Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Originally, this new challenge started as a fitness-only challenge. My friend Stephanie (INEEDACAT9) began a 100-Days-of-Exercise challenge, posting a picture of her fitness daily on Instagram. I loved the idea so much that I decided to copy her, and invite other friends to join a secret facebook group dedicated to the 100-day challenge. My hundred days of exercise start today, to end on Nov 27th - both Thanksgiving, and my 5-year weight loss anniversary.
But this challenge has come to be about more than just fitness. This is about reclaiming myself. The last 13 months have been VERY hard for me, especially the last 4-5 months, because of the things I mentioned in the Truth blog. (Blog is deleted now, because it discussed very sensitive things.) My self-esteem reached an all-time low, until I felt worthless, ugly, repulsive, defeated. Things haven't gotten any better in my situation, but I can't keep living in this place of fear, depression, and self-loathing. I need to reclaim myself. I need to learn to love myself despite the weapons being used against me.
So my challenge, which starts today, will incorporate more than just an exercise streak. Every day for the next hundred days, I will:
- exercise at least 10 mins per day
- eat no processed sugar, and avoid other sugars as much as possible (Note: I'm giving myself ten instances - not days, but instances - off this rule, to accommodate birthdays and holidays and such. I don't have to use all ten.)
- count my calories no matter what I eat that day
- do one positive-image affirmation thing for myself
- do one thing off a list of 100-for-myself tasks that I've created
As a reward system, I will give myself $1 for every daily goal I meet, for a total of up to $5/day, up to $500 for the whole challenge. Yes, that's a steep reward for something so simple, and for people who have just used up their savings to move across the country, but I want to believe that I'm worth it, and that this challenge - which will be a MAJOR challenge for me - is worth it. The reward will come on the last day. I will use the money on something that makes me happy - independently happy. My hope is that by the time the last day of the challenge passes, I will be a happier and healthier person, no matter what my external situation looks like on that day.