My journey.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

It has been just over 5 months since I blogged last.. which is probably close to when I logged in last as well. Keep in mind that just because I didn't log in does not mean I gave up!

When I originally joined Spark People in I believe 2009, I went full force for about 2 weeks and then gave up. I finally decided to give it a real shot beginning in 2012. I did awesome. For months on end, I ate well and got in exercise, so I ended up losing around 80 pounds. I was proud of my accomplishments and while I knew I was far from the end of my journey, I got lenient with myself. I ate more sweets, drank more drinks that are full of calories, and lost control of keeping track of my food intake. Let me tell you, that was a mistake on my part. I have gained back around 40 of the pounds I lost. I now sit at 218.4 pounds. Above the 200 mark, which I previously told myself I'd never let myself go over that mark again. I am working on it and have not ever actually given up since starting again in 2012. I have just had setbacks.. which makes this time different. In the past, it was always the same issue. I always had the mentality that I would never lose the weight and I'd be fat forever. My mentality now is stuck on becoming healthy!

This time I am working on healthy. Not skinny. I have been walking and keeping track of the foods that I eat as well as making better food choices overall. Yesterday I took all my measurements (which I have not done since 2012) so that I can keep track of my inches lost more so than my pounds lost. I am working on staying away from my trigger foods. The ones that make me eat WAY more than I need. The only issue with that is that it is sugary foods. I know I can not fully restrict myself or I will cave in.. but I am doing much better. I can look at a sugary sweet and decide NOT to eat it rather than just eating it and regretting it later. I am also working on not eating past 9pm at night. I have to be up at 6:30 every morning to get my kids ready for school so it is not too hard for me. I can't eat right before bed or I end up with the food in my throat in the middle of the night. Not appetizing!

I've set up a few appointments for myself so I can work on my wellness. The main one is counseling for my depression. Some people don't realize that I suffer from depression because I hide it well around others.. except my husband. My health really affects the way I feel about myself as well so that is just one more reason I need to get fit! I am sure my husband could also vouch that I am much happier on the days that I get a walk or workout in!

My journey continues..
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    Happy dance you are back!! I'm so glad you are back and that you are still ahead of where you were in beginning!
    1112 days ago
    Welcome back - good for you for taking these positive steps
    1116 days ago
    Keep it up!!
    1116 days ago
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  • WENKEL1020
    Good for you for not giving up and staying on course. I have found working toward a healthy you is less stressful then a skinny you. Best of luck.
    1131 days ago
    I was so happy to hear from you and see your blog! I really think we all have our backslides, it's just a matter of catching ourselves. I am in the middle of trying to stop a 10 pound gain in it's tracks. I know sitting on the other side of 200 isn't fun, but I also know that you have got what it takes to get back to Onederland! I am glad you are doing what it takes to take care of yourself in ALL aspects of life and not just the weight loss part. I hope we can find our footing and keep moving forward because we deserve to reach our goals! emoticon emoticon
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