Woe is me!
Friday, February 09, 2018
My usual blogs are upbeat and positive but today is not one of those days for me. Does it ever seem like weight loss is just not fast enough? I feel like gaining the weight is one thing but losing it is a totally different story. After 6 weeks, I am right back to where I started last year and I feel like I have just come full circle. I could lose another10lbs and still not be close to my goal weight. The thing is, I know that if I quit, I will gain the weight back and more and be right back here sobbing about how difficult and slow it is. But it is an uphill battle for me because while I am making progress I feel like there is still so much more to do. If I could just get down to 140 tomorrow that would be great but I understand too that I didn't get to 215 by magic either. I guess my motivation is a little be.
Why did I start losing weight? I had to ask myself this when I woke up this morning. I am losing weight because I was on the verge of developing diabetes and I didn't want to have a heart attack at an early age. I didn't want to feel pain every time I tried to stand up and I wanted to feel confident and wear some of those incredible outfits that people wear at my age. I don't want to have to wake up in the morning and look at my back fat and have to wear baggy clothes to hide. That is why I started my weight loss.
Sometimes I really need to kick myself in the pants and remember how important my health is and not what the scale is telling me. I know it is going to take time to get there and there are going to be days where I feel like its too slow of a process but I know I will get there if I keep trying. I have a great support system here on SparkPeople and I want to personally thank any of you who give me a word of encouragement or put me up for my progress so far. You all keep me going and I send 1 million thank yous to all of you. Best wishes to all of you and I hope we can find health together!