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The Ball Is Rolling In The Right Direction...

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Sunday, August 24, 2014

But I'm trying to make sure the ball won't crush me! emoticon


emoticon I don't like to count my chickens before they're hatched, so I'm trying to be extra careful here! emoticon It's not that I really believe I am actually going to jinx it... I just know that sometimes when things are going well, something unexpected can pop up and throw me off my game!

But Friday I completed my first great day in almost 2 weeks! My full-blown-no-nonsense-get-bac
k-to-business-day was slated for Saturday. I knew good and well there was nothing special about Saturday, but it was farther away than Friday so it sounded great! emoticon Then I thought, just for giggles, I could TRY to make Friday my first good day on track. I tracked all my food before I went to bed, and posted a status that I would try to eat what I said I would, even if it killed me! ;) Tracking ahead of time is only a great tool if you actually follow through.

Well things started off well, but then on the way home I REALLY wanted to eat some nasty Jack In The Box. emoticon The emoticon voice inside me said "You said you were gonna start on Saturday! Why do we have to start a day early? Let's enjoy our last moment of freedom and eat EVERYTHING!" I can not lie to you, I aimed the car in the direction of Jack In The Box instead of my house... I even made it one street farther. In my head, the deed was already done. I hadn't even purchased the food, but my mind had already decided this was happening! As I approached the next stop light, I said to myself "You can still go home, you don't HAVE to do this." I said it out loud, and I turned left and went home.

Something that was such a small victory turned my whole day around. It went from being a potential disaster to being an outstanding day! I came home, made lunch and tracked everything. After overeating for 2 weeks, I am accustomed to large amounts of food. So while I was adjusting to eating normally, I felt very hungry. But I dealt with it and the day was a success! emoticon

Today (Saturday) was day #2 and it has gone well and I intend to finish out the night strong. I work graveyard shifts, so my "day" will end in about 5 hours. But I have tracked everything and will be well within my range. There was a part of me that wanted to "be bad" today... and then I thought to myself "Day 1 was SUCH a struggle, I don't want to have to do Day 1 again!" So the only reason I am sticking to it is so that I don't have to do that dreaded day 1 again. Hey, whatever works, right?! emoticon Day 1 and Day 3 are the hardest for me. I think by Day 3 I am just in the "I want to eat something awful" phase, and Day 1 is hard for me just because it's hard for me to commit to getting started.

So with 2 good days under my belt, I will be heading into dreaded Day 3, but I am armed with all sorts of tools as I head into battle! Hopefully I can slay the dragon and keep the ball rolling in the right direction, without getting clobbered! emoticon

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TJOHNOCONNOR 8/27/2014 9:28PM

    You should feel very proud of what you have accomplished though you may not see it as much. Tracking food and planning ahead, making cognizant decisions and recognizing emotional setbacks before they happen. When we start a nutrition program in Bad Diet Land with a big zero. And we want to get to Good Diet Land, rated with a 10. We have to be able to get to 1 first and own that position. Then we move to #2 and so on. The road we take is seldom ever a linear transition but a series of squiggly lines and pitfalls. Learn from them and always keep moving forward and try to do better today than how you did yesterday. One strategy that I capitalize on is finding a small change that produces a big impact. I hope all the best for you.

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CTUPTON 8/26/2014 1:56PM

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GINA180847 8/25/2014 11:50PM

    Honey, you are just so cute. I love how you have entered my head and adopted my way of thinking. Now stop that!

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MALAMI518 8/25/2014 9:54PM

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I am so happy that you are back!!! I am going to run to try to keep up with you.

My motivation is returning. I didn't think that it could happen quite yet, but you have helped me find it.

Keep it up!!! You deserve it! (Not the junk, the healthy things!)

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JOJOSLIVIN 8/25/2014 8:24PM

    Keep up the GREAT attitude! You got this! yes the dreaded day one....don't go back to have to do that again emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 8/25/2014 3:05PM

    You WON!!!

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ZELLAZM 8/25/2014 6:15AM

    I have had that dialog in my head, too - and lost - and won! Here's to winning!

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WEBEZE 8/25/2014 2:43AM

    Well said. Hang in there my friend.

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JAMER123 8/24/2014 10:50PM

    emoticon emoticon So glad you are past day one and almost day 2 and you will be on day 3 before you know it! Hang in there and you will get through it!!

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DOVESEYES 8/24/2014 8:10PM

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LINDAK25 8/24/2014 8:09PM

    emoticon Good for you!

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CELLA_P 8/24/2014 7:05PM

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AUNTALICE2 8/24/2014 6:23PM

    you go girl!!! You have already lost 90 lbs! You can do it! You can keep on track!! You are strong and committed to this lifestyle! Yeah!! for you!! emoticon emoticon

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BRENDA_G50 8/24/2014 4:03PM

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SUSIEMT 8/24/2014 3:54PM

    OH YEA!!! I feel like I can breathe a happy sigh of relief here!

Keep up the good hard work Stephanie! Jack in the Box! Ohhhh you are brave. He was a very very bad friend of mine. I am so happy he is not where I am now!

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SUBMOM2 8/24/2014 2:33PM

    Here's to a strong Day 3!! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 8/24/2014 2:17PM

    My dear, you are doing well. Proud of you.

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JENSHAINES 8/24/2014 2:09PM

    Yay, Steph-knee!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Let us know what we can do to support you!

