On Friday, my husband and I had spent a greater portion of the day on our twice monthly grocery shopping excursion. We live in the boonies and it’s 20.4 miles one way to the closest grocery store. We drive on another 20 miles past that, to take advantage of Sam’s Club and the larger grocery stores. We had lunched at one of our favorite restaurants that offers a salad bar and I’d followed my food plan with lots of fresh veggies and no dressing.
It was a long day, (it always is) and we finally finished around 4:30 p.m. and headed out for our drive home. Although only a four day school week, and the long weekend was here, the week had been quite stressful. I was very tired from the week and very frustrated with the way the school year had started. Not a good combination! Once we were on the road, my husband and I had a conversation that went something like this:
me: “I need a cheeseburger!”
him: “ No you don’t!”
me: “Yes, I do. It will make me feel better.”
him: “Only ‘till tomorrow and then you’ll beat yourself up because you feel guilty for eating it.” (Oh, he knows me sooo well.) “Just don’t think about it!” he continued and he then changed the subject. And I didn’t think about it, until yesterday when I weighed and found I had lost an additional two pounds. Hmmm??
Some years ago, when I joined an OA group, our leader would only let us talk about the emotions that caused us to over eat, not the food we consumed. The idea was that if you talked about food, it had the power to cause the mind to obsess about the food until it was finally eaten, with the likelihood of starting a binge. I now understand the reasoning behind her insightful words.
When I accepted the Fit Food Challenge, I printed all the plans and grocery lists (beautiful color pictures and recipes) for the entire 30 days. Other than okra, I can’t think of a vegetable that I don’t like. The same goes for fruits. The Challenge also has healthy snack choices. Sticking to the plan throughout the day, when I am extremely busy and “don’t think about it”, is fairly easy. Once I’m home, after a long and many times stress filled day, the evenings are another story. My pantry is now empty of the salty, crunchy junk food. And...I haven’t had any junk food in the house since I started Spark last June. So, I would read the Challenge printout in search of a snack, and pretty soon, the urge to eat junk food had passed. I realized yesterday, “I didn’t think about it.”
Such a simple solution. Simple?? Yeah, right! Who am I kidding? Like any other addiction, mine lies just beneath the surface. Food sobriety is so difficult because we can’t just give up the food and stop eating cold turkey. Today, my goal is to make sensible choices, track my food, portion my servings, and get off my duff instead of sitting on it. “Don’t think about it!” is now my daily mantra to maintain my improved health.