Thursday, September 04, 2014
I really felt like my world as I knew it ended yesterday. I spent five hours at work with the door closed, crying and staring at the wall. I was informed by my boss that my baby, HOPE Troupe was basically being dismantled. I have worked so hard the past two years to make it a success and it has been successful. Our message has reached thousands of people. I didn't and still don't know why he is doing this. I question why I ever decided to partner with this agency. Someone having so much power to crush your world is devastating. I feel empty and very alone right now. I also feel like I am getting singled out and the person who should be supporting me the most has laid me out to dry. I do not feel a part of anymore. I am being asked to meet unreasonable expectations and more pressure is being put on me that I can handle. I was totally prepared and set for the training coming up in two weeks but this has totally turned my world upside down. I just feel very empty, alone and like I'm slipping back to square one. I'm trying hard to hold on but I just don't have the energy or fight in me to do so.