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Kadusha: 2003-2007

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Kadusha died last night. I still can't quite grasp it. I found her in the Animal Market, a sort of take away zoo in Dushanbe, Tajikistan. She was a tiny, starving puppy, and the man was going to drown her because no one wanted a female dog. She was crying her heart out; she was so young that her eyes were still blue.

Impulsively, I bought her for $2.70. Kadusha joined my westie MacDuff, and we traveled the world. Four months ago, we moved from London to Arlington, Virginia. Kadusha struggled with the adjustment and developed some problems -- nothing that seemed too serious.

It all went wrong after lunch yesterday. By 6 p.m. we were in the vet's office. Kadusha was such a fighter. The vet marveled at the dosage it took it finally put her to sleep. I held her and reminded her of all the amazing adventures we had together as she gazed at me with those beautiful whisky-colored eyes.

I know it's going to be a long time before I'm over her. MacDuff keeps checking her crate and looking around the house for her. Odd things suddenly make me think of her and I cry.

I love the Christmas season, but this year is tough.

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    Oh honey! I'm so sorry to hear about Kadusha. I lost my dog earlier this year, and it still hurts. Then a family member on top of that - although frankly, the dog was a family member too.

    For some reason, our birthdays were the hardest thing for me this year. My dog, me, and my family member all have birthdays in a row, right around Christmas. This year I lost both my birthday buddies. Nobody to "share" my cake with. (OK, plenty of people to help eat it, which is good.) That was hard.
    3665 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a pet is terrible! I've been there as well. There is such a hole in your heart. I know you'll never forget her. Hopefully you will remember the happy times with her.

    3668 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about Kadusha. She will always be in your heart and you can always feel good about how much you did to give her a good life.
    3670 days ago
    It's hard, but it's so good that you were there with her. So sorry about your puppy.
    3672 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about your lost. I know how hard it is to lose a family member like that. I recently lost my Gus, he was a Westie. It was so kind of you to adopt her. At least you gave her a better life. Take care
    3672 days ago
  • H2O4LIFE
    Boy, that takes me back. OUCH! I'm so sorry for your loss. My pup still brings me to tears and it's been 2 1/2 yrs. We'll always have our memories.~hugs from the Dark
    3676 days ago
    I am so so sorry to hear about your precious fur baby...she was gorgeous and was very lucky to have such a wonderful and caring home. I'm so sorry for your loss... :(

    3676 days ago
    I am so sorry! It's amazing how close we get to our wonderful pets. Mine are my family! My heart really breaks for you. Best wishes!
    3676 days ago
  • 250STRONG
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    3676 days ago
    It's great that you rescued Kadusha and gave her a loving home. I'm sorry that she is no longer with you. I hope that you are comforted by the memories of your friend & companion.
    3676 days ago
  • MUSTANG0421
    I am so sorry for your loss. I became higly allergic to my cats and had to give them up a little over a year ago. I still miss them and have moments when something reminds me of them. Kadusha was so lucky to have had you. Hopefully in time your memories of her will be comforting to you.
    3676 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are such special angels to us. Remember the wonderful times she brought you as she knew the life you brought her.
    3676 days ago
    Hugs to you at this time. My Reeses the red dog in my profile is chugging along despite the vet insisting he can't figure out how. That makes this xmas feel a little worrisome for me. God bless their dear hearts.
    3677 days ago
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