Tuesday, August 26, 2014
When I got to the gym tonight to meet up with my coach, I noticed the training room was booked for a Zumba class. Uh-oh. While I held out a little hope that we might be doing an extended walk around the parking lot, I had a feeling I was about to rendezvous with my old friend, the octane. (a version of an elliptical). And I was right.
Did the first bit in 20 minutes (non-stop) and then had a break off the machine to do 10 more minutes. I had the option of going halfway to 15, then breaking, but Captain Mindgames talked me into pushing along to 20. I know there's a lot of science behind how my workouts go and how they are planned, but there's also more than meets the eye. When it comes to messing with my head, getting every last ounce of energy out of me, pushing me as far as I can go, this guy isn't just going on science. He has made it into an art form, including how he can needle me like nobody's business. Maybe this is why I have such a fondness for him. His take no prisoners, lay it all out there style pushes me, and pushes me hard.
Tonight for instance, I was sweating up a storm. I don't usually sweat this much in a session. My hair was dripping, my glasses were slipping off, it was hard to coordinate getting a sip of water (although, I really can't blame that part on the sweat.) I was huffing and puffing but as I was closing in on the 30 minute mark, I started to get that whooshy happy head. It's been some time since I felt the whoosh so strongly. It made me feel HAPPY. It made me feel empowered. It made me think, yeah, I got this. Plan the work and work the plan. No matter what is happening in my life, I owe it to myself to show up and to keep doing what I am doing.
My blog last night was a note to remind myself - the road is going to feel a lot tougher very soon - making a point of getting to the gym and doing my workouts is not always going to be easy - so I have to set myself up for success in any way I can. I am not going it alone, I have tons of support from every corner of my life, and I am accepting it from all comers. (This is a big change in attitude from a person who was always too afraid to ask for help.)
I'd promised hubby earlier if coach did not kill me tonight, I would stop and pick up cookies for him at the supermarket. Yeah, I did that. But I also spent about an hour wandering the aisles looking for things that I can eat (low sodium, low potassium) and are healthy for me. I did great! I got some greek yogurt, chicken, multigrain bread and other things that I can make for lunches and have for dinner. I am setting this part of the pan in motion by making breakfast at home, bringing food for lunch and having a pre-gym snack around 4pm.
This is one of those moments that I can stand up and be proud of myself. I know what I need to do, and little by little, I will get there. I am following through, because I am absolutely worth it. In all honesty, when I left the gym tonight, I felt outrageously good. I got this! #allsystemsgo