Sunday, August 03, 2014
sorry for not blogging sooner i am really struggling at the moment.not so much with my weight loss(though that too) but with life in general.i am in a lot of pain at the moment and dispite really strong painkillers it doesnīt seem to make muchh differance.the pain and lack of sleep is really starting to get to me.also the fact that i am not as much on the computer as i like or should i say need to be at the moment as i am notsuppose to sit for a long time.i am not only suppose to not sit for long periods but i canīt si for long because of the pain.on top of all this zakariya has been really ill.he ended up being in hospital a few days while i was at rehab and since i have been home(since a week last friday)we have had to go 3 times to ER with him.he is on really strong medicine also and the specialist wants to see him again tomorrow and he has warned if he is not better he will have to keep him in again.it woudnīt be so bad but lotfi and the boys are going to tunisia on holiday on the 10th.also tomorrow i have physio(which i am having 6 times a week) and in the evening have the dr for my bloods etc as my blood thinners tablets still havenīt righted itself since the op and i am still having to have two heperine injections a day which leaves me with a beautiful rainbow coloured belly,lol.all this made me think of things i have not been doing or have been doing on spark that will help you lead to the conclusion that i am struggling.
i am either late answering blogs or donīt reply at all.when i do reply it is normally with an emotioninsteed of going into detail.i think leaving an emotion when you are not up to a proper reply is better than nothing.at leaast i hope the recipiant feels that way anyway.
i donīt reply as often to the threads or reply with just emotion or keeping it very short
i donīt blog as much as i should
i donīt do my status every day.
basically i am not my usual chatty self.
also i donīt always reply and thank my spark friends for their comments.goodies etc.which i sincerley appoligise for.i sometimes havenīt got it in me to do personals.
anyway now you know where i am at the moment.thanks for taking the time to read my blog and a double thanks you if you reply.take care and keep smiling