But I'm trying to make sure the ball won't crush me!
I don't like to count my chickens before they're hatched, so I'm trying to be extra careful here!
It's not that I really believe I am actually going to jinx it... I just know that sometimes when things are going well, something unexpected can pop up and throw me off my game!
But Friday I completed my first great day in almost 2 weeks! My full-blown-no-nonsense-get-bac
k-to-business-day was slated for Saturday. I knew good and well there was nothing special about Saturday, but it was farther away than Friday so it sounded great!
Then I thought, just for giggles, I could TRY to make Friday my first good day on track. I tracked all my food before I went to bed, and posted a status that I would try to eat what I said I would, even if it killed me! ;) Tracking ahead of time is only a great tool if you actually follow through.
Well things started off well, but then on the way home I REALLY wanted to eat some nasty Jack In The Box.
voice inside me said "You said you were gonna start on Saturday! Why do we have to start a day early? Let's enjoy our last moment of freedom and eat EVERYTHING!" I can not lie to you, I aimed the car in the direction of Jack In The Box instead of my house... I even made it one street farther. In my head, the deed was already done. I hadn't even purchased the food, but my mind had already decided this was happening! As I approached the next stop light, I said to myself "You can still go home, you don't HAVE to do this." I said it out loud, and I turned left and went home.
Something that was such a small victory turned my whole day around. It went from being a potential disaster to being an outstanding day! I came home, made lunch and tracked everything. After overeating for 2 weeks, I am accustomed to large amounts of food. So while I was adjusting to eating normally, I felt very hungry. But I dealt with it and the day was a success!
Today (Saturday) was day #2 and it has gone well and I intend to finish out the night strong. I work graveyard shifts, so my "day" will end in about 5 hours. But I have tracked everything and will be well within my range. There was a part of me that wanted to "be bad" today... and then I thought to myself "Day 1 was SUCH a struggle, I don't want to have to do Day 1 again!" So the only reason I am sticking to it is so that I don't have to do that dreaded day 1 again. Hey, whatever works, right?!
Day 1 and Day 3 are the hardest for me. I think by Day 3 I am just in the "I want to eat something awful" phase, and Day 1 is hard for me just because it's hard for me to commit to getting started.
So with 2 good days under my belt, I will be heading into dreaded Day 3, but I am armed with all sorts of tools as I head into battle! Hopefully I can slay the dragon and keep the ball rolling in the right direction, without getting clobbered!