I really want to do this. I want to be healthier, happier, sexier... I just want to be a better person. I feel so digusted with myself... I just keep thinking, I know what I'm doing wrong AND I know how to fix it.... but I just put it off everyday. I want to lose 33 pounds by July 5th 2008... my 22nd birthday. Being over weight makes you so self concious... your weight is ALWAYS on your mind...even if it's not front and center in your head...it's still there. I hate feeling this way... I want to feel confident and sexy. I don't want to be disgusted with myself when my husband touches me... I want to be a good HEALTHY example to my children... I want to take good care of the body that GOD gave me. I'm doing it this time... no more excuses. I know what I need to do and I know how to do it... so, here we go again!