Monday, October 29, 2007
I guess, here I am! I weighed myself this morning. 245.2 lbs. Very upsetting.
I'm starting this because of 3 basic reasons.
#1 - I would like to conceive sometime in the future. My period is about 13-15 days late this month and still counting. When I looked up possible reasons, amongst stress & thyroid problems (which I've been tested) was "increase in weight". I've have an extreme increase in weight. Since I got married about 1 1/2 years ago, I've gained approx. 50-60 lbs. Thats an increase if I've ever seen one. I often find myself questioning how my husband could even find me the littlest bit attractive still. That may sound shallow? I dont know. But really, I'm not the same woman he married. Or the same woman he'd been with for 7 years before we got married. Weight does a lot to a person, I suppose. Not just physically, but emotionally...mentally. I really don't like myself, I'm sure that effects our relationships, even if indirectly.
#2 - I have a breathing 'issue'. Its really undiagnosised. I'm sick of going to the dr's about it. I have trouble getting a deep breath, randomly. Whether I've been at the gym working out, or just sitting on the couch. Lately it seems when I'm laying in bed its very bad. I wonder, is it getting so much worse because of my weight.
#3 - I suppose the most important reason, for myself. To make myself healthy. I can only imagine the stress I'm putting on my body to carry this much weight around. Reason #3 is simply stated...FOR HEALTH.
One of my goals is to journal daily, I'll try to post an actual blog journal entry once a week. That way if anyone is reading and has input they can offer it up! Cause I'm looking for all the help i can get!!
So i guess thats it for now. I'm excited to join this community!