Keeping my word
Friday, August 22, 2014
Almost every day, I make an announcement to my sweetheart that I plan to go the gym, or to swim, or something else to benefit my health. And then...I just don't do it. Instead when I finish my work day, I make dinner for us (usually healthy, but still), and we sit and hang out. Sometimes we go on little outings, but still - I don't go off and take the time I need to rejuvenate myself and get moving.
We live together (for a year and a half now) and he's very supportive of this journey, but nonetheless I keep backing out on my own words.
Why do I do this? How can I really break this pattern for good? It's making me very frustrated with myself and I can't seem to see past the end of my own nose to understand why I don't do what I say I'm going to do.