Thursday, July 31, 2014
Many things have gone on since the last time i wrote in my blog. I am being more active, which is what I can do to get to my weight loss goal. I realize I am not willing to change what i eat and drink at this time. that will come. I believe, for me, that when i am active on a regular basis, then my eating and drinking will become healthier.
My dog, Kirby (9 yr old boxer mix boy-tan and white in the pictures), went to Rainbow Bridge 7/14/14 due to cancer and I was okay for a couple weeks. I knew that he was sick and wasn't going to be around for much longer because i had been having bad dreams where i had to make that final decision. It wasn't any easier the day it happened. My DH didn't want to let him go yet, and neither did i. however, because of the weekend events, i knew that it was only fair to have Kirby leave this earth on a good day (ate his breakfast, kept it down, along with meds staying down).
It wasn't any easier to take him in the vet office. I am pissed at them because he wasn't understanding what was going on and they were forcing him to lay down. I regret not making them stop and allow me the time to get Kirby to lay down on his own so he wasn't freaking out. I will regret that for the rest of my life, and I won't let that happen when I have to make the decision again for any of our other furry children (currently Ziggy, our other dog).
Other than that, and working through those feelings, I am doing pretty good.