Monday, December 31, 2007
So, unwittingly I've been drinking all of my water. It's amazing what happens when you stop drinking soda, and don't want to waste the calories on fruit juice. I drink water. It's refreshing too, so I'm hoping to keep this change. It's better for me as a singer too. "Pee clear, Sing clear!" Kind of graphic, but it's what one of the voice teachers at my old college used to say.
I stayed within my calories today, which is BIG for a Sunday. Usually I completely lose it on the weekends. I think this is the first weekend where I did. I did, however, almost have a melt-down at my sister's house. You ever want something specific for dinner, but end up eating something else? You're not hungry, but you're DEFINITELY not satisfied! So, I was very unsatisfied, kinda tired, and hating the envelopes I had to stuff (different story). But, I was still going to work out. My sister and I have done the "Biggest Loser" video for exercise in the past. She wanted to do strength training, I really wanted to do cardio. Well, we did cardio (ain't my sis great?). I was about....15 minutes into it and felt completely dejected and never wanted to exercise again in my whole entire life. I don't know what it is really. I hate jumping jacks. I can do some (Kim actually said I did more than her, but I was so p*ssed, I didn't care), but I get so out of breath and all the fat on my body bounces up and down while I do. Not fun. Something about that video just makes me feel really inadequate. "What's different between this and going to the gym?" Kim asked. I don't really know, but what I *do* know is that I won't be doing this video again any time soon. I made it to about 25 minutes (it was almost over), and then I just wanted to cry. Nope, not PMSing. lol
Anyway, I guess what I need to focus on is the fact that I DID exercise, I DID stay within my calories, and I DID drink all of my water. That's pretty much what you've gotta do to lose weight, right? Oh! And I even planned healthier snacks for ringing in the new year. And I don't feel terribly deprived either, which is awesome.
Here's the thing. After having my gall bladder removed, I just can't eat certain things. When I do, I pay for it later. Also, some things just make me feel really icky now when I eat them because my body hungers for healthier selections. I've really noticed the difference, so I think that makes it easier to make better choices.
Okay...now I'm rambling. This blog is SO incoherent! But that was my yesterday. Now I get to look forward to today...another gift from God. : )