I got tested for cancer yesterday.
Friday, February 09, 2018
Wow, the big "C"! It's amazing how life comes to a screeching halt when your doctor mentions that word. I actually just went in for a routine check up and Boom, he says, "let's do a biopsy right now!" Holy crap! Luckily, my husband was with me and held my hand.
Your brain can't really process it, you forget what you had for breakfast. Where did I park the car? What were we talking about earlier? Wow, cancer. Then your next thought, if you are an emotional eater, is food. I need comfort food and a giant stuffed pink unicorn! Yep, my husband bought me a 5 foot long pink stuffed unicorn with purple hooves and a purple horn. It is the cutest and silliest thing he's ever gotten me! I love her! Ok, back to reality. How do I get through the next week waiting for the text results?
Well, I survived yesterday with the help of my amazingly positive husband! Today, he walked into our room and said, "Let's go for a walk!" So we ate a healthy breakfast and went for an hour walk up to the park. We sat and talked for a long time about everything and about the future. It felt so good to make a plan for best case and worst case. We just talked about it calmly, we hugged so much! We laughed, we walked, we had an in-depth conversation with a grouchy squirrel and enjoyed a beautiful morning.
I came home and we ate a healthy lunch and realized that no matter what that test shows, I need to keep moving forward! Yesterday, my life didn't end. Yesterday was just a blip on the radar. I will do what I need to do and take things one step at a time! I will focus on how to improve my health, my relationships and try to make life better for everyone I meet. Having a plan makes me happy and that is the best thing to be. I will survive, I will thrive and I will make every day count whether I have another 5 years or 50 years! The sun is shining and for today, life is wonderful.