Monday, September 24, 2007
This journal entry was brought on by a very good question:
how do you know when it becomes a lifestyle change?
This is something that i am afraid of, I'm not sure when i will be ready to veer from my strict diet and be able to make the right choices in different places. I'm safe here at home, or out for a couple of hours, but what if i am at someones house, or go out to dinner with the family. can i trust myself to make the right choices? I'm thinking the answer to that question is no, not yet. Because if i still fear it , then i must not be ready for it.
How will I know when it becomes a lifestyle change?
When i no longer have to remind myself to get some more water...
When i no longer get up, open the fridge to mindlessly grab something...
or that when i do, it's a healthy choice...
when i can go out to dinner and ask them to package half my meal before i get it.
when my first thought is water, or unsweetened tea
when i don't look and pause to stare at a cookie at the grocery store..
When i can begin to once more eat dinner with my family and not overdo it, or finish the kids plates.
when i can occasionally buy a treat for the family and not eat it all in the first couple of days.
These are all things I am used to doing, many of these things i am working on at this very moment and doing a wonderful job, but for now, it's not stable enough for me to venture on into a "normal" everyday life. i will continue with my oatmeal, plain yogurt, smoothies and lean cuisines until i feel i have reached a complete lifestyle change.