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Saturday, August 02, 2014

That is such a huge question! I am all over the place at the moment but I can say that I am making a little bit of progress in the right direction even as life throws some pretty wicked punches.

I decided that I needed to get a move on in the eating area and realised that my "won't power" is far to weak to rely upon at the moment so I needed help. Thank goodness for "Lite 'n' Easy" food delivery. At the moment I am back receiving the delivery of all my meals so that I get back into the routine of eating the correct portions as well as trying different food options to add variety to my otherwise boring eating habits. So far it is working well and I have started to see the scales move in the right direction! My weight desperately needs reducing and the upcoming shoulder surgery and my son's wedding have been motivating forces to get me moving in the right direction. I know that getting my food delivered is not going to be a long term solution, nor is it sustainable over the long haul( both financially and as a solution to my eating issues) but for now it is what I need to get going in the right direction.

My nephew's visit from the UK is almost over, just 10 days to go. Today we are picking him up in Sydney,after his past few days in Melbourne, and taking him out west to Bathurst, where he was born, for a couple of days. On our way home on Tuesday we will be showing him parts of our beautiful Blue Mountains. His last days will be spent doing some local day trips. His five weeks or so have been pretty busy and for me have been exhausting as the load has been mostly mine. I have discovered that I feel really pressured when my sister's kids have been to stay because I feel that my life is under the microscope while they are here and I worry about what she is thinking. Silly I guess, but a reality for me. When Stephen returns home I will feel much more relaxed. His trip hasn't been terrible by any is all me that struggles. I am tense and on tenterhooks all the crazy lady here!!!!

I have managed some walking and will really try and get more exercise in after the Bathurst trip and Stephen's departure. So far I have lost almost 6 lbs ( 2.6) kgs so I am really pleased. I am hoping to lose at least 5 kgs by my surgery. My plan is stay with the food delivery while I am recovering so I don't eat with boredom or misery and then ,when I am feeling up to it, I will start on my own food again, by which time I hope portion sizes and variety will be set in stone and I will be able to maintain healthy eating habits.

Life and death happens and we all have to face some pretty big challenges from time to time. The handling of these challenges thrown our way is what is important, even when we don't understand or expect to face such events. My husband's niece was found dead on Wednesday night so he had to go with his sister to help identify her and help with all the police stuff. He is also going to be taking her funeral whenever her body is released. It has been a terribly sad few days as the whole family has tried to come to terms with a young person's unexpected and, for now, unexplained death. None of us can seem to get past the shock and loss. What good can possibly come out of such a tragedy? Why should we have to have such hard things? I have no answers but I know that in our lives there are things that happen from time to time that seem insurmountable but we do get through and often get stronger as a result. No one wishes for bad things to happen in anyone's life but rather then groan and moan about it, perhaps we need to concentrate a bit more on getting the courage to get up and keep going, keep fighting and living the best life we can, even though we have a million unanswered question going through our minds. I am sad and angry about our niece's death, sad for her mother's loss, concerned about our wider family's grief, and struggling to find the sense in any of it. However, I am choosing, this morning, to pick myself up, dust myself off, and to live my life a bit more fully from here on, to maybe live better, stronger and wiser, in honour of our girl who has lost her life at such a young age.

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    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. so sad. Look after yourself. emoticon
    1232 days ago
    I am so so sad to read of the death of your husband's young niece - how old was she? How very very sad. My thoughts are with you all.

    Your blog came at a time when activities here had delayed me from sending you one of my 'Now then, Glynis......' missives - and you know what my instincts are like in this regard. How relieved I am that, on this occasion, I was off beam. I have to say that, in spite of your commitments, worries and tragedy, your blog shouts an undercurrent of positivity and achievement. You seem to have tweaked your perspective and are dealing with everything life has thrown at you with insight, acceptance and an element of 'grit' - to say that I am thrilled and genuinely proud of you is an understatement.

    Glynis: YOU ROCK! This is where synergy is rearing its head: the strength you are getting from being more in control of your health and nutrition is creating better emotions in handling all your other pressures and tragedy; the way in which you are approaching the pressures and tragedy in your life is creating a positivity in how you are handling your health and nutrition. Marvellous - sadness in there, yes, but strength too. Well done, Old Girl! Can you feel the big hug I'm sending you now???

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    1232 days ago
    emoticon So very sorry for your loss.
    1232 days ago
  • MARYANN2323
    I'm really sorry to hear of the loss of your niece. There never is an easy answer to the whys of such a young death. But life goes on, with or without us. It never stops. Like you say, all you can do is pick yourself up, dust yourself off and carry on.

    I'm thrilled emoticon to hear of your weight loss and all of the sensible things you are doing. Wonderful for you! And here's me thinking you were off the program again. Shame on me! I have more faith in you than that. Keep it going, Glynis, I'm so proud of you!
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    1232 days ago
    emoticon for your loss. emoticon
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  • KERRYG155
    I'm really sorry to hear of your niece's death. That is definitely shocking. One of my daughter's friends was found dead in her apartment her first year away to college and I know it was a shock to everyone. She had severe asthma. It's sad to see a promising young person die-all that promise suddenly gone.

    Congrats on the 6 lbs lost. I'm glad the packaged meals are working so well for you. Enjoy the time you have left with your nephew. I gave up trying to compete with my siblings-I'm just so opposite of them all it's amazing.
    1232 days ago
    I am sorry for your loss. I will pray for you and your family
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