Wednesday, June 27, 2007
190s oh Lawd, Haven't seen these numbers in 15years. I'm wanting to get down to 170, but I'm already in a size 12, I stand at 5'9. Let see.... 170, I may be in a size 8/10. I don't know about that, that's too small. I'll play it by ear.
For me, the numbers on the scale are more important than the size I wear. Its a mental thing for me. 190 is too close to 200, 200 is too close to 250, and 250 is too close to 300. You see what I'm saying. I want to be as far from 300 as I could possibly be,without looking like a crackhead.
I monitor my progress by the compliments. When I was 300lbs, drunks, homeless men, and butches thought that I was the sexiest thing walking... don't get me wrong I'll take a compliment from whoever. Now that I'm under 200(I like saying that) I'm getting hit on by nice looking men. Of course I tell them I'm married or they notice the band on my finger but it dosen't stop the compliments. I take them.....YES, it fuel my flames and make me work at it even harder. Should I stay in 190s? ......I don't think so, I'm going for my orginal goal.