Thursday, June 14, 2007
i wish i had something to blog about. sadly im stuck in the 300s and have NO motivation or desire (at this time) to even try to leave.
im a failure. and im being serious, not asking for pitty.
i have an issue with the food addiction, no matter what i know i should do, i cant help myself from being drawn to the carbs...and if im in an establishment that offers them, im right there getting them.
its like a drug for me, but im never happy simply because im eating...
but i DO recognize that i am an addict to food, carbs mostly.
i have canceled one drs visit, because im frustrated with his advice, and i canceld a nutritionist appt. because i havnt been following the rules.
why waste thier time?
this is the hardest thing i have ever had to try to accomplish on my own, and i have no support here at home, and no support groups i can go to to find support.
i do good to have enough energy to post the posts i post everyday.
im just basicly exisiting right now...
in essence i feel alone on an island and drifting about being tossed to and fro...