Monday, June 18, 2007
I had plateaued. For a while. And then came the daunting task of manuevering through the summer picnics and parties of the month of June with my eyes on the goal. I had a very bad weekend and my normal reaction to that is to wallow, blame everything else but myself, and spread the germ of bitterness. Not this time, kids! I jumped back in the saddle of my sparked lifestyle and kept on. This past weekend I dealt with all of the stares as I took what are NORMAL portions of foods. I selected only the freshest options available and steered clear of fat-rich foods. Sometimes it occurs to me that in those situations when people are wrinkling their noses at my choices, it seems like they are feeling the weight of their own decisions. I try to use it as an opportunity to talk about better eating habits, being active, and my journey with Spark People. I have noticed healthy options are more readily available when I eat at a relatives house that we go to often. If that means that their habits alter too, then great! The longer we will all have to spend together.
The other thing that I am realizing is that the closer I get to my weight goal, the less about the weight it becomes. There were times on my diet that I lost a few pounds very quickly and felt horrible. It was those times I had to go back and reevaluate my nutrients intake and whether or not I was letting my body rest. My Spark Buds help me to figure this out. Thank God they are there! People that I have never met, but know exactly what I am trying to do. So my focus had shifted slightly to the healthy aspect of my life rather than the diet. It makes sense considering when I look at the diet stages, I am about 3-5 days from getting shifted to stage 3, which by description is the time when spark is a lifestyle choice rather than a diet. There is such freedom in that! No more working towards this goal, just living the best ways and being the best version of myself.
I ran a 5K recently with some friends who were saying the "wow, you look great!" comments. One of them is considering doing an all-women sprint triathalon (shorter periods of running, cycling, and swimming) and she approached me about it and I am actually considering doing my very first triathalon! That is something that when I say it aloud, it stirs me to tears. I am 30 years old and I feel better than I have in my entire life and anything seems attainable! Every goal I set for myself, now that I know how to set, plan for, and persist towards them, is visible. Like the flickering tape of a finish line, this life beckons me into forward motion, quietly whispering...."go on girl, live!"
I have never felt so alive!