Day Two of my Month of Redemption
Tuesday, September 02, 2014
In spite of not sleeping good at ALL last night, I still got up and did my 15 min on the cycle then I held a plank for 30 seconds.
My back is just killing me today. I finally had to cave and take 5 mg of oxycodone. I've been managing the pain with Aleve and Ibuprofen instead of working to strengthen my core and be more active, but when I had my colonoscopy recently I was told that the NSAIDS are affecting my intestines...and not in a good way. So I've been trying to NOT take it and today it is really giving me grief. I feel like such a whiner, because I *KNOW* it's my own fault, I brought this on myself by letting myself become such a fat and lazy slug. Yeah-yeah...more self-hate talk. I'm working on that.
I've been dealing with chronic pain, since I first tore my ACL over 4 years ago and I'm getting so tired of it. I felt the best when I was doing regular PT, doing Pilates and getting a strong core, so I'm going back to that. I may not be able to start for several weeks though, as my physical therapist is really booked out, so in the meantime I am going to continue my cycling and planking.
This isn't about looking good any longer. It's about FEELING good and not being in constant pain. It's about being able to walk more than a block without being winded and hurting. It's about having mobility and flexibility back and actually ENJOYING my life for however long I have left on this earth.