Monday, January 28, 2008
It's been a month plus a few days since I talked to my father. I have been getting updates from my aunt and I know he got out of the V.A. hospital on Jan 5th but ended up back in the ER and admitted to another hospital that same day. My aunt was there visiting him from the 16th to 20th and he was in the ER again twice in those days so he has been having a rough time of it.
She has told me a little more about him. Nothing that really endeared him to me that's for sure.. She said he doesn't get how what he does affects other people and that we should just accept it and kind of make allowances for it. My sister sounds a lot like him and she makes me what to scream. I'm not going to make allowances for it. I shouldn't have to bend over backwards for him. He hasn't done s(*^ for me in my life so why should I do it for him?
I have called and left a message asking how things were going and I have also emailed. I haven't gotten a response from either one.
I'm done.. I am not going to contact him again. I think that because I wasn't an easy touch and didn't accept him and his version of things up front that it's too much work for him to try to create a relationship or win me over. It doesn't help that I really don't care if we have one anyway. He could probably tell that I wasn't really comfortable with him.
I will talk to him if he calls but I am not going to make anymore 'first moves'. I will keep in touch with my aunt that I grew up knowing but I still haven't contacted the other aunt I didn't know I had yet, and I'm not sure I want to. Other then my Aunt Cheryl, that side of the family hasn't had anything to do with my sister and me. My other (new) aunts story is different, she wasn't raised with my father and aunt so they aren't close either. I thought my moms family was wacky but my father's is just flipping strange!