about myself is always very interesting. When I first started SparkPeople almost a year ago, I was filled with great ambition and strength. As the months wore on I continued on my journey with a few slip ups just like everyone else. Once June rolled around and I finished with Broadway and was no longer dancing in class or rehearsals I decided to take a break... it wasn't an entirely conscience descion but that was what happened. So I gained 15 pounds of the 25 that I intially lost and I came back to SparkPeople with a new respect for my body, but somehow I was noticing that I was sabatoging myself as well. When I first began this journey I had no use for meal plans, I did just fine picking and chooing as I went through my days and managed to stay within my caloric range. This time around that has not been the case, I kept finding myself constantly slipping something into my mouth that I shouldn't have. By the end of the day every day I have blown it! So I started thinking, hmmm, why is this happening and why I never had a problem with it before? Was it because I didn't do the "fast break" this time around? I don't know? But I did come to a conclusion the other day, I will create daily meal plans for myself and then I have something to "stick" to, I'm not just flying by the seat of my pants. I know that SparkPeople have meal plans for us to use, but the food that they always suggest is just not what or how I eat, so I decided to make my own. It seems to be doing the trick, or at least for the moment.
But there was also something else that I learned about myself this week. If I am awake anytime past 10:30pm I get uncontrollable urges to snack. Generally, during the day I 'm not one to snack, but past 10:30 it's all over! It's almost like I go crazy... really, I am not myself in those moments. I'm sure others can identify with this problem, but I think this is the first time I have really put it upon myself. All reason and sanity goes out the door and I am not really able to get it back until I am done. My solution?? GO TO BED! It sucks, I'm not really happy with the idea, since my son goes to bed at 9pm and my daughter goes to bed anywhere from 9pm - 10pm. Which means if she goes to be at 10pm I get 1/2 hour of quiet time before I "have" to go to bed and wake up the next morning and do it all over again. Also it makes for a pretty sad love life with my husband. But for right now that has to be the only solution, considering I can't think of anything else to fix the problem.