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Monday, August 25, 2014

I am in such a downward spiral of just crap. I am so sad feeling and every little thing feels like this huge overwhelming task. I can't get through the day. I just wanna hide away and cry. I am doing so bad.

I see my therapist on Wed and I am so glad because I desperately need to talk it out and maybe get some help.

At the same time I am nervous about seeing my therapist because I am going to talk to her about me having a service dog. I want her to write me a letter for it. I already have a service dog and my doctor wrote me a letter (well she is supposed to be writing it but its taking her forever to do it lol) so I'd like a letter from her too and I think I should talk about it. I guess I am just worried about what she will think, if she will agree that its a good idea or hate it. I read in support groups about some doctors not agreeing to it. That is so not what I need to hear right now.

I have taught my dog two tasks so far. She does tactile stimulation and self harm interrupt. I wanna train her to do diabetic alerts and to bring me my meds as well. Right now we are going to be working on public access focus on me.

Anyways I hope I feel better tomorrow. I wanna take a walk but I feel yucky so I know I won't. Hopefully tomorrow.
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    Hi, I just want to give you a great big hug. I hope that things turn around for you. I have suffered from depression and I know how slippery that slope is. It is so worth it to talk things out and to do all you can to keep yourself out of the pit. For me, exercising has helped a lot. The endorphins get pumping and I feel great, but all it takes is missing a couple of days, and it gets harder and harder to get back on the exercise train. I have to keep talking myself off the couch, and once I do it, I feel good again.

    I also have a teenage daughter, who suffers from severe depression, she has a history of self harm and suicidal thoughts. It was a very difficult year for her last year, she has learned many coping skills, but as the school year is about to start, she is beginning to struggle a bit. I just keep praying for her, and I will keep you in my prayers also.

    You are not alone! And I will pray that you can keep your therapy dog.


    God Bless!

    1275 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling so crappy. I hope it goes well talking to your therapist!
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  • MSHEL7
    I'm sorry you are in a funk. I just hate it when those come along. I do hope that you are able to talk things out and feel better soon.
    1276 days ago
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