Wednesday, August 20, 2014
So I took a look around my page and realized i have not posted one blog in the month of August that is extreme for me to say the least. This could be for several reasons. There is a lot that has been going on for sure. I have found myself really contemplating my life and where it is and what I think needs to happen to get me to the happiest place for me. The answers have come but I am not prepared to take action on them yet. I believe that I have reached a point in my life where my mind can't accept just being any longer living for others that have taken advantage of that need for them to be happy. I think where some things are concerned in my personal life I have to finally just accept what parents always said " when there is no hope left do nothing ". At any rate lets move on to some better things that all that .
Last week at work this man came in that I hadn't seen I guess about 12 years. I waited on him and when done wished a good day by his name. He wanted to know how i knew his name I said because I have known you for over 10 years . He said young lady you are mistaken I said no i am not it is me Darlene and reminded of the business i use to work at. He stared a minute and he blushed red He said " my god you are half the size you use to be " . I giggled and said " I know it is marvelous." He said really I didnt know who you were at all. I said thank you.
I work hard to be different. There are days when I look like a two year old arguing with myself because I really dont want to do it that day. For me I know that life is about fitness and nutrition. It isnt a chore it is just life . I can do what I need to do or I dont, I will either reap a reward or suffer a consequence. But in the end I know I never want to go back to twice to my size. I really I dont think my body could take that stress again of dealing with all that I deal mentally and suffer physically again.
Yesterday was measurement day for me. Once a month I take them to see where we are at. I lost 3.36 over all inches with the biggest losses in the waist and hips. Need to work on the thighs more.
Today I guess i had a very important non scale victory . I have been trying to work on some jog walk intervals. Today for the first time in over 20 years I ran not jogged. I didnt run far but it was awesome to feel the pavement pound under my feet the wind blow through my sweat drenched hair to feel my heart beat in my chest . To think some three years ago they said I might not be able to walk at 50 to running no far but who cares I ran. We will see how this will progress along. I would love to run a 5k someday . might be dreaming but I also know that if i wanted it bad enough I will make it happen. Those same people never thought I would loose over a hundred pounds either .