I'm starting to acclimate to my new job and surroundings. DH is doing a great job continuing to run with the dog (even with my lame foot he's been running while I'm working). For the first time in several years, DH's weight is down below 300 lb, which is fantastic. He's being very consistent and supportive with my health efforts as well.
Yesterday I had a pop quiz with my mentor and didn't do as well as I would like. I'll chalk it up to deer-in-the-headlights-itis. It's such an adjustment to come and fit in at a new work place where the expectations for scholarship are high. I've been doing a good job of keeping up with my self study work since I started, which is really important. There are some things I'd like to do better, but overall, I feel like I'm learning a ton. I'm going to brush off my early learning moments and push forward. It's been a very fun place to be so far. I think that what I love about learning is that even though it can be painful, understanding is incredibly rewarding.
Take for instance my emotional eating. It's been so painful to go through my emotional eating episodes. In the past, I've wondered why I derail so dramatically from my established health plan. This morning, I really started to get that I was emotionally eating.
I need a prescription that I am on regularly, but my doctor's office doesn't want to fill it (for a ridiculous reason that I will not elaborate on). I don't live in that state anymore, so I'm trying to find a new doc to get the meds. All thesse new offices I was trying to get an appointment with wanted my SSN#, ethnicity, religion...before they could tell me if they had an available appointment. Crazy, right? I stewed for a little bit...in part because I couldn't get what I needed, in part because I had been a little short with the receptionist asking for my SSN#.
Because I'm looking at SP as more of a long term relationship than a diet (as I have many times in the past), I'm trying to stay objective and rational. I noticed that I had this incredible UNREASONABLE chocolate craving. I didn't abstain from chocolate. I just looked at my calories available for snacks, and planned a minimal amount of chocolate (well...at least for me) in my eating for the day. I tried 1/4 of a brownie my boss made, a small cookie my coworker made, and ordered a skim mocha.
My DH, apparently sensing my chocolate need via ESP, showed up at my office with a low fat frozen chocolate yogurt bar! Although I had had my fill of planned chocolate dietary indiscretion, I went ahead and ate it. I'll do some extra exercise tonight to make up for it and will make sure I stick to my calorie range.
So it wasn't a perfect response to the day, but it's a LOT better than I've done in the past and I'm dealing with the issue. Learning - a sometimes painful, but ultimately rewarding, experience.
Emotional eating. I think it will ALWAYS be a struggle for me. But if I can recognize it early on, I can adjust so that I don't throw my healthy lifestyle out the window for one bad day.