Trying to find my misplaced Motivation
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Quite frankly, the whole "getting healthier" thing isn't enough right now for me. The fact is that I am healthier and more fit and at nearly the lowest weight (once I get these few new holiday pounds off) that I've been since I was in my teens (more than 25 years ago -- EEK!!!). (check out my sparkpage for a "before" picture that isn't even me at my heaviest. UGH!!!)
It seems my pride and pleasure in having made it so far already may be hampering my ability to move forward and to get to the weight I really should be and to get to optimal fitness and health. The reality is that people probably look at me and still see someone who is tremendously overweight. I still only see the fat, but have sufficiently brainwashed myself about being happy about my progress (this keeps me from backsliding).
So, what is going to motivate me to get moving again toward journaling all my food, exercising in a more meaningful way and doing it every day of every week? Here it is: My husband and I are planning a Walt Disney World Fairy Tale Weddings Vow Renewal for January 2009! Woohoo!!! So, I really want to go dress browsing/shopping in March and I don't want to look at "plus-size" dresses. And right now, I'm not sure that any of the 4 "dream gowns" I am interested in come in a size that I would need and I might not even be able to try them on. That just won't do!!! LOL! So, my goal is to lose at least 12 pounds by the end of February.