Why oh why oh why? - Tuff confession.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Why do grandmothers always bring food when they visit :). And WHY did I feel like I had to eat it all???? My grandmother came over just a bit ago, bringing lunch for my daughter and all of us... she brought potato salad, tossed salad, sub sandwiches, chips, dip, and cookies! How could I not partake of her generous lunch? I didn't want to hurt her feelings, or not seem appreciative. So I did it... I ate the lunch and yes, it was good. But now looking back I could have passed on the chips and dip and potato salad (didn't each much anyhow, but still!) and then just had the sandwich and salad and skipped the cookies, but NOOOOOOO.... I had to eat it all. I mentally threw my hands into the air and silently said "what the heck, eat!" The clincher is the 10 cookies I ate. Now where was the reasoning in that? No where! I just gave in, and now I feel so bad. I feel bad for eating all that, knowing that tonight is going to be tuff, and I physically feel bad from eating so many carbs. They really make me feel sluggish and tired. Well, all I have to say is that today is just one day, although yesterday I didn't do so well either :( But, tomorrow I will get back on track. I can skip pizza, easily, have done that many times. I can skip the bagels and cream cheese at breakfast and the hot dogs they'll have for lunch, What I'm mostly concerned about is the baking and decorating of the cake. A tradition in my family... I bake and decorate the cakes for my kids. It all began because I couldn't afford to buy cakes, now I bake 4 a year at least (sometimes for others as well) and they are good. My daughter wants a chocolate brownie cake this year... *sigh*.... chocolate... it's my only weakness.