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Been awhile

Sunday, January 13, 2008

This last week was a bad one. The cravings. I literally came *this close* to stuffing my face with fruit snacks and oreos. But, I overcame it.

Worse, though, was that my depression came back temporarily, which it does when I have eaten sugar. Add that to a bad moment on Tuesday (losing my job) and man, didn't want to get out of bed, didn't want to shower, didn't want to do anything. Thank goodness Emilio has to be at school otherwise, I would have just stayed home, shades drawn, alone.

I didn't exercise once, either. I just didn't feel like I had the energy. I was beaten down, tired, lethargic, again, I am sure from the accidental sugar ingestion on New Years.

I was getting worried that these feelings would never go away. My weight started dropping again but, the lethargy persisted. The cravings persisted. What was going on?

Today, finally, I am feeling like the old me. We got up, had breakfast, took the kids to the park to play basketball and play on the playground. I ran the stairs there, which felt great. I am starting to perk up and I am so happy.

Like I say on my page, this is a journey full of ups and downs and this week was definitely one of the really down times. But, I stayed strong. I cannot back pedal now, I am so close to reaching a major goal. I have come too far. I cannot and will not fail now.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LISA32989 1/16/2008 7:18PM

    Oh Heidi
I had no idea you were having such a rough time. I'm glad you told us. Take care & hang in there. Being a big emotional eater myself, I know trying times will try the diet. But you've been so strong!

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TELANY 1/14/2008 1:38PM

    Hey Heidi!!! I've been going through something similar and am finally feeling in control again too. How are things going now? Hang in there, I'm sending support and hugs your way. I've missed you!

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LUNACELTA 1/14/2008 1:10AM

    Oh my God! I am so sorry to hear you had such a crappy week. I had no idea! So sorry about your job!

Good job on not yielding to the cravings! I hope this week brings you better things. Let me know if there's something I can do to help! Lo siento mucho. Ojalá que todo mejore pronto. Con cariño, tu amiga Luna.

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SPARKNMOM 1/13/2008 10:36PM

    Yikes...Hugs to you - BIG hugs!! Glad you're hanging in there and overcoming the cravings. Good job picking yourself up during adversity...proud of ya!

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JNORMAN1969 1/13/2008 7:34PM

    Glad you are feeling better, now the down is over so things are going to start looking up again.

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