Sunday, January 13, 2008
This last week was a bad one. The cravings. I literally came *this close* to stuffing my face with fruit snacks and oreos. But, I overcame it.
Worse, though, was that my depression came back temporarily, which it does when I have eaten sugar. Add that to a bad moment on Tuesday (losing my job) and man, didn't want to get out of bed, didn't want to shower, didn't want to do anything. Thank goodness Emilio has to be at school otherwise, I would have just stayed home, shades drawn, alone.
I didn't exercise once, either. I just didn't feel like I had the energy. I was beaten down, tired, lethargic, again, I am sure from the accidental sugar ingestion on New Years.
I was getting worried that these feelings would never go away. My weight started dropping again but, the lethargy persisted. The cravings persisted. What was going on?
Today, finally, I am feeling like the old me. We got up, had breakfast, took the kids to the park to play basketball and play on the playground. I ran the stairs there, which felt great. I am starting to perk up and I am so happy.
Like I say on my page, this is a journey full of ups and downs and this week was definitely one of the really down times. But, I stayed strong. I cannot back pedal now, I am so close to reaching a major goal. I have come too far. I cannot and will not fail now.