Sunday, January 06, 2008
Have you ever said good bye to someone or something you love? it's never easy.. but there are times in our lives we have to close one door to open another... back in June of last year, i had decided to say good bye to my unhealthy self to open the door for a thinner healthier me... it's been an on going process...i find myself still entertaining the unhealthy ways... this year, i've made a pac with myself..i am saying good bye to half of me... it won't happen over night...in fact... it will take more than this year to extract a half... but this is where it begins..right here..right now... and this is the letter to the half of me that is leaving... i hope to hear from all of you and read some of your good bye letters also...whether it is to a certain food, unhealthy life choice or the fat... let's say good bye here and now...hand it's good bye letter and move on with the divorce... this does not mean it will be easy... good bye never is... doesn't mean we will never fall backwards... divorce doesn't mean it disappears...but this is a way to finally come to terms with what we are doing and move forward to a better us :)
You have been with me for many years now...growing to a whole other person...in fact i am now carrying 2 overweight people. I cannot continue this way. My mental and physical health are jeapordized and i just cannot take the pain any longer. I have hinted for you to just leave, i have given you the silent treatment, i have cried and i have gotten angry and even yelled at you...in fact i have tried just about everything to get rid of you, and yet, you won't leave. So, i am removing you from my home and my temple. You are no longer allowed to stay here, and you will be removed ounce by ounce, pound by pound and inch by inch. I am no longer angry at you, i have been your biggest supporter after all, i have since learned from this and will no longer support your lifestyle and your painful past.
Good bye half of me and hello life.