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Day 4: SPLAT!

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Tuesday, August 26, 2014



In my last blog I talked about how the ball was rolling in the right direction... but I was like Indiana Jones, trying to stay ahead of it, hoping not to get squished! I wish I could tell you that some unforeseeable circumstance came in, tripped me up through no fault of my own, and that is what caused me to fall down and get squashed by the giant boulder. emoticon But one thing that is pretty cool about me is I never play the victim. Don't get me wrong, there are times where I feel like there is a dark cloud over my head and I can't catch a break no matter what I do... but what I mean is that I always take responsibility for my choices. That is the me of 2014... 28 year old Stephanie. But that wasn't always the case.

There was 19 year old Stephanie, who lived at home with her family who were all of normal weight. We didn't cook at home, cooking was never something we did. It was always fast food. 19 year old Stephanie thought that once she got away from "these people" who were always "making her" eat fast food, the weight would melt right off. emoticon Oh how that was ever wrong. Once I got a car of my own, I got fast food all the time, without the "help" of anyone else. I moved out almost 6 years ago, lived all alone, was responsible for all the grocery shopping and food choices, and I gained EVEN MORE weight. Priceless huh? At the end of the day, I am the one making the final choice and putting the food in my mouth, so I have to take responsibility for my choices.

That is what happened on Day 4. I ordered food, I wrote down my order on the paper... (At work we can't leave, so 2 people have to do a "chow run" for everyone)...I handed my coworker my credit card, I anxiously awaited the food, ate it all, enjoyed every greasy bite (shame on me) and I ate like double my calories today. I single-handedly destroyed Day 4. Day for never stood a chance. emoticon

But I am here, taking accountability for eating the whole greasy world, and I am ready to "shake it off" and move forward. I knew when I started Day 1 of good eating that I wouldn't be perfect and that it wouldn't last forever. I will be honest and say I hoped I would crash and burn farther down the line and not on piddly day 4, but hey, stuff happens. emoticon So I will start Day 1 again tomorrow (Tuesday) and keep on working on it. When I say Day 1, that is simply counting my days back on track as a motivator to me. I count my journey as one looooong journey. This is a lifestyle change, and even though I have bad days, weeks and months, I have never quit and never started over. I've been at this for 2 years and 5 months, and that is about 2 years and 2 months longer than I ever thought I could do! The fact that I am still here, still working at this, and still have that drive and desire to lose weight is amazing to me. I may not be where I had hoped, but I am a lot farther along than I ever THOUGHT I could be! emoticon


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MRSRIGS1 9/7/2014 12:52PM

    YES, emoticon

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AMBER461 9/2/2014 11:15PM

  An excellent blog. Thanks for sharing.

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CICELY360 9/2/2014 12:36AM

  good blog

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BRENDAGAIL9 9/1/2014 2:35PM

    I have cooked since I could stand on my little stool and fry an egg when I was four years old. Mom left me alone a lot and I was left to my own devices so I learned to shift for myself. We didn't have fast foods in those days nor money to buy it if they were available. I still have mom's 1942 Woman's Home Companion cookbook and it is falling apart and yellow with age. I am the same age as the book. That is where I learned to cook after I learned to read.

I am now 72 and retired and I only eat out once a month and that is a $2 burger loaded with fresh veggies and a glass of plain iced tea. Yes. I am a little over weight simply because I don't exercise enough but am working on it. My fitbit is happy with my progress. I have 9 pounds to lose. I had five children and never kept the 'baby' fat. I cook from scratch and make mostly healthy choices. I live in senior housing and there is constantly a plate of sweets on the table in the social room but I don't eat them. I usually have an apple.

This is all about choices and we really are what we eat.

Happy Journey!

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RUNNINGYOGINIRE 8/29/2014 2:16PM

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PORTIAWILLIS 8/29/2014 1:30PM

    Same thing happened to me this week. Had made my mind up that this was the week to get back on track. Funny thing is it was just the opposite for my husband. For the last 2 months he has been upset with me because my heart, head or mouth just was not in the game. His famous words " I can't do this without your support" I have stayed on program everyday at work but when we WENT OUT TO EAT on the way home I lost my will power each night. Last night he said "sorry I have not been at the same place as you" That statement just brought home how important support from friends and family is. Also I realized it is more important to be consistent than perfect. Not to start being consistent and supportive to myself and to him. You have come so far that I know you will make your goal at the time God has appointed for your success. Keep the faith and know that we can do this.

