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One heck of a day


Thursday, September 04, 2014

I really felt like my world as I knew it ended yesterday. I spent five hours at work with the door closed, crying and staring at the wall. I was informed by my boss that my baby, HOPE Troupe was basically being dismantled. I have worked so hard the past two years to make it a success and it has been successful. Our message has reached thousands of people. I didn't and still don't know why he is doing this. I question why I ever decided to partner with this agency. Someone having so much power to crush your world is devastating. I feel empty and very alone right now. I also feel like I am getting singled out and the person who should be supporting me the most has laid me out to dry. I do not feel a part of anymore. I am being asked to meet unreasonable expectations and more pressure is being put on me that I can handle. I was totally prepared and set for the training coming up in two weeks but this has totally turned my world upside down. I just feel very empty, alone and like I'm slipping back to square one. I'm trying hard to hold on but I just don't have the energy or fight in me to do so.
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ICECUB 9/4/2014 7:08PM

    I AM SO SORRY.HOPE THING WILL WORK OUT. emoticon

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BETRHO48 9/4/2014 5:44PM

    OhMyGoodness! Don't give up yet. Hold on and you'll get through this. If you haven't already done so, call your counselor and have a talk. Write down your thoughts and feelings, and take them with you to your counselor.
I'm sending emoticon your way and prayers up.
~Beth

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GORDON66 9/4/2014 2:34PM

  Don't let your disappointment get in the way of your training. It's to continue to move forward. Set up a session with you councler ASAP and talk, talk, talk.

Take care and get in touch with your inner strength!
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ECHOJULIET 9/4/2014 12:25PM

    Oh dear! I am so sorry.
Warm hugs,
EJ

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KATIBUG49 9/4/2014 12:14PM

    I'm so sorry to hear your pain in your story, I really hope today will be better for you. A program had this in it, it might help you. "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." Romans 12:2

Where you bring your attention determines how you feel, so focus on what you are grateful for & turn bad days into good data.

You can do it,stay strong!

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