Saturday, August 02, 2014
So I was denied unemployment yesterday. They say it was intentional insubordination and that I had intended to create a hostile work place. I'm not sure how they assess that from the information supplied but it is incorrect and I'm appealing the decision. I really do not understand how I or someone who is eager to learn, help out and takes great pride in the work they do can be such a threat to someone with more experience than I but apparently I was.
I feel terrible but have stuck with my chicken, broccoli, water diet despite wanting to eat everything else on the planet.
I have been a single mom, the know it all, be it all, fix it all person and right now I blame myself for so many things that were in and out of my control and I know that this internal blaming is the reason behind the weight gain. I internalize so much vs sharing and letting it out.
Frankly this entire situation with having been fired has me seriously ticked off and it seems that despite my numerous interviews they are either saying a bunch of negative things or their tone is doing all the talking.
I know I DO NOT want another office job, I will die of boredom and lack of interest or passion. I want a baking job for a from scratch company and will do what I can to achieve that. Maybe go into business for myself though I'm not sure that is right either.
For now, I'll hold on to what I've got and keep doing what I know to do and move forward. Health first, staying positive and eating right plus moving.