All I want to do is EAT
Monday, July 17, 2017
Well I am facing the duel edged sword - my anti depressants increase my appetite, so I always feel hungry at the moment, even when I"m really not, and I'm an emotional binge eater - and as my mood is dipping severely today for some reason I just want to go and buy as much chocolate and junk as I can get my hands on and EAT EAT EAT. Trying so hard to keep at least a little bit of a handle on it as I wasn't so good on the weekend. I am definitely not convinced that the higher dose of medication is working either, one little thing is enough to send me into a dip at the moment and it shouldn't be. I have to go back to the drs next month and if it's not working by then I will be getting weaned off it and tried on a new medication -not looking forward to that either.
Eating hasn't been terrible today - haven't got any junk in the house and kept myself level at work, it's just this evening that I am struggling, home alone and wanting to eat! Have nothing really unhealthy to eat though so that's a plus. Focusing on the positives of today - I got up and walked 4km in the cold and dark with the dog this morning even though I just wanted to stay in bed. I worked hard at work and held myself together even though I wanted to run away and hide, and I have not run to the shop to buy junk food. These are the things I must focus on and hope that everything else comes in time!