I made this so much harder than it had to be for so long. I'm glad I've finally seen the light. All I have to do is make taking care of me the most important thing. I realize that sounds selfish, but it's not. The simple fact that if I had continued down the path I was on, I would be in no condition to care for and support the people I love, instead they'd be stuck taking care of me. No doubt my weight would have eventually left me immobile due to failing knee joints and an ever deteriorating back. Taking care of me results in taking care of the ones I love for a very long time and not the other way around. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!