Sunday, August 26, 2007
It is hard to lose a loved one. What is harder though is to watch a loved one weaken into someone you don't recognize. I have watched this transition with my stepfather for almost a month now. He finally left us and went to a place of peacefulness yesterday morning. I had said all of my thoughts and things I needed to say to him during the past weeks, when he was still able to comprehend. I can let go now without sorrow for my loss for I know that his being is at rest now and his suffering is done.
The road ahead will still be bumpy for a short period for now the details that follow must be dealt with. Because my mother is unable to fully care for herself, I will make arrangements for her to move to a place where she can be independent but still have others there to watch over her if she needs anything.
I've always know that I am a strong person and could handle anything that is given to me. I don't always handle it with absolute grace but I get it done nonetheless. What surprises me is how much more 'grace' I have now since I have come to know myself much better.
I realize that SP focuses on weight management, but I think it is much more. I think it gives us the chance to really look at ourselves and pull out our strengths. Those strengths then surface at times when we don't even realize that it is happening. Now is one of those times for me.