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SHARON7464 8/29/2014 6:46AM

    Just read a great quote on Jan Marie's page- a river doesn't cut through the rock because of its power...it's because of its persistence. Keep persevering...

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RENATA144 8/28/2014 11:42PM

  OUTSTANDING !!!!!!!! emoticon

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EMMACORY 8/28/2014 9:48PM

    Your perseverance is something to admire. Each day is a new beginning, a new opportunity. emoticon

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WALNUTT1961 8/28/2014 8:36PM

    I have always believed that losing weight is a mind game. Great blog, great quotes! Thanks!

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INGMARIE 8/28/2014 5:41PM

    emoticon you can do this, I think you are doing great, after just eating fast food all your life. Cooking is FUN try it. LOL emoticon

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BLACK-PRINCESS 8/28/2014 3:15PM

    emoticon Don't Give Up!

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SWEETNEEY 8/28/2014 12:34PM

    Fall down ten times Get up eleven. RESET

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VANGO79 8/28/2014 11:14AM

    Thanks for sharing. You got this girl. We are human and definitely not perfect. Give yourself some credit for 2 years and 5 months and just keep looking forward.
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SANDRA_E 8/28/2014 7:27AM

    You can do it! You can't be perfect everyday. :)

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ZELLAZM 8/28/2014 7:20AM

    Cadbury's! ahhahahahaaaaa!

Thanks for the laugh and the good blog post (again)! I've been away and am just now catching up a bit and starting another Day 1 myself. It's 1:20 PM in Germany. So far, so good!

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BONNIEB1947 8/28/2014 6:34AM

    I have a friend at work that always asks me when they are all ordering out for lunch. I make SURE I have brought my lunch, and have plenty of OK things to keep me busy! Sometimes I will take ONE chicken finger and cut up in my salad, but since I started bringing my lunch it has made a huge difference. Good for you for not giving up and giving in to more bad choices! We are all here for you!

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 8/28/2014 5:45AM

    Thanks for sharing

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KLMEIRING 8/28/2014 5:25AM

    Love this post! Thanks for sharing.

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JIBBIE49 8/28/2014 1:06AM

    I've been here for nearly seven years and I've never gotten to my goal so I
out of 2511 days I've had a lot of "fail" days and start over, but you know what? I've never ever been back up to that horrible 214# that I was the day I joined Sparks, so don't worry about starting over. I've read hundreds if not thousands of blogs and posts of people who had joined Sparks and quit and regained all the weight and even more, so if they had just STAYED and not regained that would have been a huge accomplishment.

Do this for you.

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CAROLJ35 8/27/2014 10:19PM

    That may have just triggered your metabolism and if you go forward with many good days it will pay off.

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LIVELYGIRL2 8/27/2014 9:45PM

  Keep up the good thinking and you will figure out a plan and be back on track!

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    I love you and your honesty, Stephanie! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1STBUCKETITEM 8/27/2014 5:02PM

  emoticon Hang in there... we've all been there! emoticon beating up on yourself!
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NONNAOF2 8/27/2014 2:51PM

  Sometimes we take one step forward, then two steps back! You are very honest with yourself and trying to keep on top of things. When you go to work, make sure that you have a lunch an food with you, so you don't get tempted when others are buying takeout. Keep pushing ahead, you'll get there!! Maybe there is a buddy in the office that you could eat lunch with that is watching their intake also? :-)

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JSEATTLE 8/27/2014 2:36PM

  Steph, you are doing yourself a great service by keeping it real. Day 1 is like the first day of school--fresh pencil, clean slate.

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BRENDA_G50 8/27/2014 10:46AM

    It's a new day, forgive yourself and continue on your journey to the healthy lifestyle you really, really want. Everyone messes up now and then, but at least you hold yourself accountable. emoticon

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LCRUMLEY81 8/27/2014 10:00AM

  Keep up the hard work

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MAYBER 8/27/2014 9:11AM

    Thank you for sharing your journey each day is a new beginning what happened yesterday cannot be changed so make today a super one
one day at a time

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PATRICIAANN46 8/27/2014 8:57AM

  This is a brand new day!!!!! What happened to Day 4 is done and gone. Now you are in control of this day and I KNOW that you will do your emoticon

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HMBROWN1 8/27/2014 8:17AM

    Shake it off! Today is another day and whole other chance to "get it right". Everyone has a bad day. Today will be a great day!

Best wishes - Heather

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    emoticon you will succeed!

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