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Sunday, August 03, 2014

sorry for not blogging sooner i am really struggling at the moment.not so much with my weight loss(though that too) but with life in general.i am in a lot of pain at the moment and dispite really strong painkillers it doesn´t seem to make muchh differance.the pain and lack of sleep is really starting to get to me.also the fact that i am not as much on the computer as i like or should i say need to be at the moment as i am notsuppose to sit for a long time.i am not only suppose to not sit for long periods but i can´t si for long because of the pain.on top of all this zakariya has been really ill.he ended up being in hospital a few days while i was at rehab and since i have been home(since a week last friday)we have had to go 3 times to ER with him.he is on really strong medicine also and the specialist wants to see him again tomorrow and he has warned if he is not better he will have to keep him in again.it woudn´t be so bad but lotfi and the boys are going to tunisia on holiday on the 10th.also tomorrow i have physio(which i am having 6 times a week) and in the evening have the dr for my bloods etc as my blood thinners tablets still haven´t righted itself since the op and i am still having to have two heperine injections a day which leaves me with a beautiful rainbow coloured belly,lol.all this made me think of things i have not been doing or have been doing on spark that will help you lead to the conclusion that i am struggling.

i am either late answering blogs or don´t reply at all.when i do reply it is normally with an emotioninsteed of going into detail.i think leaving an emotion when you are not up to a proper reply is better than nothing.at leaast i hope the recipiant feels that way anyway.

i don´t reply as often to the threads or reply with just emotion or keeping it very short

i don´t blog as much as i should

i don´t do my status every day.

basically i am not my usual chatty self.

also i don´t always reply and thank my spark friends for their comments.goodies etc.which i sincerley appoligise for.i sometimes haven´t got it in me to do personals.

anyway now you know where i am at the moment.thanks for taking the time to read my blog and a double thanks you if you reply.take care and keep smiling
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    Hope things are better for you and the boys my luv, sending hugs and prayers your way emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1124 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon (I so understand, take care as you can, it's ok, and I hope you'll be able to spark more as you'd like again soonest)
    1143 days ago
    You plate is very full. No worries about blogging or other wise. You and your family comes first. Prayers for total healing for you and your son, family. Is his allergies acting up on him. I know how hard it is managing allergies/asthma for the kids. My special needs son has allergies/asthma and so do I...I try and stay on top if it. HUGS
    1144 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    emoticon emoticon answer when you can
    1145 days ago
    You have to take care of yourself first, no apologies are needed. I wish you were not in pain everyday. I pray your pain and struggles are temporary.
    1146 days ago
  • MUSIC66
    Sorry ur struggling still waiting on the biopsy results from last Tuesdays surgery and still
    Waiting on surgery date for tkr they where stupid to gave surgery booked for end of August but can't fit me in as all booked out so they said would be the minimum they could do op but trying to fit me in for September if not October but if not done then have to go back to preadmission clinic because they have to do the op a maximum
    Is three months after preadmission so sick of knee pain
    1147 days ago
    Oh, Karen! Please don't worry about responding, etc. Sure do miss you and wish there was something I could do to help. Was so glad when I finally logged in to see that you were able to post. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

    Big hugs to everyone!!! emoticon
    1148 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    emoticon I hope you and your son feel better soon!!!
    1148 days ago
    I hope things settle down very soon and that you are feeling much better! emoticon
    1148 days ago
    I think you are FAR too hard on yourself! SparkPeople is here to give you joy and support, not to become a burden on you in hard times!
    1148 days ago
    Take care of yourself and your family, we all understand that right now it is hard for you to be on so don't worry about us. We all will be here when you can get on, please just get better so you can come back. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1149 days ago
    My dear, you are definitely in my thoughts that things get easier for you. It's just plain hard when so much is going on and you don't feel good either.
    1149 days ago
    take strength from all the love you will be sent via Sparkpeople. You give so much love, it is time to refuel the tanks, xxx
    1149 days ago
    You are always in my thoughts and prayers - both you AND your family!!! Have you thought about setting your computer up where you can use it while standing??? Take one day - one hour - one minute at a time!

    Love you!!!
    1149 days ago
  • SAASHA17

    Hugs..last thing for u to worry is abt spark n us...u take care n ur in my prayers..

    Take care
    1149 days ago
  • SAASHA17

    Hugs..last thing for u to worry is abt spark n us...u take care n ur in my prayers..

    Take care
    1149 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    We all struggle sometimes, the trick is to ask for help - so.....

    What can we do to help you through this tough time?

    Sending good vibes and healing thoughts your way

    1149 days ago
    I am really sorry to hear how hard it has been for you and also with your DS... I so hope that soon you will be feeling much less pain and feeling so much better and that Zackariya is also quickly recovered...

    I think the emoticons and even just clicking the "i liked this" button is a more than acceptable way to let people know you are reading and caring... anyone who has gotten to know you, realizes you would be writing novels as responses if you at all could...

    but for now just try and take good care of yourself and don't be at all hard on yourself..

    with care,
    1149 days ago
    Hi Sweetheart .. I am so sorry to hear you are struggling ..
    The pain must be awful ..I would have thought that your doctor would have had you on stronger meds .. You have been through so much ..
    So sorry Zakaria is so very ill .. emoticon
    It's awful having a child so ill and you not being able to look after him ..the hospital is probably the best place for him at the moment as you need your rest ..
    Don't worry about Spark and catching up with everyone .. I am sure we all understand ..
    Know that I am thinking of you and sending healing and loving Prayers and vibes your way ..
    Love you xx Susie xx
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    1149 days ago
    You are certainly being tried on earth dea4 friend. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.
    You are in our thoughts and prayers, as is all your family.
    No need to visit to thank me, I know you have said thanks in your head, that is enough for me.
    1149 days ago
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