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7/31/14----it's been a while

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Many things have gone on since the last time i wrote in my blog. I am being more active, which is what I can do to get to my weight loss goal. I realize I am not willing to change what i eat and drink at this time. that will come. I believe, for me, that when i am active on a regular basis, then my eating and drinking will become healthier.
My dog, Kirby (9 yr old boxer mix boy-tan and white in the pictures), went to Rainbow Bridge 7/14/14 due to cancer and I was okay for a couple weeks. I knew that he was sick and wasn't going to be around for much longer because i had been having bad dreams where i had to make that final decision. It wasn't any easier the day it happened. My DH didn't want to let him go yet, and neither did i. however, because of the weekend events, i knew that it was only fair to have Kirby leave this earth on a good day (ate his breakfast, kept it down, along with meds staying down).
It wasn't any easier to take him in the vet office. I am pissed at them because he wasn't understanding what was going on and they were forcing him to lay down. I regret not making them stop and allow me the time to get Kirby to lay down on his own so he wasn't freaking out. I will regret that for the rest of my life, and I won't let that happen when I have to make the decision again for any of our other furry children (currently Ziggy, our other dog).
Other than that, and working through those feelings, I am doing pretty good.
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    I'm so sorry about your beloved Kirby. But I believe they visit us from time to time, whether it is to sniff our faces while we sleep, or to play with another fur baby. He'll be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. Don't be too hard on yourself about the experience. He was with you and that makes a huge difference.

    I think that it's ok to splurge every know and then when it comes to food, especially when you know you need that mental break. The important part is the lifestyle change of paying attention to what you're putting in your body. At least that's what I think! :) I lost a lot of weight before and I gained it back because I lost it too fast and didn't fully learn how to handle healthy weight loss. I was insane the whole time and probably a pain in the butt. But now I think a bit more like you and just going with the flow, but with a mindfulness I didn't have before.
    1331 days ago
    lOVE the pictures
    1331 days ago
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