Friday, January 11, 2008
I really was motivated to exercise a whole bunch and my eating seems under control today. Yesterday I flugged up but I only gained 6/10 of a pound, so I figure I needed to do damage control. My husband is in a rotten mood because his sabbatical proposal got rejected, and when he gets all aloof like this, I feel like eating comfort food and lots of it because I want to be loved, snuggled, etc. and he doesn't feel up to being affectionate. His aloof mood makes me feel vulnerable. And when I'm affectionate to him and try to comfort him when he's like this, he gets annoyed. So I'm reminding myself he's acting this way not at all because of me, and if I need kindness and affection, I can get that from myself by taking a shower, snuggling under a down comforter and taking a nap, reading a nice book, etc. I can get what I need today from me. I don't know why I feel I need other people to make me happy! I want to learn how to make myself happy...not let others make or break my day.