Tuesday, August 19, 2014
After work last Sunday I stopped at the gas station for something cold to drink on my way home. The young (about 25) attendant asked me how I was doing. I told him I was headed home to eat lunch and hit the weight room at the gym. He said "You are in amazing shape" When I walked on home I was on cloud 9.. I felt so good about what he had said. I used it to fuel my workout that day. I was so proud of how far I have come in this healthy life style journey. But as I do know those feelings never stick around very long. So last night I had my friend Geri come over to take 3 photos of me. A front view a side view and a back view. I signed up for a 6 week body make over through bodybuilding.com A company called MusclePharm is sponsoring it. I need to post those photos on my bodybuilding page. Well today I posted those 3 photos. As I was posting them I looked at my self and felt so discouraged. All I could see is where I needed to improve. I saw all of my flaws. I thought all of my hard work was not showing. I tried to remind myself of what Geri had said as she was taking those photos which was" WOW your back muscles are showing nicely. " I also have to remind myself that my sister said the other day "WOW I can see the muscles in your arms." I do know that I have body image issues. Some days I feel so fat. I have to remind myself of just how far I have come. I have to try real hard to remind myself of the positive things other people have said to me. I also have to remember that Claire my core instructor who has lots of muscles said it took her 5 years to get in really good shape. So I do know I have come along way. I do know I am proud of all my hard work. So tomorrow when my alarm goes off I will get my workout clothes on for my 3 mile run..come home have breakfast then hit the gym for my leg machine workout. Note to self.......Terri you can do this. Remember that you did 1 rep of 160 lbs. on the leg press machine.