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JCMSMILE 8/24/2014 1:39PM

    Ahh the endless cycle. Since we are not on a diet per se, but a good eating "plan"(mostly), there will be hills and valleys. I'm proud of you for climbing back up the hill!! emoticon

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HOPEFULHIPPO 8/24/2014 12:45PM

    I feel like I am forever on the dreaded day 1 and yes, day 3 gets me everytime. Last time though I made it to day 4. Guess now I'll try and go for a week...so

dreaded day 1

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Good job girl :o) emoticon

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PEGGYO 8/24/2014 11:57AM

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KANOE10 8/24/2014 11:51AM

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Way to go on those two days. I know you will do well on Day 3! You can do it.

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MARITIMER3 8/24/2014 10:53AM

    So true... One step at a time. emoticon

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TWEETYKC00 8/24/2014 10:39AM

    Whoohoo, keep it up!

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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 8/24/2014 10:34AM

    Well done. You seem like you have it in your head and are prepared. You can do this. You can do this.

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BAHAMAMARG 8/24/2014 10:23AM

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Good Job!! So glad you found a way to get back on track. I had a complete disaster of a day yesterday, but that's gone - no sense in worrying about it!

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BUSYGRANNY5 8/24/2014 10:05AM

    Good for you... love the baby steps reminder!!! Keep on keeping on!!!

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LOVINSHERRY78 8/24/2014 9:35AM

    my pregnancy has put me in the spot of making horrible lazy choices and i'm feeling like you did the other day...today is the day. my mind says oh..just wait till monday (lol)..like monday really has any significance. n e way..i'm sticking to TODAY to be PERFECT and hope i make it to day 2. i can't think any farther ahead than that. thanks for this post...just what i needed to hear.
great job for pressing through the itch for jack in the box...sooo proud of you! :)

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NASFKAB 8/24/2014 9:16AM

  great job

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DREAMSEEKER9 8/24/2014 9:03AM

    emoticon So true! I have that battle in my head on a daily basis. Good for you for making the healthy choice!

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WORKNPROGRESS49 8/24/2014 8:49AM

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NANCYTUNBERG64 8/24/2014 8:38AM

    Great strength to turn around and go home. This is what carried you through the day. You can do it. Just say NO!!! emoticon

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HOLLYM48 8/24/2014 7:58AM

    You know you have the power! You can do this. Talking to yourself out loud to stay on track is a good thing to do. You just might want to make sure no one is around to listen to your conversation! LOL. Actually, I talk to myself all the time especially during a really hard workout, telling myself I can do it, power through it, keep on pushing, think of how good you will feel when you are done and it really does help. Hang in there, day 3 will be over before you know it and you really will be on a roll!

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BESSHAILE 8/24/2014 7:42AM

    You can do it. I know you can.

and the next time your car turns towards Jack in the Box - you just chant
"Ooomph, Umgowah, Steph-knee's got da powah" and make a u-turn at the next corner.


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BLUEJAY1969 8/24/2014 7:33AM

    Way to go with winning over the Beast that wants to eat! You did so well getting back on track! You can do day 3! After that it'll be clear sailing for you! Just keep on with the mindset you have right now and you'll do just fine!
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BEATLETOT 8/24/2014 7:27AM

    Very nice!!!

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GRANJERRY1 8/24/2014 7:14AM

    emoticon Well Done... and for sure you will achieve your goal....So so proud of you for not quitting.
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BA5454 8/24/2014 7:05AM

    emoticon You did an awesome job of beating back the naysayer and letting your true voice come out. Way to go! emoticon emoticon

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AMARILYNH 8/24/2014 7:01AM

    ps - I am SO borrowing that last graphic - LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!

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AMARILYNH 8/24/2014 7:00AM

    YAY Steph - and THANK YOU so much for blogging about it! TODAY is going to be my 'back on track' day - I haven't been eating BAD, but with fresh cherries and watermelon in season I HAVE been eating more carbs than my body likes, so my weight is up 3 pounds over goal. I leave next Saturday on a river cruise and it would be REALLY nice to start at or closer to goal! You have given me the FINAL push (I was already WANTING to get back on track!) to JUST DO IT!! emoticon emoticon

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LR26104 8/24/2014 6:53AM

    You always seem to find a way to put a lot of my feelings and thoughts into words. It's so nice to know I'm not the only one battling myself on a regular basis.
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ICECUB 8/24/2014 6:53AM

    GOOD FOR YOU TO NOT GOING TO JACK IN THE BOX. I THINK GETTING STARTED IS THE HARDEST PART AND THEN KEEPING UP. emoticon emoticon ON LOSING 90LBS. THAT IS TERRIFIC.

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WENDYANNE61 8/24/2014 6:47AM

    Hi Stephanie! Thanks for the great blog - hope you can string lots of days together to make a happy necklace!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 8/24/2014 6:02AM

    Congratulations! One day at a time, as they say.
I understand about not wanting to invite a jinx. I have a plan for April in my head that I don't want to put in writing or even tell anyone about. Silly, but that's me.

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LIBELULITA 8/24/2014 4:57AM

    I LOVED this blog. I'm just back to Spark after a loooonnnnggg time away to lose once again the 110 pounds I regained from October 2012. I too am now on Day 3 and have just had exactly the same experiences as you (in my case with chocolate instead of Jack in the Box). I'd actually gone to the supermarket but told myself it wasn't too late and to walk straight past the chocolate aisle. Phew....it was a close shave, but now I feel more confident that I can do this again.

Well done you and I hope you continue to stay on track...here's to day 3!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SLLYONS51 8/24/2014 3:39AM

  I am the same way if I can get through those 1st 3 days then I'm back on track. Keep going you can do this before you know it a week will have gone by. For me, I've been back on track for 28 days and I feel much better. emoticon

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