Wednesday, July 30, 2014
I'm currently 18.5 weeks pregnant and since the babies might/probably will come early I'm trying to think ahead about paperwork for my employer, etc.
My husband has a good job with the railroad, and we have been saving conscientiously throughout the 6 yrs we've been married in hopes that I can stay home with the babies after they're born.
We have determined that for our family (everyone has to make their own choice and I respect that)....this will be the choice we want to make. I am suddenly finding myself very conflicted though.
I want to stay home and raise my babies, but I really do love my job. I enjoy it a lot- love my boss and co-workers- have great hours, pay and benefits.
This is something we've always wanted to do but now that it's actually here- or will be in a few months- I'm finding it hard to actually make the final decision and let people know that I won't be coming back after maternity leave.
While a great job that you enjoy is a blessing.....I can't help but think that if I hated my job that would make this decision a lot easier! haha. Oh well, I just need to be thankful that I have loved this job. And as I remind myself, I can stay home with the kids then go back to work when they get into school--they're only little for a short time and I can't get that time back.
The other thing is that pretty much everyone that I work with has had kids- the vast majority of them- but still worked after having kids. They took maternity leave but came back to work and put their kids in daycare. So- I'm definitely almost the only one that i know of here that has made this choice. It's challenging to be the odd one out- even if you're convinced you're doing the right thing.
Ah well. This was just my venting blogging session I guess. I just need to keep reminding myself that this is what we've decided would be best for our family in our situation.........it will work out and I'm sure someday I'll look back and be glad that I stayed home with the babies.