Sunday, August 31, 2014
It has been a real long night. Sometimes in my life I battle with getting any sleep. I have been up all night. I took my sleep aid plus niquil as I have a cold. Nothing has worked. I spent time with God telling him what I needed. I hate when this happens. It really drains me. With having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder it hasn't been easy any way to get a good nights sleep. Having it with hypoglycemia causes nightmares which don't help either. So while most of the world is sound asleep I am still up. It frustrates me to no end to be doing this. I finally got to the place I just gave up and resigned myself to the fact I am not going to sleep. With me being up all night(Saturday night) it makes for a long Sunday. I will be groggy all day. It makes me grouchy too. What a bear I can be. You'd think with being up all night I would spend the next day in bed just sleeping the day away. But for me that is not so. I have done this before. I have told God before that I figure once I get to heaven then and only then will I get the rest I need. So these are my questions....???? What is a good nights sleep feel like...? So what does 8 hours of consist of...? What does it feel like to wake up in the morning rested...? So what is a nights rest without nightmares feel like...? I don't know the answers to any of these questions. I must admit with not sleeping well and it's been going on for over a week I am concerned for myself. With having mental illness I an concerned for my mental state. I do know I need to meet with my therapist but with this being Labor day weekend it's not possible. So I guess I will just go and find something to do since I can't sleep. Good night all and sweet dreams to you.