Sunday, August 17, 2014
This has been a HARD week emotionally and I did soothe myself with food some days. Not good, I know.
Tuesday, our precious 13 year old cat passed away -- in the waiting room at the veterinarian's office, of all places! She seemed to have contracted what we thought was a cold that had turned into a sinus infection. I finally decided we needed to get treatment after about day 4 of the symptoms that just weren't improving. She passed away in my 15 year old daughter's arms as I was waiting in line to check in for our appointment. The vet said it appeared to be brain cancer and that she probably had it in her chest cavity, too. We had no idea. The vet said this wasn't unusual at all for cats, that they tend not to show any symptoms until it's too late. She also said there wouldn't have been anything they could have done. This was very sad and traumatic for all of us.
Wednesday, I had to make a list of what I want in our divorce papers. Then had to call the soon-to-be ex and discuss it with him. That took three and a half hours and a hell of a toll on me. He also confessed there is somebody he's been seeing for several months now and she doesn't know he's still married. That's why he's trying to push this along so fast. I felt in my heart he had somebody on the side, but he kept denying it. I felt better knowing my intuition wasn't a little haywire. The Christian in me feels better about this divorce knowing he's committed adultery. I'm still sad, but God won't find fault with me over this.
Thursday, I agreed to a visit between the soon-to-be ex and the kids while I left for the day. I picked up our kitty's ashes, too, and bawled like a baby about the state of my life. I managed to get myself together for Open House at the local public school my girls will be attending come Monday. I hate Open House. It's loud and chaotic, but totally necessary, so I put my happy face on and off we went. I came very close to throwing out my good eating habits that day. I ate horribly for the one meal I managed to have, but decided to track it later no matter what the consequences to my points. I'm glad I did. I got right back on track the next day.
I woke up Friday with a new realization. If soon-to-be ex follows through with all he's agreed to in the papers (yeah, this is my second divorce, so I realize that may or may not happen), I'm coming out of this pretty good. Plus, I no longer have to put up with him!!! He's been abusive, deceitful, and a total pain in the butt for most of the last 16 years. Sure, nobody is all bad all the time. He had some good points that I did my best to concentrate on, but my friends and family are actually relieved to know we're getting divorced. I'm sure in time, I will agree with them wholeheartedly.
So, I came close to throwing in the towel on my diet one day, but went back and corrected my attitude by tracking my bad decisions anyway. My points changed over this morning and I'm happy to say, I ended last week with 5 Weekly Points still left, a 2 lb weight loss, and a fantastic attitude this morning. :)
Have an amazing week, friends!! We can do this!!!