Monday, March 20, 2017
Everyday it seems I start again... Some days I try harder than others.. I have paid more than I want to admit on diet plans, but that still doesn't make me eat right. I follow for awhile, but then, a dinner out with friends or something unexpected comes up, and my intentions are gone... poof, just like that! Then it might be days, or even weeks before I start to get back on track, just to fall off again by evening. Why can't I just do it??? It's what I want.... so why don't I do it??? Okay, so obviously I need to start thinking differently. I keep hearing, make it a lifestyle change, it's not a diet. Yes, I believe that ultimately it has to be a lifestyle change in order to make it work. I think I'm finally getting that. 5 years ago, I lost over 50 lbs eating bars and packaged food with a weight loss facility. It was great, I felt great, and I lost fast and continuously. It was easy, I didn't have to make too many decisions on my own, just eat their food and one meal of protein and veggies that I prepared. But I was always waiting for the finish... until I could eat again. My mind was never right all the way through. So I got to a weight I was comfortable at and I started eating again. I never learned anything. All my old habits came back very, very quickly. So here I am, with 50 lbs back on. Now what? I can't give up... I won't give up! So I will start again, and I will try hard to come here and track my food daily. Track it even if it's not a good choice! Be accountable to it... own up to it. I will get motivation and inspiration from others here. I will keep trying!!