especially since my bf's parents don't like it when I'm picky. Also, my bf and I always have wings night once a week and those are jam packed with calories. I always eat very little and sparingly during the day but I know that's not good for me. Last time, I at too little. When this happens I feel nauseous. It got so bad that I actually threw up. How does that make sense? My stomach says "hmmm I'm hungry so I'll just empty out all the rest of the food in me"? At any rate, I was still able to eat the wings. Even with all my control I was still a couple hundred calories out of my range (well....hard to say since I threw up).
So how do I fix this problem? I always eat less the meals I do make for myself and am careful with those. This sunday I made some progress. I took ONLY firsts and served myself more salad than the other items on the menu to make my plate look fuller. I was still plenty full. I just need to exercise extreme control I guess at these meals. It's hard, but I'm working on it.

I have great news! For reading week, my mom and I are going to CALIFORNIA to see my cousins!! I'll finally be able to meet my cousin's baby! I'm beyond excited. I'm a bit sad because I won't be able to see MY baby (my bf of course). He can't come because he has to work all week. It's a fantastic opportunity though and will be totally paid for by my family. Love free vacations!

So things are on the up and up! Hopefully I will continue to make success and learn greater control.