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Emotional eating - recognized and conquered (at least for today)

Thursday, August 14, 2014

I'm starting to acclimate to my new job and surroundings. DH is doing a great job continuing to run with the dog (even with my lame foot he's been running while I'm working). For the first time in several years, DH's weight is down below 300 lb, which is fantastic. He's being very consistent and supportive with my health efforts as well.

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Yesterday I had a pop quiz with my mentor and didn't do as well as I would like. I'll chalk it up to deer-in-the-headlights-itis. It's such an adjustment to come and fit in at a new work place where the expectations for scholarship are high. I've been doing a good job of keeping up with my self study work since I started, which is really important. There are some things I'd like to do better, but overall, I feel like I'm learning a ton. I'm going to brush off my early learning moments and push forward. It's been a very fun place to be so far. I think that what I love about learning is that even though it can be painful, understanding is incredibly rewarding.

Take for instance my emotional eating. It's been so painful to go through my emotional eating episodes. In the past, I've wondered why I derail so dramatically from my established health plan. This morning, I really started to get that I was emotionally eating.

I need a prescription that I am on regularly, but my doctor's office doesn't want to fill it (for a ridiculous reason that I will not elaborate on). I don't live in that state anymore, so I'm trying to find a new doc to get the meds. All thesse new offices I was trying to get an appointment with wanted my SSN#, ethnicity, religion...before they could tell me if they had an available appointment. Crazy, right? I stewed for a little bit...in part because I couldn't get what I needed, in part because I had been a little short with the receptionist asking for my SSN#.

Because I'm looking at SP as more of a long term relationship than a diet (as I have many times in the past), I'm trying to stay objective and rational. I noticed that I had this incredible UNREASONABLE chocolate craving. I didn't abstain from chocolate. I just looked at my calories available for snacks, and planned a minimal amount of chocolate (well...at least for me) in my eating for the day. I tried 1/4 of a brownie my boss made, a small cookie my coworker made, and ordered a skim mocha.

My DH, apparently sensing my chocolate need via ESP, showed up at my office with a low fat frozen chocolate yogurt bar! Although I had had my fill of planned chocolate dietary indiscretion, I went ahead and ate it. I'll do some extra exercise tonight to make up for it and will make sure I stick to my calorie range.

So it wasn't a perfect response to the day, but it's a LOT better than I've done in the past and I'm dealing with the issue. Learning - a sometimes painful, but ultimately rewarding, experience.

Emotional eating. I think it will ALWAYS be a struggle for me. But if I can recognize it early on, I can adjust so that I don't throw my healthy lifestyle out the window for one bad day.
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    I liked the way you handled the chocolate situation. Brava!!
    1304 days ago
    Keep at it; it sounds like your DH is rooting for you!

    Without pain, people don't appreciate a positive experience (or the learning) nearly as much. Remember what Picard learned from Q in the last episode of Star Trek:

    Exploration isn't about finding new cultures, or charting a new star system; it's about submitting to the unknown potential inside of yourself, considering the unconsidered, pushing against your own mental boundaries, testing your perceived limits...and coming out different on the other side.

    The battle to keep emotional eating at bay may be a life-long theme for you, but each time you succeed it will make that voice inside which says "There's another way..." a little stronger. Learn what you can from your failures, but this may be a time when success is a more useful teacher.

    You wrote that your study plan is working well for you, and you made a plan to deal with your emotional eating response; use that knowledge of how to succeed! Plan some other things! What else can you do next time you realize you are becoming upset?
    1315 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/16/2014 1:30:04 PM
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