Just when you think it's safe to go back in the water.....
Just when you think the good week you are rocking is going to continue as such...
You get a "reality" check that makes you doubt and kick yourself down to the curb.....
Out of the blue, you get a compliment that was unexpected, and you hold onto it for dear life as that one positive thing that can float you along for a little bit because, for some reason, your hormones and the upcoming full moon decided to play their evil game of "let's make this bigger in her head than it should be" game.
True enough, that is has been what was going on since Monday for me. An OK start to a week bought me to an old friend who always says what's on his mind when we link up, who gives me the open compliment of how awesome I look (because he is still in shock I think) and gives the biggest hugs throughout the hour we were together, just because he has to store them up because he misses me. Nice huh? Makes me want to get together more often instead of just once a year! LoL And as we should...my calendar is out right now with free dates on it!
Yesterday, I made a dorky comment to someone, basically putting myself down in a negative/positive way, and he genuinely and quickly commented that I WAS really cool and he totally would want to work for me if given the chance. I wish I could remember my words but I was in shock and happily surprised when he responded so quickly in a positive to me. Totally made me smile that I was having a positive impact and I was liked. It was a good feeling that lasted the rest of the day!
Those small things are hard to remember when you are in a bad mindset... but they can be the little lifeline you need to get by.
My kids running up to me and hugging me hello ---- lifeline.
My morning kiss goodbye and hello kiss from my hubby --- lifeline.
My kids telling me I should try out for a tv show because of some silly talent I only show them and them thinking I am awesome when I do it ---- lifeline.
Talking with my kids openly and teaching them how to be good people...and then seeing them do it all on their own ---- lifeline.
They old saying "don't sweat the small stuff" is constantly running through my head right now... sure, that is very true when it comes to a negative that shouldn't be blown up into a major issue, but the other parts of the small stuff - the positive stuff? Those parts should be held onto and cherished.... locked away in out mind's vault to bring us back up when we start sweating the negative small stuff and before it begins eroding all that was built up for the good of our being.
There are tons of positive things we can all list about ourselves - we probably just don't do it enough. Acknowledging those positive strengths can be the lifesaver when we need it most.