Last Saturday, I turned 40 years old. I didn't think that I would have too much of an issue transitioning from my 30s to my 40s, however, I'm am feeling OLD!!!! Not only am I feeling old, but I'm also feeling really FAT! I had a moment where I really started to feel my age and the side effects of being overweight. I had a hard time sitting in a regular seat at the restaurant and feeling out of breath walking to and from some of my favorite places. It's not a pleasant feeling, getting huffy puffy going from the car to the restaurant. Or having my thighs hang over the chair, it's embarassing, and I realized now as I am getting older, I need to do something about it and for myself. I have a wonderful family, and a beautiful son who are there and supporting me every step of the way. They have gone out of their way to make sure that I'm eating well and reminding me to exercise. The only person in my way is myself.
The most frustrating part of this weight gain is that 5 years ago, I lost 100 pounds. I was so determined to have a baby, and the doctor told me that if I wanted to have a baby, I had to lose weight. So, I did it, I ate healthy, worked out 5 days a week, counted my calories, and BOOM! Within 18 months, I was 100 pounds lighter. The awesome thing is that I DID get pregnant and I had my son in 2014. Recently, I was looking back at my baby shower, and I was THINNER, 9 months pregnant that I am right now. That is so flipping frustrating!! As most moms know, when you have a baby, you feel like your only job is to take care of your baby. I didn't eat right, I was tired, I was working, and I GAINED back my 100 pounds.
I looked at myself in the mirror the other day, this is not who I am supposed to be. I need to be healthy for my son and my family. I need to be healthy for ME! Now, that I am entering my 40s I feel the same urgent need to get healthy again as a I did when I was trying to get pregnant. So, I started to go back to the gym this week. When I was thinner I LOVED running, but I physcialy cannot run until I lose more weight. So, I'm doing a machine mix up, where I am on the treadmill for 10 minutes, rowing machine for 10 minutes and the stair stepper for 10 minutes. I'm hoping next week that I can up the time to 12 minutes for each machine and working my way up. I want to be able to work out a full hour without stopping.
When I lost all of my weight before, I was constantly on this website and getting motivated to lose weight and finding a support system. Now, I'm on here again, hoping for the same results!
Wish me luck!