It's a New Year! I always get all these hopeful feelings at the beginning of a New Year.... this one will be different. For those of you who can relate to snow - think of a yard blanketed with freshly fallen snow. No footprints, no dirt, just fresh white, fluffy snow. That is what my new year looks like. I am not going to go into what my end of year yard full of snow looked like!
When I see that freshly fallen snow I just want to dive in and make a snow angel. Probably because that is one of the things Hallmark movies are made of. So I walk out into the yard, plop myself down and start flapping my arms and legs to make that pretty snow angel - and then I have to get up. Hmmm. How to do that without ruining the snow angel. It's a challenge for this 61 year old! I end up putting my hands down in the snow to hoist myself off the frozen ground. I walk away. I stand in the driveway to admire my snow angel, only to find there are a trail of footprints leading to it, hand prints and other spots in that freshly fallen snow and my snow angel has a rather large butt - none of which I see in the Hallmark movie snow angels. Imperfection.
Now there was a point in my life where imperfection would have driven me over the edge. Not today. I have learned - life and people are not perfect. Even those who appear to be, are not. How freeing!
I have also learned that with a light dusting of snow my snow angel's big butt will appear smaller, those hand prints and foot prints will fade away - but the image of the snow angel remains. Imagine that!
So here I am, day 3 of this new year - no goals, no resolutions - just thoughts right now. You see I have also learned that for this one to be different, I have to be different. Which leads me to.... now much am I willing to change?
I have also learned that thoughts alone will do nothing unless I back them up with action. I learned that if I am going on a journey, while it is great to wander the countryside, I should have some sort of a destination and a plan on how I will get there and when I will arrive. That is where I am - in the planning stages - again.
However, that doesn't mean I should just sit back and think "someday when I actually start this journey and make a plan I will......" So for right now, I am trying to do the next right things - like I just filled a glass of water instead of grabbing a diet soda.
For me this seems like a very slow start - almost procrastination - but I have learned that when I burst out of the starting gate at full speed I tire quickly and then I find myself sitting down to take a break. This year - I am doing it differently. It seems wrong. It seems kind of like my messy snow angel - but I have the feeling in the end it will all work out to my satisfaction!