Thursday, August 14, 2014
I had my pregnancy glucose test on tuesday which I was dreading but also we had an ultrasound so I was kind of excited about the appointment as well. They called me at 5 pm the night before and to say the tech was sick, so no ultrasound. I kept reading on babycenter that most labs do a 1 hr test and then if u fail they do a 3 hr. Well my lab skipped straight to the 3 hr. At least I know I don't have to do the 3 hr if I failed this one. Ultrasound is next week. I brought up the water birth at my appointment said I really wanted one and she laughed and said "Well that isn't gonna happen and I don't do them anyway". What do u mean you don't do them? What is there "to do" when it comes to where I am laboring? I swear every time I see her, I like her less and less. I just don't even know what my alternative is. Even if I did see a midwife, the tub isn't available anymore and the midwives in town are connected to a doctor that I don't like at all. So if I have an emergency I would have to see him and that idea terrifies me. Changing doctors at 6.5 months seems stupid and probably impossible. It's gonna be what it's gonna be and best thing I can do is arm myself with confidence.
The rest of my crapola week had to do with work. Starting to really dislike my job and feel very alone there. Been doing it 4 months and I still don't feel like I can find a grove. It's active that's about it. Other than that everyday is about the same. I don't get along or have anything in common with hardly anyone. People are always around to point out where your messing up. One person tells u one thing and then another person gets mad at u for repeating it to a customer. Ughhh whatever! My photo job called a few weeks ago to see if I wanted to come back for the season. Of course I can't, that job has a lot of lifting equipment and I am not supposed to lift more than 25 lbs right now. All if fine, still working, close to home. One day soon I will wish I could work....maybe. Oh ya and I split my pants open on my way into my car yesterday for work.
Made it to my dance class twice this week so far. Saturday there is a 2 hour dance benefit for cancer research. I'll go and see how long I can stay. 90 minutes might be enough we will see. I have three maternity workout pants! Those things are damn near impossible to find! Eating has been ok, steps have been good. Last 2-3 days I got 15k steps. It's been a good week for energy so far.
Bella is embracing my stomach